I’ve come back to this a soldier,
the blood you extracted from my body
now smeared stripes on my cheekbones.

But buckle in.
Do I really need?
         -yes

A bullet proof vest inches thick. Barricades my bones
and sewn into the bones of my torso with hope.
            but that’s only for in case you shoot me, again,
              in the left chest.

- then that’s only if you become the target. if you whisper your vulnerability into his eyes, again. and stand hopeless before it all.

No I cannot bare it one more time.

He never seen me hospitalised in the bed of a room so empty. ( a mind so empty, numb)
So abandoned the nurses had left.
So abandoned I was the nurse the doctor the therapist the healer.
Doctor barely retrieved blood
Nurse barely rose me back to my feet
Therapist didn’t give forget.   wouldn’t let me forget - what about it I loved because he had never found it in me.
Then I am reminded again.

- so soldier buckle up the bare skin that can so easily be burned. buckle up in black.

I wear it in fear hesitation ilness and resentment to a repeat.

- better off safe than sorry

But safe now becomes a sorry to the soul for restraining.

  - sorry

My soul has been destroyed,
For which my heart you toyed.
When i was happy you made me sad.
You could never be glad,
to have me the way i am!
In fact - you could not give a ****.
When we suffer in pain,you're not Sorry.

You fill my head with eternal worry!
In fact you make the Human Race,an unbearable disgrace.
Just set me free and leave me be.
To end this ****** misery!

And may you suffer in Hell,
for all your ****** Sins aswell

Reason for my smile
  I can't stop for a while
Nights made
Days better
Inner beauty lasts forever
Harmarita,  Smitten, to the maxxxx
         Cures my ilness
         Gives me hope
       Confidence I can do it !
     I do it in his name
         As though he's in front of me
      Halycon
         Rapture , helll yea
Words tangible towards me heart <3

Oh How I loveth thee
A quite quaint angel in my own eyes.
With dark and white broken wings.
Und'r ****** falls.

I shall waiteth, and comf'rt thee.
Liekth thee loveth thy beareth.
Until the endeth of p'riod.
A hoarse voice with angelic tone.
Haer like the colours of my chameleon.

The tend tender lips of loveth.
A smileth and mind of ambivalence.
I shall loveth with nay judgment.
A halo as bright as the mistress
Possesseth in humans death's-head.

The lukewarm blue chopt lips.
The sleep chamber the lady did lie upon.
H'r ilness, but I accepteth death.
I can kisseth with green valor breath.
The strength of a giant.
The nimbleness of a lilliputian fairy.
Thee can doth aught.

Yon can crustheth and slipeth.
Through the cracks of timeth.
Thee can beest fell'r joyous.
Liketh the visage of a monst'r
I loveth thee f'r who is't thou art.

Thee can beest the wild animal with scars.
mine own canine ears ope to hark.
Thee can has't warts liketh a toad.
A belly as big as the univ'rse.
I shalt beest a fath'r.
thee can has't barb'd wire on thy corse.
My chivalrous armour does not mind thy pain.

Thee believeth chivalry is gone.
Somewh're on the planet, 'r in the heavens above.
Sickl'd by the grim reap'rs ploy.
The apparition 'r man you love.
I'm the pap'r thee loveth at which hour thy depress'd
The smileth thee misseth.
I am thy sir'r knave at heart.
I'm the knight thee wanteth me to best.
The lasteth sir standing at the edge of the w'rld with thee.
Thy the only ***** I protecteth, and loveth f'rev'r.
I give you can seeth how I loveth thee.





This poem was written by Shane Michael Cleary at 12:42 2017 on June 30th.

Forever you and me
Living in God’s world
God is the men that made
His world
With his holy hands
Than he created the
Humain being
And then my God
Made you and me
In his image
You say that I am
A handsome men
I don’t know you if
That is a compliment
Because I just don ‘t feel
That way my friend
I feel that I am a ugly men
That is how I feel friend
I wished I had blond
Hair and green eyes
But my God
Gave me a horrible
Gray hair
It is horrible for me to comb it
Ald I have that horrible brown
Eyes
Also friend I have my mental
Ilness
And I  don’t work anymore
I take narcotics that is my
Medication for night and day
Also friend every night
I go to bed early so that I
Can have a proper sleep
During the night
And you stay up  like
A night eagle
And you go to sleep
At 11: pm in the night

Forever you and me
Living in God’s world
God is the men that made
His world
With his holy hands
Than he created the
Humain being
And then my God
Made you and me
In his image
You say that I am
A handsome men
I don’t know you if
That is a compliment
Because I just don ‘t feel
That way my friend
I feel that I am a ugly men
That is how I feel friend
I wished I had blond
Hair and green eyes
But my God
Gave me a horrible
Gray hair
It is horrible for me to comb it
Ald I have that horrible brown
Eyes
Also friend I have my mental
Ilness
And I  don’t work anymore
I take narcotics that is my
Medication for night and day
Also friend every night
I go to bed early so that I
Can have a proper sleep
During the night
And you stay up  like
A night eagle
And you go to sleep
At 11:00 pm in the night