This morning, I woke to a vision
causing no ends of indecision,
If I knew what I know now
I would have taken a last bow
Before I reached the age of 35.
No wife or a family,
I'm not glass half empty
I'm totally perished.
I never even meet my goals
Every day think of tying the ropes.

Sunlight hurts my eyes
when I open the blinds
I won't step outside
watching the other half lives.
I could only pretend to smile
walking down my street,
Their happiness only chases me
like a blizzard of wasp stings.

The Ancient Elders

Snow drops of water
Earth smell of trees
Warmth of fire and light
Air of breath
Roots of magic connect

Respect the Elders for 2025 -

Light me up
like fourth of July,
rain down fiery lava
& the blue of flames.
Scorch water of my cup,
burn mouth of saliva
Set stake to my soul,
as I take the blame....

Light me up
I become ashes
of all the debris.

Mother, I wanted to be a rock star.
Drive my girl in a fancy car,
with the flashing of Rolex watch
Catch the bug that Cobain caught..

Smoking
black pit.

Every day I die a certain way,
My sky is isn't infinite needless to say,
But under a sky you live,
That's not abandoned and astray,
The stars are for you to perceive,
In the horror of night skies darkness,
In darkness I grieve,
From all the gods there are,
Mine is indifferent,
Not a friend nor a foe,
Just someone who's pleasure I have to earn.

Shrouded in this mystical darkness
The tenderness of fog a good company
The winter silence reinventing its language
The inception of tears suspended
How wonderful to love everything as it is
Like trees love the patience of earth