just in case
you’re in a dark place
and can’t seem
to find a light switch
or matches even
I want you to know
you are loved
maybe not by yourself
yet
but you are
even though it sounds
like a fairytale for now
at some point
you’ll find the light switch
or the matches
and you’ll be able to see
that the fairytale
came true
and you’re the one
that made it happen

someone said young love at its finest
it more than that dude
its life
its living

she is everything
she is still my best friend
and thats more than I could ever ask for
she is love

I know I need to give a little time
help myself get better
for her
for her family
our family

she still loves me
and I guess I was just scared that I would never hear that again
but I know I will
because our love is neverending
even if we cant be together
we will always be the best of friends

she said that
even if we arent together
we will always love
always be friends

and I cant ask for more
just knowing her is a blessing

so to the dude who said
"young love"
ur quite wrong
adults cant even love this way

sure we get mad and argue
but we get stronger each time
because we want to
because she is life
she is everything

this is more than love
more than life
bigger than the universe

I give you my everything
and now it seems like you have deserted me
I know its not true
but it feels like it

I hate me
I hate me
I hate me
I hate me
I hate me

I cant say it enough
did I ruin this

did I ruin it before it even started
all the things we have said
were they 100% true
because I just dont know anymore

everything is leaving again
I thought we had something
and you just took it away like it was nothing
was it real
or was it a dream

im sorry baby
I know im horrible
I know I would do that too

in life there is this thing called death
but what if death
just dissipated
went away

what would I do

would I talk
would I eat
would I care,
okay, thats not a good question
I would always care

but seriously
what would I do
would I even need to write poetry

I do everything now because I know I will die someday
just like I love my girlfriend now
I want to make sure she has an amazing life
and she makes my life amazing

would we even be able to call it life
if there was no death

how would I wrap things up
would I even be able to?
would this just continue on forever

I know that if I couldnt die
I would jump off a bridge or two
hang a couple of times
go into space with no gear
I would do anything

I would be more selfish...
maybe

maybe I would be different
but what if im just the same

then would that bridge be so available
because I know its not quite an option now
I cant do that

would I do anything like I do now?

So, what if?
What would I do?