skipping class for him,
i thought i was the pam to his jim.

3 years passed
& I’ve got two bedrooms
A negative net worth
Bangs
+20lbs, and a new love,

He’s got clear skin,
A contagious grin.
He’s the coolest guy I’ve ever met.
I’m going to love him longer than I expected.

3 years passed
& I hope you still think of me.
And when you think of me,
You kind of wish you knew how I was,
What I was doing,
And if I still thought of you.

That jersey covered wall,
The camo and cross,
Those 4 years of loving you,
But never getting to love you
Like I always thought we would.
We were going to love each other
Way passed those four years.

3 years passed,
And I still think of you.

i wish i was prettier
though i've been called
pretty many times
in many days.

but pretty to them,
isn't pretty to me.

we aren't supposed to live off
of what others think.

we are supposed to live
off what we love
about ourselves.

because if we don't love ourselves,
we can't love another.

if i were prettier,
i could love you better.

when i'm with you,
i feel like a shiny
star on top of an
already sparkling
christmas pine.

below my bed,
is another bed.

and while i try to sleep,
my neighbor's bed
is like a city that never sleeps,
bodies bouncing on top of each other,
hotter than the Vegas heat.

i'm trying to sleep.
they are *******.

i have a lover like no other,
and i can't explain him.

he's a writer.
he's lighter in a pocket,
a doobie, doobie doo.

he's my flashlight,
lighting me
up like the sun's
rays.

he's an old man,
a young man,
somewhere caught
in the middle days.

twenty-four and
five-foot-eleven,
is what he says
he is,
but my god,
that isn't even
a percent of him.

he's a lion.
he's a lamb.
he leaves me in shambles.
he brings me back together.
he's my **** day camel.

wow.
i can't even write something
as perfect he.
he makes me ramble.
i'm babbling.

he's looking at me.
my heart is fluttering
like it hasn't in years.

i'm muttering even
when i'm in tears.

he can't be explained
with words or actions.

all  you can do is take him in
like the ocean,
crashing into me.

you think you know it,
but you never will.

and that is the beauty
of why i love him.

i have a lover like no other,
and i can't explain him.

you kissed me in public
where our coworkers could have seen.

you brought me a packet of sugar
for my office coffee.

you shared your chocolate with me
when i was crabby and hangry.

i want you.
i need you.

you make me happy.