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fallendawn Feb 2020
I have to keep telling myself you made your bed and your laying in it with someone else
fallendawn Jul 2018
I don’t know how others
Perceive me But in my eyes
I think I come off clingy
I don’t try to be this way
I really wish I could change
But I just can’t ...I just can’t
Stop caring about you when
You’re on my mind more than
white on rice
My grandma use to tell me that’s like white on rice ....it’s like always there never leaving spot on
fallendawn Mar 2020
what breaks my heart the most
Is that
The promises you made to me
Are now forgotten and
You are fulfilling with
Another
fallendawn Jun 2018
They say everything
                                   happens for a reason
                                     maybe just maybe
                                          you are that
                                               reason.
fallendawn Jul 2020
At the time I was broken
I wanted to feel whole
So I let him touch me even though
I said no
fallendawn Jun 2018
When I look at old pictures
of us
i use to feel
everything
now
I feel
nothing
...
fallendawn Sep 2018
My heart beats for me now
Woo
That’s such a relief
I also derseve to be happy
And finally Be
Complete
fallendawn Jun 2018
I shared three of my “first times” with you
The first time I fell in love
Honestly I didn’t even realize I was falling
But some how it was okay as along as I was with you I felt complete
The first time I ever slowed dance
We were both so very nervous
Man I was so scared
You couldn’t tell because my face was so calm but inside I was screaming
Lastly the first time my heart broke
You shattered it you honestly did
You probably didn’t mean to
But the pain I felt after you left
Became so unbearable some nights
I could barely hold on
....those are my first times with you
fallendawn Jul 2018
Holding Hands with you
Made my world pause
fallendawn Mar 2020
From my heart I miss you.
It makes me feel Stupid to still
Love you.
It kills me inside everyday
Knowing you don’t love me.
It’s been months and I’m still not
Over you.
I’m getting there for sure.
But apart of me will still run into your
Arms if you ever called my name.
Sadly, I never cross your mind.
fallendawn Jun 2018
It hurts knowing you didn’t pick me
Because I have always picked you
fallendawn Feb 2020
I have returned
not for good reason
I am heartbroken once again
But this time is different
Because this broke my being
My soul
My life
Not just my heart
fallendawn Mar 2020
Beautiful Soul
Drowning
You will breathe again.
Caring Being
Dying
You will be revived.
Selfless Heart
Blinded
You will see again.
Strong Spirit
Wounded Wings
Will fly again.
fallendawn Jun 2018
I tried I really did
I wanted to let you go...I didn’t want to keep going through this hurt of rejection
I tried to be your friend
I tried to be happy for you that you had found someone else
I tried....
But I also cried late at night when I was all alone
I cried about are memories together that’ll well never share again
I cried about how lost I felt when you wasn’t around
I cried about how easily you tossed me to the side because you’ll only seen us as “friends”
Sometimes i still cry and
Try for you
But at the end I’m still pushed aside
And then again I still “Try”
fallendawn Jun 2018
i don’t care
i don’t care
i don’t care
i don’t care
i don’t care
about you
the sad truth
is
i really do
fallendawn Jul 2018
Look
I am simple person
Just do one thing
Look
Look at me
As a person
That is derserving
Of love
Of your time
That you are not
Willing to give
Look
I am worthy
Of knowing you
Of getting to see
The real you
Look
At how much I want you
Look
At how my eyes are only
Towards you
Looking
Is what I should
Be doing
Because while your not
Looking at me
I am realizing on how
You don’t deserve my
Look
fallendawn Jun 2018
My grandmother always told me love is not supposed to hurt
But why loving you kills me everytime
I breathe
Especially when I see you smiling but it’s not because of me
It’s because of her....someone I’ll never be
fallendawn Jul 2018
It’s so funny how I finally let go of the hurt
He caused me
Someone new came he showed me things
That I never knew I would enjoy
Now I’m experience a new hurt
That he have giving me
fallendawn Jul 2018
To the world
I am a blank
Canvas
But just turn off
The lights
And see how much I
Glow
fallendawn Jun 2018
Don’t cry in front of me
Because I’ll break down
fallendawn Jun 2018
It’s crazy how
I’m your memory
but you’re my dream
I keep reliving
fallendawn Jun 2018
I can feel the anxiety
Building up
More and More
I can tell your hurting
I just want to heal you
But how can I do that
When I’m broken too
fallendawn Jun 2018
I took my time building this house called
Love
It took me seven months to decide who I wanted to live in it
They always said never go looking for love and I never did
Then you appeared out of the blue
Just honestly being you
You were tall almost towering me
You were gorgeous everyone had to look twice
You were funny always making me laugh about the simplest things
And You had that smile....such a smile that would make my heart do flips and dances I never knew
And at that moment I chose you
fallendawn Jun 2018
I hate how I’m
feeling this is not me...
But I’m really asking myself
Why did I ever think
you’ll be interested in me
What made me think
such a ridiculous thing
I’m really asking
WHAT THE **** IS WRONG WITH
me??!
fallendawn Jun 2018
Why do I continue to be
Stupid
For you?
I honestly thought something was wrong
Look at me again...
Falling for someone
Who
won’t catch me
fallendawn Jun 2018
I imagined the pain I will feel
if I saw y’all together
I imagined it being like needles
punching my heart
Like my heart being pulled
into pieces
Well I saw you two together
for the first time
I didn’t expect to feel this way
but I was  genuinely happy
for you
Your smile was bigger than I ever seen
even with me
In reality my heart was warmed
Not shattered
fallendawn Jul 2018
A simple text would be nice
That’s all I ask
In your eyes that’s too much
But you can ask for the world
And I will give it to you
Right then and there
Then you will look at me
And ask more
fallendawn Jun 2018
I told you you’ll
regret not being
with me
I didn’t mean it
to be mean
I was just upset
on how you were
treating me
fallendawn Sep 2018
That weight
That unbearing weight full of
Doubt,Hatred,Deppression,& Anxiety
Has been lifted
& I have been gifted
To be released
Of pain I didn’t
Deserve
fallendawn Sep 2018
Loving you was hard
I thought letting you go
Was harder
But it was easier
fallendawn Feb 2020
I don’t know if people understand
But friends I once had
I loved you
I wanted you to prosper
And be happy
But why didn’t you want that
For me?
fallendawn Sep 2018
God is everything.
fallendawn Sep 2018
I want to be loved
Just not by
You.
fallendawn Sep 2018
Slowing healing...
fallendawn Sep 2018
I wish she wouldnt have broken you
You honestly didn’t derserve it
You would have loved her
Like I would have loved you
fallendawn Sep 2018
I hope you find true
Happiness
You need it
I can see your
Pain
I hope someone
Heals it one
Day
fallendawn Sep 2018
Telling you how I felt
After all these months
Really put me at ease
And I can finally saying
I’ve landed safely on land
And I’m not falling
Anymore

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