"lillaeta" poems
Look into my eyes
And Tell me what you see
You say this doesn't seem like me
But you can't tell me what does
So many expectations
Too many comparisons
Me to you and him to her, her to me and him to she
I'm not her and she's not me
We're us ourselves and should be free
To be..
Who what and how we want
Don't tell me I can't be me
I may grow old but I'm not growing up
And I may slow down but I can also speed it up
My thoughts my life my choice
And if we are the choices we make
My life is a paradox
And if we are what's in our thoughts
Then call me twisted
And if our life is our gift
I'll continue to unwrap and appreciate it
Until death do us part
And even then
Don't judge me
Don't question me
And just let me be
Let me be me
-LilLaeta
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 12:20 AM UTC
Who were you?
Before they broke your heart
Really, before they told you
You couldn't be yourself
Before they told you
You weren't enough
Remember that person?
That boy or girl you used to be
That child that just didn't care
That didn't mind what people were saying
Who were you?
Before society rejected you
And told you to change
The way you dressed the way you spoke the way you walked
Before that one thing that broke you
That destroyed you
That made you believe you weren't worth it
Who were you?
Remember that person?
Don't you miss that person
That feeling of being free
And living carelessly
Who were you?
No! Who are you-
‘cos you're still that person
And this is your story
You control this allegory
So stop remembering that person
and start being that person
Because who are you?
You're you and only you
LilLaeta
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 7:10 AM UTC
She never stopped crying
She felt like she was dying
She wore her scars on her back
And Carried her problems like a backpack
She didn't know how great she could grow up to be
She didn't know if she wanted to wait long enough to see
She was ready to give in
Shoulders slouched and a low chin
She didn't think they really cared
About all that was left unsaid
They called out to her
But it was all just a blur
But after calling and calling,
She Almost found herself falling
Until she was caught by a familiar face
And suddenly the world became such a beautiful place
-LilLaeta
Feb 13, 2018
Feb 13, 2018 at 11:50 AM UTC
I guess I'm still learning
To talk to people and let things out
To let go of insecurities and all this doubt
I guess I'm still learning
That life isn't always your friend
This ancient damnation can actually be a fiend
I guess I'm still learning
That this Is just a hurdle that I need to climb
And this too shall pass but just in due time
I guess I'm still learning
To go easy on myself
To understand that one needs not to be hard on oneself
That one needeth not to hate on thyself
I guess I'm still learning
To fight the war in my mind
Even when i really struggle to find
The courage inside
That helps me unbind
From this poor quarantined and pathetic state of mind
That makes me believe that I am undefined
When in fact I am the mastermind
Of my own subconscious mind
LilLaeta
Feb 26, 2018
Feb 26, 2018 at 6:57 AM UTC
Lurking within the walls Fading, disappearing
Erased
Going -going -gone
The demons all silenced The fears all awakened
Scared
Brave
Confused
Footsteps draw closer
Fear draws nearer
And the demons continue
To run further -further -away
Should I run ?But I stay
Hoping that maybe Just maybe
I'll live.....But cos i stayed
I die
But I'm not dead Just sleeping
But this could be forever
A straight jacket they call it
Asylum....
My new home
The crazy girl next door My newest friend
And a whole group Of demons for mine To play with
Until their silenced again
By the crazy -mad-psycho Who is she?
The girl that lives within me
But this is all a dream I can see it
This is a beautiful nightmare
And the only problem is
That I'm not sleeping ...
WAKE UP!
-LilLaeta
Feb 6, 2018
Feb 6, 2018 at 3:34 PM UTC