something really broke tonight,
and i fell through.
i went to bed,
so depressed
after having had words with you.
i have not fallen quite so deep
into the spiral of my own soul,
of my own silence
in a while.
i saw lifes contradictions
i saw the nature and substance of love.

but as quickly as it had come,
it slipped away.

i want someone to wrap me in the warmth of their arms.
i want someone to hold my heart in the palms of their hands and slowly heal me.
i want someone to take a look into my mind and try to understand my pain.

but the only reason i dont have that is because of me.
its my fault no one wants me

Not a player,
but player tendencies are prevalent in my ways.
so is Denial and Guilt,
not to mention emotional regressions met with selfish intentions.
now I lost you,
or maybe you lost me.
Cause maybe I wasn't the problem,
you just weren't the solution.

Nostalgia, my good friend, you’re back
This time let’s talk about the things I could have been
Let the tunes unchain my chains and I will let you dissect my brain
Little misty but I will remain strong and hope for better things ahead
But with that being said
Work your magic
And send me off on this rollercoaster

To the girls that I’ve talked to
Thank you for selfish reasons that mean more than the exchanging of souls that took place in our most trying times
For opening up to me even when our time was built on lies
When you allowed me in your sacred walls where your feelings reside
I realized how much I want to be loved