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LylexRose Aug 2018
You see...
When I look back...
Never thought I come this far...
Still rely on a cigarette to clear my head...
But this is just the beginning...


I've never did this for the money,
The struggle was enough, ain't that funny,
The blood in my veins says different,
I'm down here lord, on one knee,
can't you see, how can this be, this castle's collapsing in on me..


It's been a long time since I've discussed this, can't see far but shot so fast you must of missed it, been in this game a while so don't diss this, and now my times come to prove it, they knew this, turn down memory lane and all I see is all the lost faces, lost places, a southern soul in the infinite race, life misplaced but no one can take my place, feeling like it's all over, lost it all under stone roses, running through the back roads, still on the search for a home, a boys dream southern love but through the northern fields he roams...


I've never did this for the money,
The struggle was enough, ain't that funny,
The blood in my veins says different,
I'm down here lord, on one knee,
can't you see, how can this be, this castle's collapsing in on me...


Before I knew; this fame I was chasing, thought I was crownless royalty but little did I know there's no kings in this game, and you know I'm on it, a cold wind blows but you know I'll hold it, with what's left of the rest of life, I carry the torch of wildfire and burn man down if he gets to close, almost lost what's been built from the shelter I called my home, now do you wonder why I'm locked in this room all alone, when you wonder wear in this world all alone, looking for something to hold and call it my own, locked out of my memories, a penny for your thoughts, guessing this music takes its toll, toll to roll, a fee to see, a world to behold, 10 steps closer to the chest of riches and gold, rich in riches, what you think wealth is, you think it's 10x the *******, you think you gotta to keep it switching, relationships are what I'm stitching, back together, fight for what you believe in no matter whether, it's for yourself or the people closest to you, but I've shot myself in the foot because of you and at the end of it all I could never get close to you...


I've never did this for the money,
The struggle was enough, ain't that funny,
The blood in my veins says different,
I'm down here lord, on one knee,
can't you see, how can this be, this castle's collapsing in on me..


I've been as clean as off white vanilla, getting so big they see me coming like Godzilla, a thunderous clap as I walk, ready for the attack when I talk, never been a hoodlum but I'm going out with bang like Guy Fawkes, my curtins are closed so quit the talking, this is my game now and I'm never playing sober, you disagree well then put the controllers away it's game over, never been a criminal aside for indecent exposure, head to the light, cross in my hand, look to Jehovah, ya'all thought you had my kind I want out of this enclosure, the vanilla gangsta, the original casanova, and when you feel down, march on, loves never over...


I've never did this for the money,
The struggle was enough, ain't that funny,
The blood in my veins says different,
I'm down here lord, on one knee,
can't you see, how can this be, this castle's collapsing in on me..
Collapsing in on me...
In on me...
In on me...
In...
On...
You...
LylexRose Sep 2018
The long time coming now awaits...
Let's ride fast, let's make haste
Got the hoodie pulled up cos I wear no face...
Now let the ladies sing cos I need to concentrate...

This year I've come so far, walking over broken glass has left me scarred, I've understood what it's like to cry, not saying my life was hard, I'm saying it's different to what to you'd expect, but when I out here on the streets you know I don't beg for respect, made my music with feeling of everything building up going though my head, lost songs through mistakes I've made, and I know when you think at the end of the day when life seems that it's all to much just know to look too the light and focus on the music instead, cos I come from a place we're grey skies dominate the streets, when these rain drops fall on your face waiting for a deal to go down, you know it feels so empty just walking around my hometown, just know I've been called sheltered and know it's the ******* they talk when they don't understand the feelings of feeling like you're drowning....

I know it's going down, good lord...
Riding my pace through town...
Attracting the honeys when I sing it loud...
It's time I unwound, feeling kinda aroused, hope it don't affect the sound of my crowd...

Now the streets lights seem to change colour when you see them through my faded eyes, my face shaded out waiting for the man to sell the green so I can get high, let the smoke clear out just so I can see the horizon, it's funny some people don't get it, like they don't understand it, like to dress like a baller but barely making a grand, but just know this music pushed through the space in my mind, destroyed my depression, to my fans I show no oppression, if the music's a little serious then my life is a comedy session, the people I grew with have gone now, have moved along, made they're own path, looking back at me I guess they don't understand that, I been through a dark place, face to face, living with my real family but still feels like I'm being chased, dug myself into grave that I just can't climb out of, they say that fortune favours the brave and I don't need no ladder, don't need to pray, because only God knows I can make it myself, you know I used to never have a say, that never did things my way but now I got a chance to up and leave or change the game if I stay....

 I know it's going down, good lord...
Riding my pace through town...
Attracting the honeys when I sing it loud...
It's time I unwound, feeling kinda aroused, hope it don't affect the sound of my crowd...

Let's just listen to the people speak, but ain't backing me up, they say my future looks bleak, so walk with me and we could be something great you see, I've been told at the root of all evil is something illegal but if you say that then you've never seen **** I've had to deal with, deal it, steal it, this is where the war is, it's why I rap for this ****, so everyone hear can my stories, you don't seem to believe this, I'll whisper it in your ear "this is what work is" and now you all this is how I found my purpose, now let ears do the work, feel no more hurt, used getting beaten, hiding blood stains on my shirt, but anybody wanna know when I take the 10th to the back, knock this ***** with a slap, give him a quick text, show off my face acrawl into his room, I'd **** anyone; for this music I have to protect, waking up covered in blood, smiling down at you and Ill whisper in your ear, you're next!...

 I know it's going down, good lord...
Riding my pace through town...
Attracting the honeys when I sing it loud...
It's time I unwound, feeling kinda aroused, hope it don't affect the sound of my crowd...

Showing these MC'S whose boss, all these other MC'S are lost, all these other MC'S have had enough, all these other MC'S get turned to dust and we all feel the familiar feeling of disgust, all these little people I can here you shout, when I look at my life all I see is devout, to the help I've had, they say the thing that it isn't chosen is family, so would it be a funny thing I disagree, smoking a spliff whilst clutching to the smell of the voice of tenessee whiskey, I'm leaving in 5 but I've been doing this since I was 14, acting like I make bank but struggling behind the curtins, it's a sad thing to see, that I'm just a kid with mummy issues and is a lyrical genius, wanna stand in my shoes, fine but I'm just a boy with a dream whose come so far it's seems like he's losing his passion and forgetting his dreams, it's a shame to see it's ******* I've lost nothing, but I'm only still discovering and it's a shame to see that everybody who was about when this boy has amounted to nothing  going full bearded better know I'm never showing stubble, I'm in outer space just ask Hubble, soaring through stars living out of the bubble, gold wearing and smells like coffee, melting my relationships like toffee and with my feet at the cliffside I just wished it didn't end awfully...

 I know it's going down, good lord...
Riding my pace through town...
Attracting the honeys when I sing it loud...
It's time I unwound, feeling kinda aroused, hope it don't affect the sound of my crowd...
When you think you're lost, keep your eyes to the sky and keep marching on...
Life is one day at a time now
i wont choke on your absence
you wont be the only channel on my tv
i will enjoy the extra room in my bed
i will stand out in the rain
i wont pull the curtins when it lightnings
or cover my ears befor the thunder.
life is one day at a time now
i found myself
i need noone
i can live without you
im not dead am i ?
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christopher_trigger
Vampyre Kato Sep 2015
Normal Isnt Even Close To Me
A Ghost I See
I struggle to be who im supposed to be
People seem to fade away
Once they get a ceartain close to me
Staring At the stage
With the curtins closed
Tears Slicing My Cheecks
BLOOD All Over my feet
I wish somebody
Could truly understand me
No Doctor has The Right med
No peace no nice rest
Not even in a nice bed
My head is filled with so much
Im so close to
Well idk what
Cos i over think
**** life
Wait **** me
My past it cuts deep
Sorry mom ill never be the son you wanted
Im for ever sad for ever haunted
Grateful For What Ive been Givin
Waiting for somethin ive been missing
I die i nside when i realize
I cant capture my visions
Blacking out
Passing out
Searching around
Ima blind mouse
Also immortal
And this portal to earth
I wish i didnt find out
With out expiericing what i did
Its immposible to picture how my life is
Some times i gaze into my future
On a night glimpe
Theres nobody there
No wife , kids
Not even me The one who writes this
My whole life is a fantasy
Yet real af
Like a battle be
My mind is my enemy
My regrets weigh heavy
I cant reverse time
Thats why i be crying so steady
My darkness is such a bad spot
Sometimes i twitch like a fish
I got back knots
I hate this plane but love its back drop
Sometimes i pick up my bag
Then let my back drop
Im uncortable is ****
Im the bag yall
Ive been using drugs
To escape
I stare in the mirror with shivering fear
I lie to my face
Tell my self im okay
I dont crave pitty me
Thats silly see
I just need a never ending hug
And a better me
Vampyre Kato Dec 2016
I Know What’s Going On ,
Why You Trynna Hide It,,
Let Your Heart Bleed,
Sing As You Fight It,
Your Finding Your Purpose,
It’s You That You Searching,
Just Breathe,
I’m Doing The Same,
If You Know What I Mean,
The Feelings Beens Absent,
I’m Asking What Happing,,
Whipping Up Blood,
With All Theese Napkins,
Shattered Glass Under The Rug,
Regrets Adding Up,
From **** That’s Enough,
To **** What The ****,
I Know I Can’t Take What I Say Back,
Sincere When I Say That,
Will The Tesla Change Your Mind,
In Time Will You Change Inside,
I Want You To Stay The Night,
Arrive By Surprise,
Look Deep In These Eyes,
It Makes You Wanna Cry,
Identify The Reason Why,
Either Can I,
My Pain Is Beautiful And Real Tears,
Where Will I Be In A Few Years,
Not Here
In A Foriend Land,
Floriengn, Ocean Side Like Florida And,
I Can Afford A Home And All Theese Plans,
Be My Lady, Ill Be Ya Man,
But I Ain’t Begin You To Stay,
I Hope You Under Stand, Okay
I’m Sighned Now,
Driving Through La Just To See A Place With a Sign Out,
Drop 10k Just to Stay
I Don’t Wanna Buy Now,
i’m Soul Searching,
My Soul Hurting,
I’m So Certain,
Romance With Closed Curtins,
And The Lights Low,
Blow Out Out The Candle As I Stroke All Night Yo,
Abbracabdra Where The Lights Go,
Breathe Please If It’s Deep, Ima Pipe Slow,
Seizure Like Eyes Roll,
Portal To Another Realm,
I Promise That Your Safe Okay Just Let Your Mind Melt,

This Time It Is Not Is My Demons,
I Don’t Expect Anyting,
Don’t Need A Reason,
Healing Is Why I Am Breathing,
Love Is Like Seasons,
It Dies,
Then Arives When You Need It,
I’m Here To Enlighten Through Dreaming,
I’m Singing, Don’t Go,
If You Do, Don’t Ever Loose Hope,
All My Eggs Cracked No Joke,
My Love Gone Hatch Fa Sho,
That’s Something i Know,
I Will Not Give My opinion On Something I Don’t,
Grey Skys Must Love My Eyes And The Front Of My Door,
I’m Feeling I’m So Sore,
I’m Really For Sure,
It’s You I Adore,
If I Lost That,
I Aint Gone Get Me Off Track,
You May Never See All That I Gave,
I Know It Goes Both Ways,
If Your Really Walking Away,
I Hope Your Okay,
Cos I Know Im Not,
And I Hope You Don’t Feel The Same,
Either I Never Knew The real You,
Or you Changed,
Either Way, Words Aint Gone Help My Case,
I Can’t Reach Your Heart, Regardless What i Say,
Good Bye For Ever Today , I’m Selling Away


All I Can Change Is My Self,
Perception Is Everything,
Ive Been Through Hell,
Stories To Tell,
My Pain It Bleeds,
I Be Singing It Well,
Came Along Way From Grave Yards And Pale,
My Love Runs Deeper Than Every Body I Helped,
When I Was Up,
I Was Picking You Up,
Taking You Places,
Bringing You Home To ****,
And Cuddle Up,
All You Ever Did Was Lie,
**** What The ****,
You Cant Reply, You Are To Much,
You Took My Advice, And Told Me I ****,
Afraid To Realize What You Do,
I Know What’s Been Up,
My Soul Had Enough, It’s Been  Hell Of A Ride,
I’m Slicing Ties,
With These Genuine Eyes Good Bye And Good Luck

i Won’t Be Here The The Storm Comes,

ill Be in My Own In The Storm Front,

I Was Your Saving Grace, Your Burned A Bridge That Cannot Be Replaced,

Theres Nothing You Can Say Now About How You Made A Change. How I Was Right, And all Your Pain,

I’m To Far Gone To See Your Face,

This Wasn’t A Mistake,

I Sacrificed Everything Heavenly For A Fallen Angel That’s Been Misplaced,

You Chose Your Ways,

I Got A Tree House And A Loft In Cave,

And You Will never Be Invited To Stay,

There Aint To Many Feathers Left Teathered On These Shreaded Wings

I Bleed Opera You Ought Remember Me,

Rainy Day Memories
thulvni Jan 2015
They choose to be paranoid so they become parallel to the void and be annoyed at the end stars will also fall they why I choose to be flock to life needers am live stock I give wings to my siblings for them to fly high and reach the heavens curtins

They partner with the east as they co-cain , stars fell and I saw pain I am no earthling am heavenling I speak in tongues then it fall rains to earth am foreign before rain I reign above earths fears like jesus is us at birth
Through steve's glasses I see the fine line between abel and seth , adam and birth you could add them and find earth
Hight is sight
#be
Lexi Dec 2017
Cut
Not the slicing of my arms
Or the deep flesh wouds i draw
But the cutting of relationships
Gone.
I was cut of
As cold as a winters night in the middle of a snow storm
There was no more -
Big sis, and baby girl.
There was nothing
But the odor of the burnt ashes that sat buried beneath our tongues.
Words that were yelled
Like the fire flys lighting the nigh sky, appearing rapidly and disappearing with only a small resemblance from the past.
Once free from our greedy and angered mouths
Nothing can be taken back
Nothing can be undone.
With those words you said
And my actions
You had cut me off
Telling me u loved me, but we were no more.
I yelled and cried
But you weren't coming back.
3 years.
We missed so much of each other's lives.
I, peering into yours through the gaps of the curtins you hung up.
And you looking down from your castle, only for a time wondering who i was.
Finally we had something.
But everyone pulled us down.
No one trusted you or believed you
No one loved u like i did.
I was the only one who stood there with you
Yes unable to help
But I was there.
3 years we had.
Now no more.
I can't go back to that 10yr old innocent baby girl.
You said goodbye
I said "I'm sorry."
But nothing i can do will reverse the actions.
Goodbye 'Big Sis' **
Star BG Oct 2017
I opened window,
and in came the wind
caressing my form.

Cool air merged with breath.
Breeze caused curtins to dance.

I opened window
and in blew
fragrances of flowers.

Air sweet tantalized my senses.
Heart opening to sing in heartbeats.

I opened window,
and in shinned morning sun
with grace.

Rays brushed aura to smile.
Steps graceful celebrated in dance.

I opened window
and felt the love in moment
escalating to fill heart.

Love that anointed me gently.
to whispered gratitude
as I waved you a hello.

— The End —