your doubted me
you said i would never do anything with my life
and i believed you for the longest time
but look at me now
i did something good
i did it for me
i did it because i wanted to show you that i could do good
i could do something with my life
something better then you have ever done
something you will never be able to do
but i thank you for doubting me
i thank you because without your doubt i never would have tried this hard to show you and show myself that i could do something this amazing
now all you can do is say
"i was wrong."
but once again i thank you for every single bit of your doubt

there is no stopping now
what would be the point?
we've came this far
we cant just loose it all
we would go from having everything
to having nothing
i know we didn't get this from doing anything good but who cares
our lives would be empty
empty like an abandoned house
we would be lost like a child in the woods
and broken like a shattered glass
we would have to have a whole new beginning
.....
but maybe that isn't so bad
maybe we should turn back
maybe we could get our lives figured out and do something good for once in our lives
we could rebuild everything thing we had but make it even better
but this time we would build together
we would work for what we want
itll be perfect
it will be authentic
it will be for us

do you remember when life was easy?
when all we knew was laughing with our friends late at night and watching movies
when your only problem was that your mom said you can't stay up too late
when the only person you had to hide from is whoever you're playing hide and seek with
when you were only high when you were swinging on the swings at the park
when all you were addicted to was candy
when nothing mattered not because you didn't care but only because you never worried
those were the best days of our life

my tears flow
like a river
my frown hides my smile
like the clouds hide the sun
my heart aches
even worse than an infected sore
it all ends so quickly
like a movie
"the end"

i wish
i wish to see your beautiful face one more time
one more time before you leave
i dont want our story to end like this
but you do
you dont care anymore
you never did
and its my fault
but i just want to feel your soft skin up against mine one last time
i just want to see you one last time
i want to be with you one last time before its all gone
before you simply just leave

broken hearts and bleeding wrists
one more second
one more breath
one more pill
one more sweet high
one more time before it all goes away
one more look before there is nothing

last night
last night was the night
the night that i realized
i realized that you didn't feel for me
i really never meant to fall for you
it just happened
i didn't even realize it until you said
"this means nothing to me"
i wanted to cry
but instead i hid it
i laughed like it was nothing
but to me it was everything
you could see through my laughter
i could tell
i could tell by the way you looked at me
the way you looked into my eyes and said you feel like an *******
but really its my fault
its my fault for even thinking for one second that we could be together
but even though you said it meant nothing you continued to make me think that it was something
you continued to kiss me
you continued to tell me in beautiful
and fell for you the more you played me