I'm riding the edge of my mind
2 kids and a fat wife I deserted
before I fell in love with all
the other disappointed lovers.
So much more to this.
Poison flows from the grapes of wrath.
It spoils the soil with its honest path.
You're hated for your poverty and bad luck.
You'll do anything for a shot and a buck.
Anything for a crust of bread and a beer.
Sleep with me. Keep me warm. Hold me near.
I'm just a junkyard dog.
Old scars tell my story.
I'm left water and scraps.
Alone in the dark I sleep
and dream of a better life
and love with *******
I smell beyond fences.
Love is just out of reach.
You can't read my mind.
You've no idea what it's
like being close to you.
I'm stunned by your beauty.
Your laugh infects me.
Your wild hair brings me
to my knees in adoration.
I cower in fear of my love.
I'm quiet. I'm distant. I dream
of you that night. I write this.
Judas wakes and takes his bag of silver
after betrayal with his kiss like I've
done a thousand times before. Great White
Whale Moby **** ripped off dark Ahab's leg
black hates white hates yellow hates brown
hates rich hates poor hates young hates old
hates drunk Irish and drunk French and fat
Germans like little ******. Almost a disease
write your soul down word for word see who
is your friend and who is unkind. Almost like
being free. Take yourself out to the curb sit
and wait for a life I'm no longer hungry for.
wait for a life I'm no longer hungry for
I'm an altar boy raised by nuns
trying to dance on the wild side with
guilt my constant companion. I bury my
conscience under absinthe and *******.
I wake naked and bewildered among people
searching for clothes caught in piles
never to be found again. We cover our
shame with anything we can and slither
out the door in splendid wonder at what
we dared do in such a strict world. We
are strangers who will meet again in
tomorrow's ****** of our own creation.
I was young and lost. I was
unable to keep up when he
went in the bank. I saw him
leaving across the street and
ran after him and a car hit me
and broke my heart and leg.
He was the god I disappointed,
the man I was always chasing.
I never caught up to him or me.