As I slip deeper into this eternal sadness I must wonder if anyone is actually there for me.
Nobody knows how I truly feel, nobody sees this side of me.
I feel my time getting closer, no light at the end of the tunnel, no escape from my thoughts.
Always here for everyone but nobody there for me when I need it most.
I cant do this any more.

You were water
You drowned me with every kiss
And I had waves of missing you
That crashed against me
And dragged me back out into the bay
When you left
I went through a drought
And saw mirages of you everywhere
You're the only thing that can save me
I need you
But now the only thing
I have left to remind me of you
Is my tears
And the flooding of emotions
You left behind

My life is crumbling
and all I can do
is stand here, waiting for help.
I've helped myself all I can,
and bad things keep happening.
I need company,
I need love,
I need comfort.
My life is crumbling
and all I can do
is watch.

I've passed my past,
My whole collapsed
Into this moment,
Now.

My days long gone,
I soldier on
With just this moment,
Now.

How can it be that all of me
Is held within a thought,
The days I've had, both good and bad
Are gone and count for nought.

So is this it?
Is this all I can be?
Is this all life had planned for me?

Am I lost in a moment where all that I was
Is what happened?  Because
If I am then the wars that I fought
Were for nought.

I am lost,
Lost in the moment and I yearn,
Yearn for a change.

All I was
Was lost in a moment and I've learned,
Learned life is strange.

Now that I'm here,
Now that I've come to this moment and found
That my life in this moment is good,
Understood, for a brief single moment,
I know that I'm here,
And I'm here for this moment of joy.

But why?

Why did it take so long?