I feel trapped
Alone & afraid to get out
Four walls are too close
Can’t breath
Losing air
Eyes getting really low
Body shaking
Can’t move
My hands are numb
So did my feet
It’s getting cold
I’m freezing
I didnt know it was my time
My tears are turning into ice drops
So cold....

I miss home
I miss home so much
I don’t feel good Being here
My heart is comfortable
Not my brain
I can’t sleep at night
Up all night
Can’t think straight
I miss home
Where I feel more comfortable
Crying on the inside
Smiling on the outside
Nobody will understand
Why I miss home

Every day I wake up
I look at the ceiling
My soul goes back to sleep
Every moment I get up
My body is filled with sadness
Hopefull wishes that don’t exist
Black cloud that don’t belong here
Trying to be perfect for the wrong people
Saying to myself every day “I’m not myself.”
Waking up to a smile on my face
But in reality, I really want to cry
I don’t want you to understand
Only I can determine that
Dark black hole that
I keep falling in and I can’t get out
Please god help me
The more you say
The more I cry inside

So you want to make choices for me
Oh no sweetie I am my own person
Just know one day I ain’t going to be like that
I’m so tired of you telling me to do this or do that
I’m grown
I can stand on my own two feet
I don’t need you
People say around us
Oh you gave me better life
No you gave me choice
If my life was better
Why do I feel like i was went I was in high school ?
Why do I feel like you left this black hole in my heart ?
You know what
You did give me something
An eye opener of how bad choices make you a strong person
So thank you for all the tears
Thank you for hurting me few times
Thank you for letting us down
Just thank you
Because future me is going to be the best