you shake your head
and chuckle

as if the thought of
me without you
is an impossibility

*i am a woman
an unshakable force

my thoughts are mapped
like constellations
throughout the stars

i am a woman
my iron will stands strong

my happiness
depends on no one
but myself

i am a woman
complete and whole

i am not a
broken machine
who needs fixing

you can laugh that laugh
and roll your eyes

but i do not want you
and certainly
i do not need you

because no matter what
*i am a woman

I held you when you needed me,
then I held back tears as you were leaving me.
the greatest difference I found between us apart from the miles,
was the way I kept promises when I looked into your eyes.

And the last remarks you made,
well those were my favorite lies.

I'm tired of being passive,
I'm tired of being silent.
I tried,
Being someone I'm not;
I tried,
Being who I was,
Before everything shifted;
I found myself lost.

lately, death is always on mind
and not in the sense
that i think about killing myself
or have lost anyone
but since you've been gone
you might as well have left
with the others
whose time has ran out
because it feels like you left
to rest forever  
and a piece of me went with you
and i'm so tired of this longing
this sadness
missing you
when you aren't dead
only missing from me

Your kiss is bliss of love,
home after long cosmic journey
known to my lips
from origin of the Universe.