"heathy" poems
My job is to bake cakes
I once magically created cakes of every hue
Cakes that tasted like fruit or cream
And others that were super sweet
Still, others that were filling and heathy
I was only limited to my creativity
Then the cake bosses
Ordered me to bake only vanilla cakes
They said that all cakes are the same
And my cakes must meet their standards
Yet their criteria was vanilla and plain
I was forced to throw off the fruit and cream
And mute the rainbow of colors
Even to add vanilla and sugar to my heathy cakes
If that wasn't bad enough
The cake bosses pressured me to fill unrealistic quotas
And to treat all of the cakes the same
Even though they are, naturally, flavored differently
Then my budget was cut and bakers were downsized
Next, I had more cakes to bake and less time to prepare
I was even told to do without eggs and milk
But the cakes must meet even higher standards
How does this taste?
Does it leave a bad taste in your mouth too?
It's not a piece a cake
But I choose to bake on
Believing that I can still bake special cakes
The batter just gets thicker everyday
Jan 20, 2014
Jan 20, 2014 at 6:21 PM UTC
I’m trapped in a room where the door is open but I can’t get out,
I’m screaming my head off but no one can hear me shout,
I’m struggling to breathe but there’s plenty of oxygen,
I crave an escape from this concrete metropolitan,
Blinded by this plastic smile they can’t see I’m stuck in my own personal hell,
I’m walking around frantically trying to get someone to notice that I’m an empty shell,
Tragically, I’m physically heathy with food to eat and a family yet I can’t seem to stop thinking about ending myself,
What’s wrong me, that I can’t be happy when I literally have nothing to be sad about?
But that’s the thing the numbness, you can’t stop it, it doesn’t discriminate,
It doesn’t care whether your a man, a women, a criminal, or a saint,
It just wants to fill you up till you can’t get out of bed,
It makes you a prisoner inside your own head,
Who could I tell? How would I explain it so someone could understand when I don’t even understand,
When I’ve succumbed to the madness who will lend me their hand ?
So I don’t tell anyone & suffer in silence, when the thoughts start creeping up again,
I smother them in cigarette smoke wishing I had prescription for Xanax or Vicodin.
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 2:12 AM UTC
In a second my life changed like i could never imagine
The world was all Topsy turvy
and i a floating object in the turmoil
A simple six letter word
Thats all it took to take my stable world away
Upon that fateful day I was 15 and the date was May 12 2008
My diagnosis Hodgkin's lymphoma stage 2 B
My freedom was stolen from me
School i could no longer attend
People i could no longer see
The world was shut away from me
Chemo and Radiation were my companions
Aiding me in my time of need
But the truth in that was they were killing me more than saving
Strong of heart was I
I would not be taken down
I tried to show no fear or sorrow
And now am thought a strong young lady by many others
The most glorious day was when the cancer went away
September 28 2008 i was told
After I regained the freedom i had lost
four months later did my true story unfold
January 12 2009 I knew something was wrong
I was right I had not yet won the fight
Hodgkin's lymphoma was back to greet me
This time worse stage 4 B had me captured
A junior in high school i had been
But now once again I could no longer attend
Chemo my friend, we were reunited
I guess it missed me
This time a new component was introduced
Bone-marrow transplant, Auto stem cell
After tackling these feats I met radiation again
September 2009 i was said to be free
it was like history repeating itself
But this time i was wary
now it is July 4 2010
I am heathy, I have graduated
but the damage my six lettered fiend has reaped upon me is still here
An immune system i no longer have
My life still on pause
But i do not care
Because i know what its like to have your life dissipate without warning
Life is like a flame it can be snuffed out in a second
So remember my words
Please
Dont let any regret into your life
Dont pass a single moment by
Live love and try
Dec 9, 2012
Dec 9, 2012 at 2:50 PM UTC
Once I began to get heathy,
I cut out all the junk food,
and saturated fats.
No more bacon and eggs for me.
I added fruits and vegetables
to my diet.
I exercise, and I pound
****** Mary's from 6 am to noon.
The tomato juice is very healthy.
Mar 10, 2021
Mar 10, 2021 at 9:36 AM UTC
my dream is to rise and shine
always be heathy and fine
my dream is to help and take care
happiess is what i want to share
my dream is to be light in darkness
and in the dark to be the ligthness
my dream is to figth for justice
it is what i will aways practice
Sep 21, 2014
Sep 21, 2014 at 5:33 AM UTC
Hear your words
Percieve.
Intent.
Who will comprehend?
Our world grows backwards.
What was
cannot exist.
What is,
We never would have wanted.
But do you see?
Really?
Do I even.
Would we want to understand?
What truth is.
The only heathy people
are those awake enough to say they're not okay.
Jul 10, 2013
Jul 10, 2013 at 1:56 AM UTC
i remeber being in the hospital room.
i was 7 years old and held your hand for two days straight.
the weaker you got, the harder i squeezed your hand. you'd even squeeze back to comfort me.
i'd fall asleep next to you in that hospital bed every night.
one morning you woke up, and the cancer made you lose your memory.
each night i reminded you of your wedding with my mother, i'd remind you how much of a great father you were. then you'd close your eyes slowly, and fall asleep.
one morning you woke up, and you couldn't talk.
each night i'd put in a movie, so you wouldn't feel bad that you couldn't talk. before the movie finished, you'd close your eyes slowly, and fall asleep.
daddy it got worse. mom stopped letting me see you, because she wanted me to remeber you as a heathy man.
on October 2, i snuck into your room. Tears rolled down the faces of the people around me.
And at the age of 7 i revived my first guardian angel.
Nov 14, 2014
Nov 14, 2014 at 3:03 PM UTC
Depression is - hopelessness. Sickening, dry, fat hopelessness that bores into you.
Anxiety is - being frozen to your chair, physically unable to stand, even if you wanted to.
Depression tells you to stop taking your pills, to stop eating healthy, to stop going to therapy, because none of it matters anyway and you should just quietly curl up into a ball and let yourself fall asleep forever.
Anxiety tells you to stop taking your pills, or maybe take all of them at once. To eat heathy, but eventually to stop eating altogether. To go to therapy and admit that you're just a lying **** - you're not sick, you just want attention. It tells you that you have no control and that it knows your heart better than you do.
Feb 23, 2017
Feb 23, 2017 at 6:32 PM UTC
I'll eat heathy and lose weight.
I'll shop for a livable diet,
Low carbs, nil sugar, no fat.
I will do better this year.
I'll draw more, paint more, eat more.
I'll surely do better now that I'm older and wiser.
No more German chocolate cake, fruit tarts,
Strawberries Romanov, pastrami on German rye,
Boullibaise, Fried Chicken, Schweinsbraten,
Ice Cream with Chocolate Sauce, Fat Burgers.
Marshmallows, Tater-tots, Twinkies, Pies
I shall do bet... Aw ***** it--
Prime rib and mashed potatoes tonight
And pancakes for breakfast!
Jan 11, 2022
Jan 11, 2022 at 6:07 AM UTC