Im sorry,
but tonight
I want to forget
everything
and everyone before
this night.
Ill drink and medicate,
let go of control,
for just a night.
I just want to feel,
alright.
I want to be ok,
and want to cry
at the same time.
I want to be wanted
and give love.
I want to laugh
and look at her smile
all night.
I want to smile back.
Search her eyes
and memorize
their hazel perfection.

Paint me in watercolor.
  Bring me back to life.
  Hues of laughter and desire,
  light inside brilliant light
  husky brawling of youth
  half naked, sweating, proud.

I'm a part time atheist
praying to a 9-5 god
I fall in love with strangers
everywhere and always
I try to live outside my skin
until it drags me into rehab
I can't live in here and now
or then and there until I
find me inside a mirror
take a selfie with Alice.

The very moment I first gazed upon your splendour
Your fiery eyes gave away the woeful reflection of my soul.
And amidst this endless pyre
Danced a song of yearning
And desire.
Relentless. Rebellious. Irrepressible.
As if alight to chase away my faithless doubts
Your fiery eyes called to me
And I followed them home.