We have this peculiar practice, both of us. We partake in the delight of nothing.
We are two walls being vandalized. And then we are the same walls being photographed
by onlookers. And we become the complicated eye of the strangers. We become the beauty
they try to subscribe to in strange calligraphies, bent caricatures, and flagrant peripatetics.
We have the most outlandish of penchants, especially when nothing happens while
everything happens. Forget the sidereal zeroes of this equation. We are one
unanswerable phenomenon tractioned by a willing cohesion. Put into mouth what fingers
cannot do. The one in pursuit is divided by blame and the other a fugitive.
Mind takes space when absence does its duty. There is ease in accepting
that a body impaled in a moment may bear no gravity.
We have disparaging repetitions.
We invest in invented lives. We know not much from here but we know
the end it tries to exact in itself. The silence teems in that probability:
all static, intrinsic, and jarring. We both know a fine day when it happens.
Lurking sounds of hermetic space brought to life by informed choices.
Clinking of bottles and the silver of fish on the platter. A book stolen
from a place where everything is organized – strangely enough, the disarray people
are capable of with their hands is not preempted
by a custodian. We have godless moments. Say for example, this body
houses a river and on its flaxen waters we have already let go of everything.
Soft waters gnaw flesh and shadow off immediate impulses.
We have bizarre practices, both of us, separate.
Desire is dispersal. Weathering the diaspora is grace.
We both are gilded by attendance, and in rooms fat with people we are
marauders of space together with them – our lives so unobstructed,
free, and proliferating. Why can’t we house ourselves? Why can’t we cling
like ivy to walls of stone, melancholy to walls of blood?
We have this peculiar practice, both of us. Separate. No warnings,
no conveyed messages, no alarms. To be unmoved in moving, to be moving
in stasis.