Silence echoes
Fallen leaves
I miss the happy buzzy bees

I didn't ask to be here
So why should I have to stay?

I just want to go where my mind is gone
Tell a few stories
Write a few songs
Get lost in a daydream
And wait till the trauma is gone

Dark thoughts
The night falls slow
I see not a single star
I feel so low
Time becomes abstract
I can't bring myself to breathe
I lose myself in my lovely sheets

This room is hollow
For I would know
The light will come later
Tonight the tears will show

In this dream like meadow
Let your legs become roots
Open your heart to the flowers
In time it will bloom
Let the rain tap your skin
And let it nurture your soul
Become one with the forest
Before it is gone

It hurts
It may do for a while
I think i'm just waiting for the music to stop
Because the silence is unbearable
These thoughts do not go away
But I have learnt to let them in
To push them away is to leave this earth
And I don't want to go away again
I know I am young
Sometimes I only see the worst
But I want you to be happy
And I want to be happy too
The pain will stay for a while
But when it has gone
You will be better for it
And I will be too
The sun will shine eventually
We will not always feel blue

I am not sure what is happening
But surely the rain will make me numb
When it stops then maybe sleep
I hope I dream of love
I am sensitive
Insecure
My emotions take me where they want
The simplest things I overthink
I am as vulnerable as they come

Loneliness keeps me in sometimes
I think I shake too much

Even around the plenty
It sometimes feels empty
These thoughts get me too ****** up

I wish there was an easy way
To get past the hurdles in my brain

But I know deep down
That this sadness is only temporary
Or at least that is what I say

Runaway thoughts
Too far gone from the mind
All this madness and chaos
Is enough to turn the whole world blind

Sometimes my mind wanders
Into the depths of your eyes
I feel my heart quicken
As if I have come back to life

With lips like yours
Who couldn't resist
Not a thought on my mind
Except I think we should kiss

When you smile
And laugh
For not a reason at all
I know I could stay with you through all day and nightfall

The way you look at me
With such beautiful eyes
Makes me so happy
To be alive

It rains sometimes
So everyone huddles inside
But that is when I love to be outside
Because it is only me and the touch of an old friend
I can SCREAM
I can cry...
And just like rain
The tears dry
But all good things must come to an end
Out comes the sun
Out comes the smiles
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  **** me

The wrinkles will come soon
So best not to let your mind rot
For at the end of the day
That's all that you've got

This girl said she was falling in love with me
I think she was just falling for my words

Watch the door
Maybe something will come in
I am not sure what yet
My heart is palpitating
My mind is falling apart
I want to scream
But my parents might wake up
I want to cry
But im scared that if the tears block my view
Something could get me
I'm losing it
Everyday feels the same
This loneliness is terrifying
I have never been so scared of the darkness
I used to embrace it
But now it scares me
The silence is too much to bare
What if I lose my mind when the music stops
I don't want to dream
They **** with me
What if I wake up and no ones there
And they only appear to hurt me
I am truly scared
It makes it hard to breathe
I feel tired
But erratic
I wish everything could go away when I wanted
These thoughts I have
They are ruining everything
It makes it so hard to do anything
I feel dead
And trapped
Yet lost all at once
I cant handle this **** much longer
Everything is a mess
Label me depressed
Label me anxious
It means nothing to me
I am just trying my best
But I cant do this much longer
And I know I have said that before
But this time it feels real
I think my opportunities are nearly gone

Im so sad that the tears dont come

I love her
I really love him
And they are in love with me
I'm in love with nobody
And nobody is in love with me
They are a loner
I'm a loner
They are always alone with me
We watch sad movies
And do nothing
And do not talk for weeks
I once told her
I once told him
My mind is numb from the dreams
Lover, lover
Do you hear me
Are you still imaginary?

She did not know the world
I think it took her by surprise
Lost in her imagination
Her bed would let out a sigh
I wonder what she is dreaming now
Maybe of sunny days
Or rainy nights

It's sad to think about
The times we had
Good and bad
The happiest hurt the worst
Because I know that they have to move on
Its sad because I know that they haven't
And I haven't either
It's sad
Its 3:47 am and my only light is a monitor
It illuminates the hair that meets my eyes
I stop to think sometimes
Maybe I should sleep
But I swear this light speaks to me
It's sad
These thoughts don't get any easier
I thought it was just a phase
But apparently that's not how the brain works
It's sad
Every time I feel positive
I always see the other side
Because I can never be too happy
Or I would have too far to fall
It's sad
Life
Death
Everything in between
Maybe its time to dream