He gives blacks and blues
oh how pretty it looks
but
no one can see
no one but me
its a nice color
everyday , tomorrow
Its his art
he doesn't share
shame
he doesn't care

voice cracks
bony fingers
small eyes
my tummy tingles

red lips
small ears
eyes meet
I'm weak

long torso
big feet
open heart
lips meet

one lie
two lies
you told me
please hold me

cold eyes
distant body
he forgot me
he just left me

long naps
touched pills
small frame
be tamed

heart broken
just a moment
leave me be
forever solemn

Eyebrows too thick
Nose is too big
Clothes just don't fit
I always feel sick

I want to be mad
They tell me i'm fat
I know i'm not glad
A perfect body is what I never had

I want to feel free
For that I can't be me
Can't they hear?, Can't they see?
Me content, It just can't be

It's my birthday
Finally Thirteen
That's when i started falling
It's my birthday
You told me to go up to my room
Mama started calling
It's my birthday
You locked the door
Your clothes are on the floor
It's my birthday
My collarbones are showing
Then I started crying
It's my birthday
You told me to shut up
Youre finally growing up
It's my birthday
You touched the cracks
of the broken glass
It's my birthday
You said it's a test
You won't make a mess
It's my birthday
You didn't take my virginity
But you took in my purity
It's my birthday
You left after kissing my forehead
so i just nodded my head
It's my birthday
I cried
I wanted to die
It's my birthday
Finally thirteen
when i started falling

Lola , Lola
She cleans everyday
Lola , Lola
She doesn't like to play
Lola , Lola
Why do you like shouting
Lola , Lola
You always say your leaving
Lola , Do you have to be a tool
Telling me i'm stupid and to stop being a fool
Lola i love you but why do you hit me
Hit me always with your broom
Lola why are you staring at the window?
Looking lost, eating your own shadow
Lola is there something funny?
Cause your laughing now hysterically
Lola your bruising my arm
im getting dizzy, everything's so warm
Lola , I blacked out
What did you do?
There's blood running down my mouth
Lola your scaring me
Stop staring at me
Lola stop please there's so much noi--

God , are you really there?
My brother just kissed me on the lips
God , are you really there?
My grandpa just touched me and on my hips
God , can you hear me?
Grandma just screamed at me all night long
God , can you hear this?
Mama made my life a beautiful song
God , can you still see me?
'Cause all that you did was stare
God , can't you see?
or you just don't care
God , where are your hands?
Why aren't you leading me the way?
God , I can't stand
Hold me , just for today
God , Are you ignoring me?
I'm screaming out your name
God , are you really there?
Please tell me i'm going insane