I wake up in the morning feeling like a child
But something inside me is crazy and wild

The words pour fourth like water
Pennies spilling, made of copper

It boils over and it burns
Remembering lessons I have learned

I yearn for the light hidden behind your eyes
Like the sea and its stormy skies

I cry but my words fall upon deaf years
Struggling to see you clearly through the tears

Oh a child I am and child I will be
Will I ever be able to see

I am blind lost in darkness
Feeling empty no more no less

Pain is riddled in my chest
Is this all just a test

I gave my all you want my best
Stop wait I need to rest

Holding on to your hand
I am falling help me stand

You are strong you can see
But why do you ignore me

I am trapped behind glassy expanses
Standing in silent trances

I am afraid to move my feet
Will the earth crumble beneath

My hands reach out and brush your face
Just one touch just one trace

Your heart is soft I melted you
Didn't think I could get through

I cannot look but I can see
I'll hold you here next to me

I knew you would come for me
I turn my back against the wall
Trying to estimate your angle is exhausting
Anticipating your timing aggravating
God I just loved minding my own business
Nothing of this taste is bittersweet
I find no eloquence in this
I am not fine
Incapable of being refined
Raw and hurting
Stand my ground
My lip quivers
I thought you had pulled
Every last tear I would ever cry
From the corner of my eyes
I questioned once if anything was real
Now I wonder if I am healed
Is this a test of the universe
To see what I have learned
Or are you out for blood
It would not be the first time
You spilled mine

I thought I had closed my eyes
For but I moment
In just that short a time
The night had fallen
Like a bird shot from the sky
The moon had crawled
Into place with the stars
And the sun ducked
Beneath the shy horizon
I waited.
With baited breath
The rooster would not crow
For many hours yet
And what does one
Twixt sunset
And sun birth
I called to the stars
And they winked back at me
Sang to the moon
Yet she howled back
Calling into the night
Every secret the night knows
And that was when i shut my eyes
Tight enough to block out the world
And long enough for the sun
To peek from the skyline
And they moon to carry
The next night over the edge

perfection
           is nothing
                  when I could have
                                                 you

I let loose
A stampede
Of blood horses
They raced down my arm
To be the first down the drain
To be the first one to run away from me
At the first sight of pain.

What words could I give to the whisps of your memory
I grasp for you with bleeding fingers
There is no spine to this fragment of my stained glass thoughts
I slam my head against the open door of the temple
These hinges, creaking in the presence of angels
Lucifers hands grasped around the pulpit, knuckles splitting open
While the corners of his mouth parted, like the legs of a ******, for honey fangs that drip the sweetest lies
The convenience of the cross beneath the vaulted ceilings
Will the devout fill this room with prayers
Their words are just smoke
They will not wash away the pentagram burned into the virgins flesh
Her skin stings, this pain it does not fade
This pain, it covers her dutifully
It is a garment to her carcass
No man will lay with her as faithfully as her grave
The earth is her most devoted lover
Gaia so patient in her lust
She has born a sun and now she lays barren
Let the earth split
Hell swallow her up!
These are the runes on the temple walls
If only your fingers read as well as your eyes write
These riddles are for sinners
Wrap your head around naught
These black droplets are for you
Let them coax you into the leviathan depths
Fools hate the wise
Fools hate fools
Excluding only their own foolishness
This is the commandment in the book
Lay down during the night
That your fortune be good
That the blood moon pass you bye
Let another fill the lust of Luna's stomach
This is the dark side of the moon
The devil is impatient tonight
He will have the blood on my hands for a necklace around his throat
Who will look into his eyes and dare him to steal petals from heavens doorstep,
for his own grave

From all of the mortals below perspectives
You seemed to run so slow across the sky

For it was a dance of an eternity
A moment in the night of your life

And so you took your sweet time
As you ascended among the stars

To be the beautiful light we watch
You blushed red, from all the attention

And hid behind your neighbor
But with a gentle light you glow

So well you know your journey
So beautifully you dance

And as those of this earth looked on
You dared to take a glance

Every eye beneath the stars
Was yours to consume

And in each of the iris's
You saw a shinning full moon

How fearful I am to ask
That your words be for me
No sooner do they leave your lips
Than they find my ears
On will they go
To find another
Sweeten their thoughts
Though you have never left mine
My fears for you
Is that your fingers find another
Whose hands are not cold
I hope only that the warmth of my heart in winter
Is a beat you will still hunger for in spring
My hope that time will make a mockery of these insecurities
Buds now, I hold my breath for her to bloom
Patience is a song unfamiliar to my fingers
A melody the ivory knows well
Will this be the music of the night
Or the song that you sing to wake me in the morning

Cherry blossom love
I wait for you to bloom
Breaking the soil
As only springtime can
Already I know
How beautiful you are
Will you ever know
How beautiful you can be
Even more still
You are all beautiful things, to me

Will you write my memories
In a bold font
Curate my remembrance of you
Sweet as the honey it is

You can see bruises
Ripening on my apple skin

I don't want you to recognize them
If you placed your palms against them
Would they fit like key-in-lock

We all have our own unique fingerprints
Mine are frost bitten

Anytime you think of me
I am with you
Once in a while
Let me cross your mind
Blue moon loss
Setting sail
Gentle tides
Of an angel lit cross

I am a crime scene
There is blood on the walls

I can breathe
I can breathe
The air that's pushing out from my diaphragm
Is humid and labored
I can breathe
The blood circulating to my hands
Stops at the leather around my wrist
Animal skin is not the only contact on mine

I can breathe
I used to tie cherry stems with my tongue
Now I bite it as ropes tighten
A second ribcage around my chest
A necklace around my throat
The carcass kiss of summer dripping
Warm wax on my thighs

I can breathe
Breathe into me
Your love, devotion, possession
Fill my senses
Tighter

I can breathe

I wait on wings
With borrow time
Every flap
Out of line

I dance on oceans
Made of glass
Every step
To make time pass

I breathe in air
Of yesterdays
And sing the songs
No one prays

You saw the darkness coming
Though it had never found a home in you
The sweetness of his words
Did nothing to mask the bitternes of his heart
And a touch that was as unexpected as it was unwelcome

A little part of my heart is broken for you
Things things I have heard
Things I have seen
And those I have felt, for myself and for those I hold dear
Told with a courage that should not of had to be mustered
You are so brave
And my spirit goes out to you
That you would find comfort
Even as your will, that has  been acted upon by another
That has no right
No say
In the beauty of your spirit
Or the making of your mind

Another man's bread
Has nothing to do with how you set your own table

You pile high the hearts you stole
Will you ever reach your goal
The stack that stretch to the sky
Reaching endless miles high

You look airbrushed all to fake
But its my heart you intend to break
Does this some how satisfy your soul
How does make you feel whole

The memories drawn across your face
Will I soon take my place
I don't want to be another ended line
But if its destiny it will be my time

You break and bend rules of all kinds
And you are not trapped by an expanse of time
Only confined by your master
He bids you works faster

The scars on your back are your own doing
But I shall be your undoing
You know not of the dens in the dark
I sound my call whence sings the lark

A song unbidden to human ears
This will reunite you with your fears
Flood gates shall open on heaven and earth
And you shall be given your pitiful worth

The signs at the fork in the road
The waves against the shore seeking to erode
You shall be washed from heart and mind
I shall but take my time

The craggy cliffs unreachable
The sand on the shore unbleachable
A word that does not fade on my lips
The stories lost between trips

A kiss that you seek to devour
But you must wait for the right hour
A trap set with you as bait
I hide in the shadows and I wait

No trick of fools to be wasted on you
I have thought my vile plan through
When the you the Breaker plan to break me
I will not hide I will let you see

But when you traps you set for me in vain
I shall then cause you more pain
The eye is on you watching closely
And blames shoulders sets on my solely

When my life you though you could steal
But you are left with nothing to feel
When reality hits you in the face
And you are lost in outer space

The Breakers rise out of earth crust
Brought forth by vile lust
But I am the will of all power
Bringing forth your ending hour

I wanted to breathe with my heart, whispering...

I hope you find your happiness
I hope to God you make your healing
If love was tangible
It would be a blanket to keep you warm on the nights so cold and soulless
It would be the way home on the night of the weakest moon
It would be my hand winding through yours like a vine

A dreamer kisses a canves, because even if there is no beauty to be seen in something, it can be made
A vessel, no less, no greater than the intentions
Just as the hands who work it are folded in prayer

I wanted to breathe with my heart
Wanted to kiss with my hands
I'm learning to love though
As only a fool can

Could I build a poem like a brick house?
Held together with black and white emotions
Versus mortar, though some be just as hard

Could I stack them on top of each other?
Or would they not be strong enough
Would they break, or could they hold?

Could they blend together to make a beautiful picture?
Or be so obscure and obscene they would crumble
Would you find it beautiful?

Could you even understand?

We wair for own runrise
When we ourselves are fire

My tongue can taste the moisture in the air
It is thick with longing for the nightfall
But my bones are dry and brittle
The will break soon, and my heart with it
Still I will carry myself into the dying of the sun

the air starts to thicken
and my steps start to quicken
not sure where I am running to
as long as its away from you
the lies that haunt my dark dreams
i am tearing at the seams
the ice sliding down my spine
just another defect in a line
when my skies are no longer clear
my vision is clouded by fear
the tears that evaporate by the sun
the pain you replaced and battle you won
i must lie if only to protect you
i have to I'd die if you saw through
i am a piece of distorted glass
something that wasn't made to last
just one shot and I would be erased
but i always forgive you when I look at your face
the lines on my face and waves in the sea
my feet are running I am ready to flee
long and hard strokes of oars
locking all of my doors
one mark higher than the rest
that still doesn't make you the best
when the test is impossible to fail
i am still standing here empty and frail
the call of the wind falls on deaf ears
all I hear is the sound of my fears
the light at the end of the tunnel is gone
and I realize all this time I was wrong
to late to turn or change my mind
i was you looking and you were all I could find
just enough to get my through
ready to plow ahead but looking back to you

When a heart breaks it doesn't split in to
And your mother cant fix it not with glue
I don't want chocolate or any other food
I don't want to come across as rude

I just need love and I need time
I broke my heart when I signed the dotted line
I crossed on a broken bridge
And was left falling from a ridge

I fell long and I fell hard
And when I hit the bottom I saw stars
I didn't hear your voice cause I was all alone
I fell hard just like a sinking stone

I was trapped in a room no window or door
And I curled into a ball and slept on the floor
I lay like that for a long time
Like a sleeping mime

I was kept in a box
No key no lock
I need to escape
Without a single scrape

I cut my arms
I bruised my legs
I hurt my heart
And burned my head

Its all your fault I'm not okay
I didn't think love would end this way

Will we be angels too
When the heavens are emtpy
Crossroads of empty streets
Will not bear
The body of Nazareth
We remember our shame
As children
Like nothing else
What do we hold
In common with monsters
Will we ever covet
The exhibition of kidness
Not only the reception of it
Are you willing
To be an imperfect
Example of compassion
While whole human
And partly humble

When I come home
I will scatter my prayers, like petals
On the stone under which you lay
I promise for the dead
The living could not keep
Words in my head
Though it is my heart that does weep
Oh friend, at a fingertips length
My apology to the sky will you take
A home for you, not found on earth
My promises are of little worth

I don't believe in fate
The omens do not control my life
The lines in my hands are merely lines
The marks on my body tell the real story

My hair is long the perfect mask
I have pictures of things that could never last
Time is a monster it devours me whole
I cling to precious seconds before they are gone

When a smile is all that I have left to wear
The empty compliments are so easy to accept
But what is the point when all I feel is contempt
How is self pity ever acceptable

Books are my friends I am torn between pages
When I can live a life I know will end happily ever after
But when I am forced to return to the world I dwell in
How can I not break from the stress

I am real you cant press me between pages
I am something that wont last I will fade
Like flowers trampled under foot in a glade
Just more earth turned over with a *****

When I regret the words I continue to say
Waiting and hoping for the end of the day
How do I grow with no sun love or water
I am a piece of clay left to dry without potter

When the fairytale ends and I am faced with reality
When people are forced to accept the real me
When bold words come from foolish hearts
When I end where I wanted to start

Then I am truly only and at peace
Then I am forced to face the beast

If my voice was as loud as my heart would you hear it?

Like Fall's best shades
Your eyes shine
If they were steps
I would climb

Cool and dark
And mixed with ice
To look in them
Is to pay a price

Brown as the leaves
With a shimmer
Deep as the earth
Tears much thinner

Gentle gazes
But yet you see my soul
Looking inside
To see what's whole

Sweet like chocolate
I dare not take a bite
I could never able to handle
The feelings at that height

For I would never wish to harm
That gentle part of your soul
I'd rather just watch
And let you stay whole

But yet I bit into your poison
A choice I chose to choose
And I shall regret nothing
For it was mine to lose

Trap me inside your eyes
I am lost in them already
Don't rock me like a boat
Keep your gaze steady

I'm not really into the whole self pity thing
For the most part I handle my ****
But I'm sitting here and my legs won't stop shaking
I hate needing help

A child shivers in the cold
Watching the fire inside

A daughter with a broken heart
Stays far away from comfort

A son with wounded pride
Seeks no comfort from his bride

A mother watches her children hurt
Wanting to draw them close to heart

A father with many a child
Not knowing which is hurting more

A God in the sky watching his people
Seeing the pain and saying 'asking and it shall be given unto you'
'knock and the gates shall be opened'

Don't you run and don't you hide
From the Lord in the skies

We could arm the heavens
With the weight of our words
Pressing our beating hearts
Into the wrapping of the atmosphere
That they would burn
And be burned out among the stars
That it would all catch fire
To be consumed by flame
And taken by the fear dancing in your eyes

We would stand in the smoke
Breathing in, until we were spent out
Just to find the warmth
That touches more than skin
To feed our soul that has hungered
Has ached
And been starved for a taste of bliss
We rage on against the dying of the Light
As though she would meet us herself in battle
That we would shield ourselves against the immortals
Those who have seen, and known
But would not be caught up by any that hold one hand with fear
Yet clutch at hope
While they lie ,through their gnashing teeth, to the face of death
Thinking to buy one more day
With spent out yesterdays

If only we knew better
If only we listened
To the whispers in the trees
Who speak with caution
That fire burns
And fire kills
To make a space for new things to grow
Yet all that burns is dust to dust
And ashes to ashes

In the crypt
Leaning against tombstones
The Devil whispers secrets I told him
Back to me through the marble slab
I was raised in the shadows of the dead
How will I hold the sun
When you no longer stand between us
Skeleton secrets, burying into the earth
The coffin knocks
It will not sound again
They dead are listening
They will rise

Do you remember when we were in the desert
Sand absorbing all the heat of the sun
Pressing it into our bodies
As though we need to be forged anew
You and I are no strangers to burning
Not above being molded to another will
Hammered over and over, iron against iron
We were sharp in the beginning
We have grown dull in the last days
Humility did not follow
We hold the pride of our youth
As a double hilted sword
Warring against what time would make of us
Soft and ancient
I did not know we would always be changing
We are young, then less so, then we sleep
As we have been tired this whole life
Not tired, just dreaming, and aching, and human

You breathed, the smoke of your soul, into my unburnt lungs

2. I could not help but notice the contrast of my moon pale skin, against the dark of the midnight green grass.

3. As my barefoot feet, carried my caged and broken heart, to the dying embers of fire, burning within you.

4. I know not why it burns so close to this earth, or so near to my heart. Is it because you cannot bear to awaken the night sky?

5.With so much smoke it would burn, you could not sustain it.

6. Either way it is intriguing and beautiful to watch, with my midnight blue eyes.

7. I kissed your cooling embers back to life. I did not expect the charcoal on your lips, to thrive in my lungs, and burn in my eyes.

8. Yet I would not have it any other way. No reason to stop, and every to continue.

9. Burns, burn. Scars, fade. But your fire it eternal.

10. Safe it would be, to turn back. Yet I chose to walk the coals. To leave my mark in freshly fallen snow. To hold you close, and never let go.

11. I would press my heart into your hands, for you to warm it. We could own the night, and walk the moon.

12.Every sunrise coming much to soon. Yet we wait, for the light to break over the horizon.

13. I thought you would always be mine forever, but who was I to think I could take the flame, the heat, and the fire. The fire, that thrives between the layers of your dark skin.

14. Like melting wax and burning paper we danced. So bright, to soon, never strong enough to last.

15. As skinny as the ink coating these pages, paper to cover in sketches, stars, and still wet tears.

16. Twenty six sheets of life to live between. On bed and books you leave your burns.

17. Forever you burn.

18.I wanna rock it all night. Smoke child. Will you rock it out with me?

19. I beg you to speak! And fill me with your storms!

20. Raise me up, as high as your flames.

21. We dance, we light everything within reach, I'd be crazy if I didn't burn for you.

22.Am I enough to kindle, against your dark flame? To make you want to burn brighter.

23. Who are we? To challenge the light of the sun.

24.To rise in the night and never fade to black. To kiss the never look back. To run forever and never lose track.

25. Scorched by trial and charred by sweet lies.

26. I want to know would it burn as much.

27. If I saw the sparks in your eyes.

28. Skate the world

29. Hand in hand.

30. Dance in flame, like we planned.

You tried to fight the fire
But all you learned
Was to fear the flames

Walking on two legs
As if they were the stiffest sticks
To make a way to the stream
That I could lay myself
In the rushing waters
That it would wash my ashes away
These cinders of spite, I burned
The smoke fills me now
As my passion once did,
Like sap in these maple limbs of mine,
On into the night it goes
On into the night dies
Whispering to the stars
Of the anger of men
And how a clenched fist
Lights fires
That cannot always be put out
The water tastes the remorse
Damming these mortal wishes
As another night is dragged
Into the vision of the dead
To lay with those who cannot forget
The kiss of fire
As it learned to bite

Butterflies in permanent marker
Each with a special name
I wish they weren't trapped to my skin
Like in a painful cage
Maybe one day, with a lighter heart
They will fly away
And find another home
On another girl's heart
But for now they are mine
Keeping me from making lines
An artists kiss to gentle dreams

I was blind
Cuz you took my eyes
Out of the fire
You bore my demise
Soulless passion
And empty bottles
Drink back the memories
Shaken or stirred
I'd take a tall glass of water
It is preferred