Endless love and incapable of anything else
I give it all to you and forget myself
Sunlight to my life you give me grace
A fiend to you, I'm addicted to your presence I cannot replace
An indescribable feeling you bring me bliss
I'm all yours never to remiss
The missing piece to my grand plan
Finally a reality that we can all understand
Keep my words and let them fuel your endearment
Love only grows and never shows indignant
Paste my soul where you can see it, drown in my thoughts, and burn in my voice.
I have found a fire I cannot extinguish, a soul that understands and a love to rejoice

A country where we praise the amount we can eat.
Filling our stomach, far beyond the limits.
Where our world is starving
Where we gluttonize until we hurt
Nourishment is now indulgence
Selfish pigs
A society of no moral values
Biased opinions we curse ourselves
Feeding our own minds poison
What hope of change
We aren't mighty
Not flawless
Instead we are human

Constantly in motion
I dream of you
To tame a beast
A beast of no remorse
Never to feel anguish or pain
Walking this earth alone
A beast that does not want
Lonely and hostile
Driven insane and isolated
To teach a monster that cannot love
A beast that is vulnerable
I dream of you
To free the beast
A beast that needs no help
Pushing everyone away
Crying out for help
A beast that has no soul
Searching for another like its own
Incapable of love
A beast that is hopeless
Unmotivated and transparent
Still cannot stop time
I dream of the day
A man is no longer a beast

Take my word for it, we'll find a shallow place down by the sea.
Somewhere nice where the sun fills all cracks of life.
A paradise I dream of. Where time doesn't move and life is love.
Somewhere far from the influences of society.
Somewhere I can be free and let my thoughts sustain.
I am the only factor in the constant rotation of the earth.
A wandering soul looking for another like mine. I am the undertone beneath the words you speak. Feel my breath as if it were your own. Come out of the slump and rise a King. You are a man, a mere mortal with an influence that can touch all.

Often misinterpret feelings because no one has conversations. No exchanging of words
That's why we're on different pages
These things that I'm telling you are for your ears only. Understand that i am opening up, and my love is growing slowly.
We see that someone was attached and someone wasn't
And someone always hurts while the other lies that it doesn't.
A friendship ends and loving a person turns scary
Failed attempts make you cold and wonder if you'll ever marry.
People do you ***** and always wonder why. 4AM texts didn't mean anything and everything you said was a lie.
How'd I get so cold? Why do I push people away? Will I die alone when I'm old?
I ask myself these questions and I can't find an answer. Wondering when I'll find you and get rid of this cancer

We can't eat,
We can't sleep
But we like the pain
So we don't weep.

I'm not involved
You've shown me
I don't need you
My soul is empty

Lies from the tongue
I do not believe your heart
**** love, don't need it
I can't stop falling apart

Who are you?
No one, that's who
We're not friends
I don't like you.

Yeah, we still cool
I still smile when you look
Can't replace time
Don't give back what you took

I'm still so young and unclean
20, with a path that is still unseen
My voice means nothing
but I want to be a part of something
Writing may be the only way to go
Let people hear my thoughts and emotion show
Still living at a stand still
Just aging with no bigger shoes to fill
May my words be an inspiration
Now or later, destined to lead a nation
Greater things are meant to be
but what to make of what is meant for me
I believe my thoughts will form in time
Into something of value and sublime
Admire my rage, I am angry
Closer to an answer, only I can save me.

sounds in the dark
cowardly, yes is he
run to your mother
I am the almighty
fear my gaze
I destroy all
only move in the dark
I cannot fall
there's a fight in my head
and your time is near
I'll punish your all
you have something to fear
let my shadows cast out
you'll have no where to hide
every man, woman, and child
beg thy mercy for you cannot side

let me go with the wind
I am the earth
the clouds seem heavy
at peace since birth
as darkness creeps
the wind drags on
the angels mutter
who yet, to dine upon
weeping bells from the west
the ballad plays
I am the creator
love me for thy fake grace

It's way too early to be feeling this way
I can't suppress my thoughts
I am nothing
Powerless human
What can I do?
Something is wrong with me
Eating me from inside.
Been this way for months
I need a new life
This one I'm in isn't exciting
I need to run
I need to leave
Before it's too late
Before my mind consumes me
Heart and soul impenetrable.
Veins run cold
I'm something you will never understand
I am lost and chained.
My optimism is gone
Mind has been corrupt
My thoughts are not my own
How did I get here?
I know you dwell within
Deep in my mind you wait
Suppress the monster.
Keep him chained.
He waits and anger builds
I'm breaking away
Stress and pressure consuming me
And still he waits.
Trapped in this cruel world
With only one goal
How to escape?

I am your light
Your guide in the night
Walk with me now
Travel as far as we can
Infactuated beyond belief
Lovely words drive me
You are beautiful
You make me weak
Watch my words speak
Let me be yours
Your power
Your balance
Your hero
Someone you want, and need.
Yours.
My love to exceed
I am King,
Will you be my queen?
I visit you when I close my eyes
Elegant but powerful
Never to leave my mind, 
You see who I am
Your deepest thoughts
I want to know you
The real you
The you no one else has ever seen
Show me your soul
If you trust me
I will not hurt you
Only to serve you
My Queen
Eyes that take souls
Smile that never stops
Beauty beyond belief
Wrapped in your graceful touch
So tight you can never leave
I crave you
Day and night
a fire you started in me
that cannot be extinguished.
Someone who sees. Who understands.
Feeling it's warmth.
Never to leave my mind.

Sometimes I get so worried
Worried that you'll hurt me
I don't mean to
Just how my mind works

Like, I want to put all of my trust in you but it's hard
I know it takes time

Sometimes I just need reassurance
I feel like I'm annoying
I feel my path is not connecting with yours
I get so scared
So scared I'll get hurt

I've been stood up so much
I hate it

Before you I had no one
No one I trusted with my emotions
I couldn't
No one could handle them or even try to understand

I don't want to put all of my problems and thoughts on you
I need to let it out though
I know it's eating me alive
I know I still hurt
The distance is what worries me
I know why people cheat
I'm a psych major. 
I know people
I know how they are

My mind is a curse
Sometimes I hate it and want to give up
Everything is just too much at times.

For someone to walk into my life like you
It's unbelievable
Its scary
I'm scared of what you can do
You have to power
Don't miss use it.
Please don't

If you must, then let me down easy.
I am the person who puts 100% into a relationship.
I will do everything in my power to please you and myself.
I like balance.

Have I ever told you my deepest fear?
Well it's love.
As beautiful as it is, it can end in seconds

I have so much to give
So much to show you
If you give me time I will

I don't mean to be of offence to you
I just want you to undertand

Just a lonely soul
Wandering the earth
In search for something
That can never be found
Cursed at birth
Incapable of loving another
Never to change
Born for leaving

This is me
Gypsie at heart
Runner not a lover
I dine with the witches
A beast of no remorse
Show no pain
No fear
Consume what's in my path
I am lost

I always will be.

I need time alone
time to think
time find myself
I need to figure out who I am
I need to figure out what
The time alone
the time that I sit by myself
It hurts
it's miserable
I can't stand it
because all I think about is you
I don't know how to stop
I don't know why I do
but you're the person I need the most right now
and I can speak to you
how do I stop
who do I talk to
no one understands
no one listens
I don't know how to figure out what's going on my head
its just too much for me
you could make sense of how I feel.
You could help me through this
I know you could help me
but I can talk to you
because I'm scared
scared we'll fall right back into cycle scared of you of what you think of me

but the true reason can't talk to you because I love you
and I know that if I talk to you
it would just ruin everything
I'm sorry but I just don't know what to do

I am what I am
Nothing more
And nothing less
pry at me if you wish
I will tell all someday
I will tell of the day she left
The day my parents separated
The day where I feared no man
The days that made me who I am
The days that made me a man
I will cry in your arms
Weeping my sorrows away
Passing them on to you
Trusting that you'll know what to do with them
Someday you will come along.
To save me from myself
To ease my troubled soul
And to bring light where darkness fell
Someday my love
I will show you who I am
All of my hopes and dreams
Downfalls and surprises
One in thousands.
Just another fish in the sea
Can you find me?
My love.

I feel like I'm in this world alone.
Wandering soul
Looking for another like mine
I cannot love another
Incapable of you
I am hopeless
No one compares
I cannot stop my mind
It reaches out
Wanting you
Craving your soul
Missing your mind
I don't know why
Feels like hell

I. Just wish we could talk.
Sometimes I need you.
To make sense of this world
You were good at that
Understanding me
It was always you
I can't do this much longer
I feel I'll go crazy
But I know
I am patient
I am strong
You cannot hurt me anymore
I am free
Yes I miss you
But I will live
Love was ours
God it was beautiful

It's nice to know you're doing fine,
I see that you're happy and I'm not on your mind.
It hurts that we don't talk. 
But it's good because we would never stop.
The things I wish I could tell you, 
The countless times I've almost called you.
Many nights that I don't sleep,
Drowning in tears as I weep.
Change is good for the both of us,
Moving on like we discussed.

I know that you'll always be there.
In my heart
In my mind
Somewhere.

Stay strong my queen, 
This world has so much to offer you.

Love is always beautiful in the end,
No matter what.

I'm in a mid trap and all I think about you.
Can't sleep can't eat
nothing takes my mind off.
Reality vs Insanity?
you can ask me where I fall.
I can't breath, overrated anyways.
Values of life.
start contemplating every outcome 
Then accept them.
A starting place or a new beginning?
I need excitement, adventure.
Common words from a lonely man.
I can only contemplate death.
never to do a thing about it.
Lives unlike my own.
There is nothing greater than us.
show me what you believe,
I do not judge.
Life's only outcome is death. 
No one will be remembered.
Consumed with power and ego
I live to create a better life.
Not for me but my own.
Not to be remembered, 
But to remember lessons.
Because what is learned can only be remembered.

I know it hurts. 
I know how bad. 
You can't even talk to me.
I can't help but die inside.
Wish things didn't have to be this way.
I'm sorry for everything.
I know you're sorry too. 
You're still holding me down. 
How do I let you to? 
Haven't heard from you in over a month. 
Hope you're moving on.
I know it's hard.
How to love another?
I cannot imagine.
Still.
I am stuck here.
Lonely and cold and weak.
Waiting on someone. 
Someone like you.

I am fascinated with love. I always have been. I want to know someone more than they know themselves and love it. I want to connect with someone, instantly. I want to be holding you in my arms and know that I'll never let go. I want to understand you in ways that no one ever has. I want to be your light in the dark. I will be all of your strength and you will be my weakness. They say when it's real you just know. I'm not looking for love but if she finds me I won't look past her. I need a friend. A lover. Someone who sees and understands. Perfect in her own ways

All is forgotten but not forgiven. 
Sleeping just to pass the time. 
Staying high to block out the pain. 
Been months since I've cried
It's just a high school relationship.
Nothing big, just a broken heart. 
Lonely stoner finding his way. 
Tired of seeing the same people. 
Music is my release. 
It's my temporary escape. 
Sooner than later.
Back to reality. 
We all have demons.
My rage dwells within.
I'm angry and I don't know why.
****** at the world. 
I don't want anything to do with anyone.
Leave me alone.
Please.

Just another someone to make me feel special for a couple weeks. Nothing long term you're only temporary. I don't make plans for us. I tell you from the start that I'm not what you're looking for. I'm not your knight and shining armor. I'm not your best friend. I don't need your help. I don't want to hear what you have to say. I know how it all goes. It's easy to say yes. It's easy to give in a little and like how she feels. It's okay for today and tomorrow. Sickening when I try and feel. Coming here I will not be hurt again. You can't get to know me. You can't change me. I'm not like the others. I crave to be something you can't make me feel. There's no point in this. I just get lonely. I'm not the same man. Drowning in my thoughts. 
Incapable of love.

The odds are against me.
For I am nothing.
Stuck on a road that leads to death. This feeling. The moment. It's killing.
I cannot breath so why am I here?
I cannot see, and I cannot think another thought.
Believe me when I say I am hopeless. Break me into pieces and throw me to the birds.
I am weak.
Let off the gas so I can take a break. This overwhelming heavy feeling on my whole body. I

don't know what to do.

Friends come and go like the seasons change.
Nothing last forever, nothing we can arrange. 
You are special to me.
Too special for the eye to see. 

I have this feeling or sensation, its more like a connection, but its nothing more than pure affection. 

Like when you go down a roller coaster and your stomach turns.
It's the same thing when I'm with you, my body churns.
It's your physiological essence that I seek.
Something unexplainable, you could say unique. 
Words are only half of what I feel.
The rest is in my actions and what I conceal. 

I don't think this.... Will ever go away.

Hopefully you will kind of understand what my worlds are trying to portray.

So how does this work? Does it all go away at once?
How long do I wait? Will time ease the punch?
Fighting sobriety to push away my pain.
Holding in the tears that remain.
I don't know what to do.
The days are cold when everything reminds me of you. 
I have to get you out of my head. 
I can't love with you the way you said.
No sleep and I can't eat, 
It's like you put the pain on repeat.
Everything that we've done is all gone,
Slowly falling I need someone to out this weight on.
I don't want this. I don't want this pain.
I hurt too much to explain.
Done with this
Time to move on and forget the girl I used to miss.

Here today is where i sit, on this porcelain thrown is where I ****. 
Counting off the minutes that go by.
My elbows leave red marks on each thigh.
Thinking on what I had to eat last night. Maybe I shouldn't push with all my might.
Then my peers start to evacuate.
I could have possibly lost some weight.
Feeling fresh and renewed I head back to class. Hopefully no one can smell my ***.

Some of my most beautiful memories are with her. What am I supposed to do with them?
This is the problem I face today. I don't know how I feel or what to say. 
Crazy within, mind undone, stress sleeps in.
Can't deal with myself, who is looking back at me?
I don't know where I am or who I can be? 
The beat of the drum lingers in my ears. 
Putting on this smiling face for my peers.
Stomach churns, fingers tingle, fire inside burns.
Where are my problems? Lay them out in front. 
No more desires, the wolf is out of hunt.
It's only when she's present that I feel.
This big hole in my heart I'm trying to heal.
Hear my words because I sing to you.
The sunrises and the moon sets too.
my love.

I am infinite, I am beyond restrain. 
Powerful with my light, there is no end to my reign. 
I am all who I say I am and more. 
You may only step where I've stepped before. 
I bring the winds and I bring the rain. 
Drown me out and I'll bring you pain. 
Shelter the light, I cause the storms.
Lightning and thunder as the heavens perform. 
Floods in my mind to wash out the pain. 
Step to me again and I'll **** you in vain.
Drop to your knees you'll now down yes you see. 
I am infamous, no one can stop me.

Drip drip the rain goes. 
Cold bitterness when the wind blows.
The weather turns my heart.
It's broken, slowly falling apart.
Lost in my own conscious mind.
Forever looking for something I can't find.
All of our memories are gone. 
Going through life with this mask I put on. 
Wanting something I shouldn't have.
Debating on whether I should have.
Leave it all here on this page. 
Writing my thoughts to calm my rage.
I'm going insane, please help me.
Love is something that we used to be.
Hating myself at times for my sins.
Crying inside when the episode begins. 
I cannot love another.
Standing alone, no one to call I love her.
Digging my grave in the dark by myself. 
No doubt that I'm stranded I don't need your help.
I'll write till my death and the pain fades away.
Choking my soul I have nothing to say.
Hearing your voice is torture to my ears. 
Our greatest debt is that we don't know out own fears.
Love is gone and drowning is nice.
They tell me to smile but I don't need advice.

Dance with me now on this day,
Run away with me forever is where we'll stay.
Let's leave reality and just float,
Fly away with me as I've once wrote.
When I lay here all alone everything is new.
No worries, no stress, nothing to keep me blue.
I'm wandering in this world searching for me.
Learning and finding my way in this sea. 
You belong to me as I've said before, 
I'll scream it louder than a thunders roar.
Hear me in this dark time of haste, 
This is our only chance we cannot waste.
Break me down and free my soul,
An eternity is something out of my control. 
I'm screaming and calling your name,
Shrieking to the heavens In my shame. 
Why did I **** what was once mine?
Torture is better than the sun not shine.
Endless seconds I cannot sleep. 
Endless pain you have my heart to keep.

Dance with me under the moon and the stars.
Let's take this night and make it an eternity. Listen to the sounds of the dark.

Sweet slow melodies fuel desires. Reflections of our lives are no more.

Nothing matters except the moment present.
Come with me my queen. Where we go is forever. Trust my voice and let go of this world.

Fall into my arms and never let go. I am here now and time moves slow.

I'm here in this world ripped and broken. 
Calling out your name in the same voice I've spoken.
Lost in a crowd with no one to look for. Listening and waiting for your voice puts myself at war. 
Waiting on and endless flight. 
Speaking of that forever sleepless night.
Gone gone gone, with no one to go to. 
I'll never feel the way I'm attracted to you.

I'm searching for a real love.

I'm a deep drowning undone emotional mess.
Mistreated heated gone in baked stress. 
It seems longer than time itself. 
Back and fourth we go gives you time to find yourself. 
I give you everything and all of my anything. 
Bringing all of me to meet your something.
Shaking in these dull moments for what?
Because I'm opening doors loving you shut.

My mind is careless and my heart is empty.
Unconsciously knowing I've have plenty.
Standing tall here and let nothing get in your way.
Putting my words into a graceful ballet.
Heated and undone but at what cost? So I can sit here and show you all I've lost.
Time is an unbeatable and never ending gift.
Trying to put the weight on your shoulders but the pain comes too swift. 
Constantly being drawn back to the fire.
Showing love and fueling these never ending desires.
Who are we to love in this world or to say what's ours?
Dreaming of possibilities that reality devours.
So dance with me before the storm hits.
Show me all of my sins that love commits.

When I sit here, silent and still.
Cares and worries are gone. Nothing matters. No one, no object or anything could hold me back. I'm my own fear. I'm my own pride and fall. I have the power. I am infinite. I'm in control. Who can stop me? Realization of time. Hopes and dreams fall. Heart breaks ****. Depression. Start to ask questions and hate the answers. Plans are changing and it's getting colder. Time is against me. So why do we do the things we do? The distractions and mazes. The pain and the fight. Days of no sleep and still you ask the question. Who can stop me?