I hate love my life so much
I wish it would just end go on infinite
If my entire life has been torture
My entire life has been beauty
Every waking moment pain bliss sleep
I can can't decipher or begin to explain
Yet I am forty eight words in.
Forever to end beginning tomorrow
I love with all my heart
I am dead inside.

Whenever someone
compares you to poetry,
be sure
you'll never
let them go.

If poetry is a way
of survival,
then
they'll never be able
to spend
any other day
without you.

As much as I want to feel loved,
I don’t think I am lovable.
I fall too fast and always, always end up
Laying on the concrete with
Blood in my hair.
I have flaws, everyone does, but I’m always
Afraid that you won’t love me, not the way
I need you to. I’m terrified, like a cat in a
Thunderstorm, that someone will
Put up with me for a while
Then leave.
And I’ll be left to wash the rust out of my
Hair and wipe the black and grey from under
My eyes.

Can you save me before I snap
I won’t save you after that
Can you deal with the aftermath
Would you save me after that

Can you save her before she snaps
Could you save her after that
Can you save me from despair
Or will you let it claim me here

Can they save her before she snaps
Or are there just to many cracks
Am I too far gone for that
Will you save me before I snap

Can you save me before I snap
I don't wanna deal with that
I can see the aftermath
Someone save me before I snap

Don't just sit back and watch me snap
You don't wanna deal with that
Can you save her before she snaps
Or will you face her eternal wrath

Darkness fading into light
Shadows sunlight is to bright
Sunlight fading into night
Darkness i have lost my fight
I have lost my light
I have left it all behind
        Can’t you see i’m fine
Darkness fading into light

Fake a smile for a friend
Fake a smile play pretend
Say you’re fine but you wish you could die
Fake a smile say you’re fine
Just trying to get by
Lying through her teeth
Trying to smile
Through her heartaches