"sheded" poems
the demons
swim in my
own pool of
sheded tears.
Jul 16, 2014
Jul 16, 2014 at 6:57 AM UTC
I took a vacation from myself
And my standard personality
My vices and virtues left behind
I became someone new
Sheded my skin
Evacuated my shell
Molted my feathers
And wandered off to the abyss
What I once called the truth
What I once named false
Both thrown up in the air
Now I see which falls into my lap
Sharing ****** pleasures with men and women alike
In an illustrious ***** affair
Smoking herb, dropping out and drinking the forbidden wine
With no second thought
With no regret or remorse
No rules
No laws
No restrictions
Rebelling against myself
And whatever is given to me
But why?
How come?
To test limits
To break through
To a place of nothing
No gods
No kings
No me
To test myself
My boundaries
To abandon my comfort zone
And take a trip to the edge, then go over it
I’ve been to the land
Of discipline
Of self control
Of obedience
And conformity
Faded out to the valley of shadows
Nowheresville
Population me
I’ll return
To my roots
Soon enough
With the knowledge
Of how far I’ll go
How deep I care to let myself go
How heavy a load I can carry
Loosening my grip of reality
Only to adjust it
To a level of pressure that suites me best
Make changes in myself
To be the person I want to be
Rearrange my life
And see what I actually believe
So until I come home, peace be with you
If I’m not back in ten minutes
Just wait a little bit longer
Dec 15, 2013
Dec 15, 2013 at 1:04 PM UTC
A lifetime felt with cheating hearts all echoed from my past, the promises trues and I love you s were each so very ment to last, so fine was this time of sharing built with honesty and trust, these vows now left inside my mind to slowly gather dust, I struggle through tomorrow searhing for hope yet fall behind, while broken dreams and silent screams play re_runs in bmy mind, its hard to tell whats wrong from real when dark cover dim the light, I close my eyes and dream a dream of heaven everynite, its all I know this misery I hold no guiding hands, these scars I show a lesson that I yet dont understand, another day awaits me in this life I call my own, a cruel delay frustrates me as I face this world alone, ill let words once said and tears lonly sheded rest peacefully in my heart, cause I know the pain of love in vain will always play its part, so with open arms i welcome such new dreams that will arrive, i only pray to find one day, A love without goodbyes
Feb 9, 2013
Feb 9, 2013 at 10:45 AM UTC
SO thanks to that ******* groundhog we have six more weeks of winter.
SO I'm really hoping once spring and summer get here I'll be back to my normal self again.
NO more love sickness
NO more broken hearts
NO more Sheded Tears
NO more False hopes
NO moreI love you's
NO moreBeing a Love Sick Puppy
SO Hopefully after this winter I'll be over my emotions and back to my ***Old, empty, tired, worthless, isolated, not giving a **** what you say or think about me self again.***
I won't have a guy that makes me feel like I need to look pretty because ***I won't give a ****
I won't have a guy that makes me feel like I'm not deserving of his love or attention Because guess what? Oh that's right...
***I won't give a ****
SO naturally I have some Season Hope in me.
Feb 14, 2015
Feb 14, 2015 at 2:46 PM UTC
There was a time when i believed in falling
for falling is the first step to trust
and trust, i have lacked for the last few years
because sheded tears caused my steel heart to rust
for a while i was convinced there was a spark
hidden under heaps of high expectations and hope
past the overthinking, right next to quaint smiles and glances, and hidden under the wish that we’d finally elope
but love isn’t built with empty promises
nor is it molded with the lovley, “if only”
because when you fall in love with the idea of someone
falling turns to broken, the broken can’t mend, and your back to being desperate and lonely
i wish being loved wasn’t so difficult
but if it was easier no one would dare to fall
because we’d rather be shattered from falling with faith
than stay safe with nothing at all
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 7:50 PM UTC
I was just thinking about you
After all these many years ago
Thinking about how much I still love you
How I just let you go
Life is sometimes a fountain
Sometimes I was just a fool
There is a pool of sorrow
Full of precious jewels
I can't help think of what might have been
What would have happened
Had I accepted your open invitation
imagining what could have been
With my life nearly over
I sheded love like autumn sheds her leaves
And I have my mountains of regret
and eternity to grieve
Still I see you sitting prettily
I guess you will always be twenty three
And I will be an epic of love lost
A fire still burning within me .
Jun 20, 2015
Jun 20, 2015 at 3:43 AM UTC
yesterday was the day
the day of blood
the blood sheded for this country
for the not perfect country
we like to say it wonderful
that its beutiful
but realy its not
im living proof
so many people are
people that are left behind
but it doesnt matter cause nothing is perfect
im non perfect
im broken
and so is this country
on the outside people think its wonderful
freedom, lie
the closer you get the darker it gets
but its true sometimes
there are fun and bright parts of this country
america the non perfect
but everyone has a point and say
but so what
nothing is perfect
cause everything is non perfect
Nov 12, 2017
Nov 12, 2017 at 3:54 PM UTC