I’m self aware
And yet my brain sometimes leaves me behind
in a unconscious state of mind
I have seen my wrongdoings played out before
and it was not a pretty sight
But I also felt like some wrongdoings of mine have caused damage to my life and it’ll only be too late for me to realize it later on
I have become a judge of my actions
And a witness of what was played out

you,
with your words dripping with honey.

you,
with your eyes like daggers and ice.

you,
with the way you make me want to
burn &
burn &
burn.

you
are the reason
demons &
angels
are so often confused.

The power went off
The street was dark and quiet
One single star shines.

Starry dark blue sky
Brilliantly sparkling stars
The beauty of the night.

Last night,
when I closed my eyes,
I saw the moon
so full and so bright.
I fell asleep smiling.

Open up my wounds
Drench me in my sorrow

With every waking day,
hand me another pill too hard to swallow

It gives me thrill
A taste of a dark state of bliss

For who can resist
another opportunity to wallow?

My very own mind made misery
A haven from the first sign of glee

Take me there
so I can go nowhere

Lock me in
the sanctuary under my skin.

Whenever I remember
I look up at the sky
And remind myself that the stars are there
Even in daylight
So there's no need to cry