They linger in my mind
"they" is my best kept secret
I came to a simple conclusion
but who am I to judge
to tell them how to feel
how to behave
I feel numbness in my heart
I am just waiting for my day to die

I had big dreams
but they were taken away
but it is ok

We are trapped in our childhood memories
our worlds are bricks of recollections
but not as painful as them
I caught a glimpse of their souls

I don't understand them
I question my sanity
are we just savages?
no respect for a young soul
no compasion
no love if there is a drop at all

if I could I would **** them
I don't have the courage
I am a coward
it was a rainy day when my innocence was taken away
yet a soul is dying every single day
how to make them understand the pain doesn't go away
you still feel when your body was *****

I can't believe what I saw
I can't believe what I heard
or is just them that don't go away
them, them who took my innocence away

the taste of their mouth liquor and cigarettes
if only I had a dagger on that rainny day...
they wrenched my skin
I thought they were my saviors
treacherous creatures
trust honesty loyalty
diluted across the pores of my though skin

I don't have the body of a child anymore
you took the innocent child
tender eyes, sweet smile
red, plump lips
sadness, sorrow and pain
I am stepping close to a cloud of hate

you caught me staring at the firmanent of nothingness
my thoughts wondered
in a twilight
in the emptiness
shallow lips
I stick my tongue inside your mouth
there is emptiness and darkness
but i fake it anyway


I will not come back
but someday you will know
it was not all in my mind
when you hold into the memory of our broken hearts


you will say i was just high
I am just one more shiny star
one billion years
one more year of lights
and with a broken heart I said goodbye
with a broken heart in the palm of my hand
looking for the real love that i might never find

Ooah, get your finger out, get your *** in gear, split skin, stinging flesh, unhealed for all to see, my

Grandad died of ******* cancer partly, tell me, what does she know, that do they know, grey world,

some more soon, no don't, I'm going, why didn't you say, will I be worth, am I needed anymore,

who are they, don't say there names Tigz what ever I ask, blood, fire, hold me, hair, warm, don't go,

shiver, visions, sequences, pantheism, hippie, music, teaching, busking, concerts, grade eight,

sociology, not in control, keep clean, happily ever after, I love you, lonely, scared, scarred,

traumatised, ill, why couldn't I help, holiday, gone, guilty, old, compasion fatigue, failing, tired,

delusional, Josh I won't see someone do it again, you're saying words I've heard before, neither's

good Callum, no I can't step back, what did I do, sin, past, present, future, what did you say, I don't

understand, is that all it took, setting sun, please please help me!!!!!

My screams loud,
I brake as I shout,
Yet the sound of my demise is confined in me.

Leave me be,
Let me tear my walls down,
Let me carry the weight of my own mistakes,
Even if my soul is at stake.

A heavy burden,
Rage, anger, forever burning,
My self I am mourning,
My hopes are tied to a new morning.

All I need is compasion,
All I want a fraction of recognition,
All I desire.. is a simple smile.

You say you know me
Better than I know myself
You judge me cause you think it is easy
It is bever easy to walk in my shoes
It is not the thing that I wanted to choose
You think of me so little
Yet I am full of news
I am a riddle that you can never solve
Step into my body and figure out how my cells beat
Figure out how every brain cell speaks
Show me what my eyes can see
And what my limbs seek
Don't think I am weak
I show compasion because i have reached the peek
When you slap me I turn the other cheek
I am born to love
Not to push and shove
Respect who I am and don't throw me under the bus
My heart is whiter than a feather of a dove
Respect my humanity that is a gift from above
My brother what you see is not the image that it appears to be
The real image is hidden in a mist that the other will not reveal to me
So don't look at him and you think you have figuered out the key
You will need to be closer to him to understand what is he
He might be somone who you never thought he could be
He might be the devil hidding in an angels rougue
And pulls out his sowrd
And stab you in the heart
And as you fall down and bleed in pain
You will understand that judging people is a shame
The mirror reflects the human that we see
But doest it reflect the bones and muscles lying inside of me
We are humans and thats the easiet we could be
But we got to evolve to be the best that people thought we can only be

Thoughts revolve in my head
sometimes good , sometimes bad.
I feel like I am in carousel
that rotates endlesly
arousing my fantasy.

Sometimes it relives me
but increases my fear.
swetty hands and dificult to breathe
try to push away but it resist.

I become tense
emotions is raging inside me
because Im very sensitive.
And its dificult to get peace.
Usually it helps to get it out
in form of lyrics to show how I feel
with hope to get a positive refill.


Doctors try to cure and control the thoughts
in my head with medication and therapy.
But is it good to get stable
without passion for my creativity?
Without compasion and possibility
to discribe and explane how I feel...

When i see you
I see love and compasion
If it was up to me
There would be no leagal reaction
What do you see when you see me?
The thing I see
Is the better me

Invierno, Verano, creando juntos

Cuando viene el frío cubre el mundo
Crea un ilusión de paz en el fondo
El mundo está callado, atrapado en silencio
Latidos de corazones estan mas fuertes

Cuando ella se arrastra desde salas de montañas
Ella trae un viento de calor calentando con su amor

Todo que es bueno y alegre es en ella
Todo que se muere tiene esperanza
Todo que se alivia tiene esperanza
Desde las pasiones del montans

Invierno, Verano, convergiendo juntos

Cuando el invierno se va ella llora
Lluvia de hielo para sentir su abrazo
Cuando el no se ve ella crea flores
Color blanca para imaginar que el esta aqui

El se deja morir para que ella puede vivir tranquila
El se deja que el odio lo consume para que ella tiene amor
Amores que nunca se ve, pero seiten el compasion y el fe

Cuando todo está hecho, esconden entre las montañas
En imágenes vividos, memorias desvanecimiento
Entidades intocables sin límites, pero espiritus debiles
El mundo se desarrolla de ellos pero lo dejan separados

Invierno, Verano, divergiendose



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

This world can be a dark, crue,l and hateful place. That is why we must be ever vigilent against the tide of racism and hatred that overshadows the land. Where there is cruelty we must bring compasion, where there is darkness we must become the light, and where there is hate we must be love. I hope all of us can live as shining example of the goodness within the hearts of human beings.

if i were to define life
i would say

its a bunch of questions
where? when? why? how?

its all those choices
this, that, you, me.

its the breath you breathe.
in, out, in, out

its the thought you give.
love, joy, compasion, symapthy.

it is amazing and wonderfull
dont let it ever let it go. ever.

I ever thought that I was traveling through this life alone.
That all the good and all the bad was of my own creating.
But there was someone traveling incognito with me. Someone guiding how I grew and who I loved. Someone promising a life that that radiates compasion.  It took a dozen dozen years to finally peel away the bland disguise... and Mr. Incognito stood before me in the form of Jesus, Son of God.
                                ljm