"avi" poems
im done learning a language rooted in vanity
like I need to take a selfie for my latest avi to go along with that tweet
and we're up in arms fighting, but its on the hush hush in our subtweets
thinking these anons that ask questions to boost my self security
telling friends, give me just an instant to update my insta
yeah, we're full of wit
spitting captions to gain cheap chuckles
lacing 140 characters together to make a point
less, we're spending time thinking of a cheap rhyme
while in the meantime our headlines are suffering from the lack of attention
because if one more ******* person tells me they're gaining fame
online
with meaningless angles, and pop culture retweeted
im going to lose my ******* mind
this **** is such a waste of time
this shrine made up of the kind of things you call mine
and we're washing out the brilliant minds
that are taking the time
to tell you something worthwhile
we're using a shovel as a ***
and plowing this tool into the ground
when artists all around are trying to dig through the ********
just to show you
that somethings are actually worth noticing
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 4:01 PM UTC
(but will you) love me
in pigeon's pose when
my tummy rolls over
like rice paddies and
the dimples in my
thighs are as moon
craters on that 27th
spoonful of peanut
butter, orbit on my hips
squeeze the fat beneath
my arms to relieve all
your stress, when I'm
singing zee avi in the
shower and you realize
I once told you a choir
teacher said I was a high
soprano but my voice is
so low on that ceiling
mingling with the steam
in the silver vents, don't you
know that
heat
rises?
Sep 22, 2014
Sep 22, 2014 at 10:00 PM UTC
Dolce e chiara è la notte e senza vento,
E queta sovra i tetti e in mezzo agli orti
Posa la luna, e di lontan rivela
Serena ogni montagna. O donna mia,
Già tace ogni sentiero, e pei balconi
Rara traluce la notturna lampa:
Tu dormi, che t'accolse agevol sonno
Nelle tue chete stanze; e non ti morde
Cura nessuna; e già non sai né pensi
Quanta piaga m'apristi in mezzo al petto.
Tu dormi: io questo ciel, che sì benigno
Appare in vista, a salutar m'affaccio,
E l'antica natura onnipossente,
Che mi fece all'affanno. A te la speme
Nego, mi disse, anche la speme; e d'altro
Non brillin gli occhi tuoi se non di pianto.
Questo dì fu solenne: or dà trastulli
Prendi riposo; e forse ti rimembra
In sogno a quanti oggi piacesti, e quanti
Piacquero a te: non io, non già ch'io speri,
Al pensier ti ricorro. Intanto io chieggo
Quanto a viver mi resti, e qui per terra
Mi getto, e grido, e fremo. Oh giorni orrendi
In così verde etate! Ahi, per la via
Odo non lunge il solitario canto
Dell'artigian, che riede a tarda notte,
Dopo i sollazzi, al suo povero ostello;
E fieramente mi si stringe il core,
A pensar come tutto al mondo passa,
E quasi orma non lascia. Ecco è fuggito
Il dì festivo, ed al festivo il giorno
Volgar succede, e se ne porta il tempo
Ogni umano accidente. Or dov'è il suono
Di què popoli antichi? Or dov'è il grido
Dè nostri avi famosi, e il grande impero
Di quella Roma, e l'armi, e il fragorio
Che n'andò per la terra e l'oceano?
Tutto è pace e silenzio, e tutto posa
Il mondo, e più di lor non si ragiona.
Nella mia prima età, quando s'aspetta
Bramosamente il dì festivo, or poscia
Ch'egli era spento, io doloroso, in veglia,
Premea le piume; ed alla tarda notte
Un canto che s'udia per li sentieri
Lontanando morire a poco a poco,
Già similmente mi stringeva il core.
1.1k
i am the wolf i am the moon
i am a butterfly stuck in my cocoon
i am the summer gone way too soon
i am a pig mud keeps me cool
i am a stone i am a jewell
i am a fish - always in school
there's no tomorrow no yesterday
no past no future nothing in our way
who needs tomorrow when got today
we are the stars we are the sky
we are part of everything so we can never die
we all are part of the great circle of life
i am the wolf i am the moon
Jul 25, 2010
Jul 25, 2010 at 8:11 AM UTC
The clock on a wall in a dark room,
The sound of its chime filling the silence.
In the centre, under the only light,
He sits in a world his own, consumed.
He stares at the white screen
Twisted love begins to take its toll.
Wondering if she could've seen,
He can't take this silence anymore.
And in his head, his unrequited love burns his soul,
A girl, faraway can't see him whole.
He writes pages and pages of a bleeding story,
One, he knows, is an instinct of self pity.
Stoners charm, means no harm
But can't let go of his mommas arms.
Read those words, feel alarmed,
Holy cow, he lives in his barn.
And with his lonely escapades in his sleep
He dreams of something that cannot be.
Maybe he just needs his love to be seen
But he sure doesn't know what it means.
But what it means, is sinister
All these advances she didn't consider.
Sitting in his lair , one *** offender,
where did that come from, I wonder?
Drunk on love, looks so cheap
His mind on clockwork, working fantasies.
And to his stories, he'll add her name,
And like a predator he'll stalk his prey.
She'll forget him, her mistake,
Rejection of beauty, he can't take.
In the depth of the night, awake
Drunken love, a fools grave.
A love letter, from his blade.
Unstable Mind, he can't wait,
Touches the screen, wipes the slate.
Confession, of what he made,
Colors of a life led to waste.
May 17, 2014
May 17, 2014 at 4:39 AM UTC
O' K AVI
MY CONFESSIONS
( LYRICAL)
LINK in BIO
I wish I was more than what I turned out to be,
I wish I was who they always wanted me to be
another lie in this sea of corpses hanging on to each other,
without any dreams or sight,
I wish I was as dark as night,
so they could see the flaws in every light,
I wish there was no need to pretend that I am no one yet,
but they know not to forget,
what they once wanted me to be,
I wish I was free in this world locked in chains and scars,
I wish I wasn't a machine and had a heart,
that everything was more beautiful than how they claim,
these empty words that fall down on my conscience like winters rain,
forming icicles that dangle over my head waiting for me to speak,
I wish I was weak,
so I could give in to their desire and leave,
tear a hole in my head and bleed
away
every thought they want to ******
I wish I was young again,
so, I could be afraid of the things beneath my bed,
instead of the voices inside my head,
I wish I was dead,
so they could stop counting my every breath,
I am not, what I have always pretended to be,
I am too cold, and they are too old,
to see,
beyond the rainbow where colours still dance in peace,
I wish I could leave,
I wish I could breathe,
in this hollow they call my home,
I'm so alone,
wandering inside my head all alone,
I wish I could mourn but I won't,
it is I who chose not to wage war on the strangers,
that have made me a prisoner within my own skin,
I wish I wasn't always burning,
for I cannot feel the pain no more.
Jul 30, 2017
Jul 30, 2017 at 10:28 AM UTC
I like your skin, the rough parts and the soft parts. The moles, bumps and other miscellaneous textures omitted to living on your arms like aliens. I like your back and how different it is, thin and lean with no fat, sometimes I can feel your bones under my fingers, and I’m afraid that during moments of various passions I will peel away what’s left.
I like your legs and how pale they are, how you sweat and recoil from my touch when you’ve napped and soaked my blankets. I like the way you fumble for your glasses and fix your hair when it’s not even messy, the way your stomach heaves when you need to cough but won’t. Just cough.
I like the way your earlobes connect and how sparse your beard is, how you threaten to shave it as if my compliments burn. All my compliments burn you, in some shape or form. But I give them out freely because they are true, and I want them to live in your heart forever. In some cases you will not believe a bit of what I say, and I appreciate this as well. However, I would like to know why, and how and when you came to these conclusions and why you settle there.
I enjoy hearing you play guitar, when it’s not Zee Avi and you’re not gushing about how you saw her in concert. I like that I am jealous of you, and you are never jealous of me. A trait that could pass over, but won’t. I like your capacity for apologies, sorry before, sorry after. You are most sorry for everything that you do, and I am the one that put you there. Should you ever become entirely mad at me some day, I shouldn’t be able to retaliate because you will have had good reason to be so.
When you speak, I like your voice. Deep and solid as if something inside you churns warmly. A heavy bellied mammal, a trumpet of some sort. I can hear its footsteps when my head is on your chest, beneath your arm, under the blankets. I like the gestures you used to describe things, and the high pitched sounds you make when I tickle you.
I like the way you hide behind your arms when you’re naked, your knees, like magnets stuck together and your lips pulled thin in shame. As if I don’t like your body, you shield yourself. But your defenses are weak and I love the parts you dare not to show. The red on your cheeks, a permanent stain, like your teeth kaleidoscoped white and the scars registered on your stomach.
I like the way you don’t let me love you, because I do.
Mar 13, 2014
Mar 13, 2014 at 7:23 PM UTC
Blind, white fish
are natives here.
It’s always been dark
so they don’t have eyes.
In darkened streams
there is no current.
Pallid fish in pallid
dreams.
They’re ugly here,
and they swim away
from the surface.
They live and breed in caves,
repelled by light.
Dec 31, 2015
Dec 31, 2015 at 1:38 AM UTC
*
My Happy Go Lucky LOVE-fate
Innocently unique in your own ways
Just stop with me for a while and
Tell me where you plan to take me from here
I am too crazy in LOVE with YOU
Because you are my angelic bird
I share & confide with YOU everything
You set me FREE from my life and now
Why you tease me with so much longings?
Take me with YOU, along with my heart
In your wings in flight across stars
You always say that
"LOVE is the most important"
You always say that
"No one will LOVE me like you do"
And when our LOVE happened
You really showed what your LOVE is
Very FREE, liberal & non-judgmental
Very sacred, brave and courageous
You showed that -
Your LOVE to me is equal to
God/dess embracing me with open arms
Every bit of Nature taking your form
The whole world loving me in every way
You have stolen my soul from me
But you left your soul within me
You are innocently rare and
Unusually exceptional
That is why I call you
You are my "Rara Avis"
R-ara avi-Z
*
Jan 11, 2018
Jan 11, 2018 at 11:20 PM UTC
avi died a painful death
last autumn.
he used to talk about
it often.
never saying a word
but his words-
well they were rotten.
nobody cares though
nobody cried
nobody died;
and he was forgotten.
he was here though
and he did grow
for a minute or two
that once-
into a forest
that was boughten
his only begotten.
he died in vain
his veins, he shot them.
took out his eyes and smile-
he had just got them.
i remember watching him
drink his sins and scars
from afar,
the world filling with howls
and his insides with cotton.
sun going down and the naked
trees, the leaves and him
all of them.
hitting the rock ******* bottom.
avi died a painful death
last autumn.
and. i am. still. alive.
Jul 2, 2018
Jul 2, 2018 at 12:42 PM UTC
*
*i don't know my favourite
colour or the greatest film
i've seen
i know very little about
this world
i know even less about
everything
everyday i wake up and
write some of it down
and i watch the same
people do the same things
over and over
that's all they
know
and when they ask me
what my favourite colour
is
i lie and i tell them that i
enjoy all colours
that my favourite film
is a Clockwork Orange by
Stanley Kubrick
that i read books and
how politicians are ruining
the society
i want them to say
you're so great avi you
know so much about the
world
i want them to see
more of me so i see
less of them
and more they
see of me the less i
care
for i know they have
a favourite colour
i know they know
lyrics to their favourite
songs
and they've seen a
movie ten times and
remember all of it
how bored i am
of their constant
knowing
their constant
listening
there's no scarcity
of men and women who
think they know things
but have so little
to say
it's better to not
know than be bright
and boring
better to be
miserable and not laugh
than to be so mechanical
and submissive
most people are
not free
because they know
too much
at some point knowing
becomes a permanent
burden
too heavy for any
evolution to repair
that's when you
stop to live and start
to die
and i don't want
to die just yet
and i don't want to
be mundane
i don't want the
answers or want to know
my favourite colour
i simply don't want to
be boring.*
.
Dec 10, 2022
Dec 10, 2022 at 11:22 PM UTC