i woke up at five today
just to watch the sun rise
i walked the deserted streets
smelt the bakery's morning pies.
the colors shifted overhead
a fusion of honey and rose
i didn't worry about hair or makeup
didn't even change out of bed clothes.
it was a sacred time
a moment for me, and me alone
to walk in silence and feel at peace
moving headfirst into the unknown.

if you saw the emotion
in my eyes
would you look away?
if you could see what i saw when
they first met yours
would you hate
what still lives there for you?

if my hand reached out to touch you
would you flinch?
if the tips of my fingers
stretched out to graze
your skin
would you pull away?

what i would give
to hear your voice
saying my name
once more...

what i would do
to feel the warmth
of your lips
pressing softly
and passionately
against mine
once more...

if i were to ask,
what would you say? . . .

when i say "i miss you"
i don't mean the current person who stands before me.
i mean the one you were
before the complications in calculations
and labels on boxes.
i just want you back

It seems as if you are gone for good
no more messages
no more random pop ups
no more looking for sympathy
I dont deserve this

Wish I could tell him
The thoughts that take up my mind
The level of confusion that I feel
The harsh reality of a loveless girl
It’s not the same anymore
My strings has been played
Unsure that they can be renewed
Unsure if I can be that person for him
I wish I could tell him

Why you didn't invite me is irrelevant to me.
When you made that decision, I could tell you weren't feeling very warm for me.