I wished for him often
On cars that passed by my bedroom window
Four leaf clovers picked from the earth
Unwanted pennies tossed aside
Even on eyelashes plucked straight from my lids
Tearing myself apart
Just for one last taste of forever

i cannot wait for the day
i look at you
or say your name
or even see your picture
and feel absolutely
n o t h i n g

My love is just a display,
Broken pieces glued together form half a heart,
I was never easy-no.
The love I gave you didn’t match,
Suddenly you drew weary and I was thrown out the hatch,
Left alone in a sea of tranquility,
Alone in the gaze,
This is not the first time someone has made me faze,
Free into the night lonely souls walk the streets,
Lost amongst the others I am no different,
My heart only beats.
I knew this wasn’t right,
For all my efforts must always ignite.
I throw my heart into the trash
For one day I wish, this time wasn’t the last.

when i tell you to leave,
why does it hurt me more?

when i tell you to go,
why don’t you stay and fight?

when i tell you not to speak to me again,
why does it take days to see what would happen if you did?

are you listening...?

I wish there was a word beyond “sad”
Because three letters cannot capture
The way my heart breaks and bends every time you enter my mind

tears     just won’t fall
fALL pLeAsE
or— I will
be the one fAlliNg aPArT