Question marked eyes
was only pain in disguise.
Life surely does imply
that we all die
in time.
Couldn't kiss your face
cause it's not your face
no more,
no more than I could
touch the cold leather skin
that's no longer yours.

Somehow still waiting for
you in your absence.
Lassitude evades my conscience.
I don't mean to question the science
but we felt no force could
break the alliance.
I guess it doesn't matter now.
But what exactly matters now
is the smile on your face
that is never replaced
from my mind now.

I'm thinking how you thought now.
I'm walking like you walked now
I'm spitting your slang and there ain't
no other thang I'd rather talk about,
than you...

I love you.

I lose myself
deep in thought.
Still I took
what darkness brought.
A war commenced,
my mother fought.
She lost her grip,
her soul was caught.
Here I am,
a dark brainstorm.
A silhouette set still
waiting to take form.

Seems like everyone is fighting but me.
I could be anyone in another reality.

Wish I could take a pill
and be invincible.
Takes power to make everyone incredible.
I'm an animal
without instinct.
Potential in a lockdown precinct.
Yet I swim through the deep end
from the end back to the beginning.
I will find my purpose for living.

The sun has stopped at midnight,
Its sky caught in a tapestry of stars
And there are certain shadows
I recognize.

I am hidden with the secrets of my desires,
Alone with the guilt of my soul,
The lost wings of the Fallen
As I wear a burden around my neck,
The fountains can never quench
The darkness,
The tears are a storm inside me,
Because I have fallen from the highest
Peak into the lowest abyss.

My dreams are hidden here,
The colors lost to me from the
Stilled light,
Behind a sea of failures
I leave the sky behind me,
I surface at a destiny sealed by the past,
Like the ignorant bliss of oblivion.

And I weep at the boredom of it all.