The moon will be gone tomorrow
Will fold me over like the pleats on her dress
I could ask one million times to each star in her eyes
And never find an answer
The stars of the night lose their meaning

And the leaves in the forest know it too
Holding onto branches and changing color
They only rustle in the breeze of coldest night
But they don't feel
And the beams cannot help them see

Each ray of light
Is complete dissaray
I only know I felt you near me
In some distant song of memory
About how I lived my dream

And how nothing is as it seems

Today I am sad
I lost a friend
I lost a friend I never knew
And I knew as well as anyone

And all night I stay up
In conversation getting drunk
And getting high on ideas
And finding meaning

We spoke
And will speak no more
Today I am sad
I lost a friend

And went to find him
In the old familiar place
But there wasn't a name
And there wasn't a face

Today I am sad
It is nothing
I feared it always was
I lost a friend

I want to think that love is more than skin
As has always been my problem
I know you now
Like I knew you then
I loved you
The unloved
I've heard the song the doves cry
I've watch the clouds float swiftly by
And not a face I saw
No heaven above us all
I love you now
Like I loved you then
It's my hands
No longer touch you
It's my dreams
No longer reach you
Its my heart
No longer beating
To the rhythm of a drum
I hope that time cannot stop me
And that I make believe the truth
I feel it now

I feel it now
Like I felt it when
Your lips were artist's hands
And each color was a song
And you would say you loved me
The way that I love you
I feel it now
How it is to be on the outside
Cold and alone


It's my home
I must move on from
Its my bed
I cannot sleep
Its my heart
Now slowly beating
Now steady pounding my unease
An empty song into my brain
I hope that time is repeating
Because I see my future's pain
But I grow to doubt that I will ever know
Of joy in life again

I loved you

I love you more than suns
Infintismal morning and spectacular night
My constellation shines bright onto your dusky life
When the light is fading low
I love the stars
I love you more than stars
And how the stars became your skin
Your prophetic vision of doom
My gift of a life ever after
I love your heaven
I love you more than heaven
Because an angel's song sounds sweeter on your lips
And harps and trumpets sit in the clouds you hold
Your music is perfection to my ears
I love your sound
I love you more than sound
Sound becoming symphony to cascade the unfeeling mass
And bring the rhythm of rapids as your heart beat
Your heart beats in my chest
I love you
More than sight or touch
I love you as a dream
I love the stars
I love you more

I love you as only ancient civilizations do
Mayan calanders that read the stars to predict the future
Knew about you
And me
How our minds collide on a supersonic level
And how each step through fire
How each pain that each nerve in each fiber of skin in each of us
Feels
Feels each other as something bigger than the life we know
As large as an expanding universe
Where you reach every end of me
I love you as tides love the moon
And each gravitational pull makes me spill water that is my soul
On the beach that is your mind
I love you as the morning loves the song of the sparrow
Incomplete without the melodic tones of your soul
Only me alone
Unless of course
You are there
My music is dancing alone unless you hear it
I love you as flowers love the sun
And always reach
I love you as the air loves the wings
That fly through it
I love you as the clouds love the rain
And fall down upon your skin
I love you as a child loves dreams
And you are my childish hope for tomorrow
I love you
That is all
I love you

I could say I love you a million times
I could say
But simply saying can not convey
My depth of feeling for you
I love you more than the plants love the sun
Or the tides the moon
I love you more than a rich man loves gold
I love you more than I love the world
The world I love because it brought me to you
I will show you I love you a million times
I will show
And my exhibition for your amusement
My reaching into your soul
I show you more than colors
I show you Rembrandt and Monet
These images are made in my heart
I see when I close my eyes
And when I look to the skies

I love you
I just wish I knew how to show it

If pain is all in the mind
Then why does it feel so real?
Like the hand I used to hold
The hand I couldn't keep

I'm a beggar aimless wandering

Singing songs out of key
Now I wretch, now I sleep
Now I plea for coins
To help feed my disease

My body broken, all alone, in want of times before

When I held in my hand
A part of the world
The greatest part of it
The very heart of it

Always to be a part of me apart from me

If pain is all in the mind
This pain enough to ****
The loss and longing lonesomess
Its all that I can feel

I'm a beggar aimless wandering

I'm afraid
I know its not a manly thing to admit
Strong people shouldn't feel fear
And I am strong
I believe I am

Like all my memories as a child
I saw things others couldn't
I was so strong then
I bled until there was no blood left
And I am still live

And this curse I can't lift
This want that I can't purge
This ghost that follows me
This failure, this disease
This pain I can't forget

I'm afraid
That this oyster has no pearls
And I can fight against the tide
To look some more
And never find

Like all my memories of you

Im afraid
Of Americans
Because they don't understand
But they just don't care

You can't be right when you can't be wrong
When you can't be wrong no lessons learned

I'm afraid
Of Americans
Because I'm surrounded by them
Eating at McDonalds

You can't be healthy if you don't eat right
You can't eat right if you listen to advertisements

I'm afraid
Of Americans
Because I am one
I'm afraid of myself

My bittersweet glory in creating history
My personal ability to change the world

I'm afraid
Because if america got it wrong
As the hope of the world
Why wouldn't I?

I'm afraid the way she walks into the night
Will become hands from hell and darkened stars
That she denies the moon which fights to save her
And no sun may rise again to grace her skin
Even the scars tell a story
Even the stars
But evening is calling
I'm afraid the way she walks into the night

Do not know hell the way I do
Do not step barefooted on the rocks of futures torture
Let the sharpened edges scream
And carve the flesh

She was born with a name in your heart
A whispered truth
As the world around grows loud
It speaks to her

I'm afraid the way she walks into the night
With a ghost in her shadow and a pain on her palm
That even the beauty of love would not be felt
And no morning comes with this loss
Even the moon cries her image
Even the nebulas grow her direction
But evening was meant to be dark
I'm afraid the way she walks into the night

Do not know hell the way I do
When we wish on satellites to maybe see a star
And we only ever know the witching hour
In all its hateful dimensions

She was born the hope of the light
A frenzied dream
A constellation mind
And silent screams

I'm afraid the way she walks into the night

I'm always a little bit blue
But I'm always smiling
I'm always laughing
Always joking around

Always serious
Always a fool

I'm always thinking

I'm always thinking
Except for when I need to be
And ineveitibly
I'm always doing something stupid

Something that can't be undone
Something to cause me pain
Something I can't forget
I'm always sorry

I used to feel the tides
Feel at ease with them
Let the water wash over me
I used to be
Where the water met the land
The oceans wave at me
And used to drown
At low tide
The sea watching me recede
I used to
Be high as I watched the tide
Rolling in at night

But all the sharks
And shipwrecks
Riptides to pull me under
My nautical affinity

I fear
I may never see the ocean again

And I may upset you
You writer
When I say
The words you spill upon a page
Awaken nothing in me
Nothing I haven't known before
Nothing at all
That I couldn't say
In a manner of the moon hanging above a nightime bay
As the ships roll in
And then roll away

I may upset you
You rider
When I say
Your horses lack the power
To carry me away
To a place I haven't been before
No place to find
Cornered in the eddies of my mind
And as unreachable by amateur hands
As the farthest star I can only dream

I may upset you
Fellow poet
Because my prose is cosmos speaking through me
And you know it as you fear it
As some indescribable tongue
Making sounds
You never even knew existed
And even after hearing
You can't imagine

I may upset you
But I know its only because
You lack the ability
To see beauty and embrace it
As something to learn from

She sleeps in my red light
While I sleep alone
With someone
I know about empty wells
Alone I'm in a group
Alone I'm in a crowd
Singing all my songs
I'm a forsaken shepherd

So can I kiss you on the forehead
And lay these demons to rest
While the most important things
Make me smile

I'm drunk!!!!
I can hardly walk straight
I'm glad I don't need to talk
Because I hate slurring my words

they're too important
To be mumbled
And misunderstood

I'm drunk
And I love it
I hate it

Still I don't want to talk
But I cannot help but write
It is the spirit within me
That screams I need to be heard

And when I'm drunk
I understand
The spirit knows more than I do
It knows why I feel so much hope when the moon is new

And such loss
When the moon is full

I'm drunk
But I'm a conduit to other realms
And only by spreading this message around
Can you hear it

I'm drunk
(Hahaahaahahahaahahahaha)
But I still hope
What inspires me
Will inspire you

I love you
And I'm going to
I ask nothing of you
I release my expectation

You can't make me
Happy
And I can't make you be
What you aren't

Still right now
And forever
I love you
I'm always going to

And forever I will feel
Right now
When I needed something
I heed your words

You are you
I am me
We are one
I love you

And your failure
Your weakness
Your sickness
Your doubt

It's all
Me

I love you
The truth is
I'm inside you now
Then, when and forever

I love you
And I'm going to

I'm going to love you
I go over infinate space
Never finding solace
I go over a mountain range
Where snow never melts
I go over lonely roads
Where there is no ending
I go over suns and moons
Which only set
I go through darkness
Knowing there's a light
Somewhere for me
Something I can see
I feel at distance
I feel obdurance
I feel the hard cold clay beneath my feet
Clay which could never be molded
Could never be art
But even the darkness speaks
To the light
In my heart
I'm going to love you

I'm here
And where else could I be
I was always waiting on you
My whole life

See the skies
See faces in the clouds
See brightness of the sun
See the truth

Let my song speak to your soul
And any sickness
That it may heal you
That your belief in all I am
Heals me

See the night
See storied constellations
See distant nebulas
See the stars

I'm here
And where else would I be
I was only waiting on you
To speak to me

I miss her eyes
Which I could use a million words
And never describe
I miss her voice
Like every single word is a note
In my favorite song
I miss her hands
Delicate and lithe and reaching
And holding strong
I miss her hair
Golden woven strands of silk
Sweet like honey milk
I miss her coldness
Like I could hold her in my arms
And feel her melt
I miss her warmth
Like her heart pumps a boiling blood
Fueled by passion
I miss her body
More to explore than outer space
A place I made my home

I miss her everything

I miss her highs
I miss her lows
I miss her car
And the way she drove
I miss her shoes
And the way she walks
I miss her dreams
I miss our goals


But most of all
I miss her laugh
Almost like since she left
Nothing is funny

As a poet
My words matter more than I do
I'd gladly die
So that they could live forever

These are the feelings
A whirlpool
In the ocean
Where I can only drown
The feeling that I've been wrong
I'm not upset with you
I'm angry with myself
That I could project such expectations

Because without wings
You came flying
But really I was so far beneath the surface
I saw you above me

When in reality

One man knows about god
And emulates
Another knows nothing
And it becomes apparent

And so you let me down
I never should have looked to you to lift me up

I'm on fire
From the way I burned for you
And the fire burns hotter
Now that you're gone

And the warmth that was
Is bitter memory
The fires dying now
And ashes will remain

My god
My love
Is the very thing
To save me
Or destroy me
How many times before?
How many times again?
My god
I've finally realized
I don't want to be happy
Without you
And you don't want to be happy
So I want nothing at all

I am on an Arab beach
Head
With nothing to say
I'm saying anyway
If only I had no name
Only skin
And eyes
You would always know the truth
I want nothing at all
Or
At least if I should fall
It will be with enough force
To leave some sort of impact

Forget my mouth
And my teeth

Tell me what you want
I'll bleed but not bleed out
I'll find a way to live
When you stab me in the heart
I'll find a way to dance
Without you
And still wish that where you are
You're dancing too
Woman, it's all my impossible soul

Tell me where you went
And why your so afraid
Do you want to love?
Do you want to love me more?
If I couldn't sing
I'd still find a way to say
My beautiful heart
My impossible soul
Woman, it's not so impossible

I cannot care for you
Dragonfly
If you can't care for yourself
Broken cloud
And all the love I gave
Silent tomb
Becomes wasted
Little one

I think
it is best
that I
lay this ghost
to rest

If I
Am truly
Meant to
Be haunted
Posessed

Her spirit knows where I am
I'll reach no more
Unless she's reaching
I'm not waiting
I'm ready

I'm the one
The only one
Who found shade
On the surface of the sun
Let these fires not burn me
But as well
I'm the one
Who made the stars
Into stairs
And step by step
Reach oblivion
And fall in heavy
Let this darkness hold me
Let it speak my name
And let me hear

How can I love something
The way I love myself?
You were the one to show me
And I'll be forever grateful

You've heard my songs
And they made you sing
I took my off my shoes
And you did too

******* it how I love you!!!!!!

I cross the street
Without looking both directions
And then I get upset
When I get run over

I'm trying to tell you something
I don't know how
But there is water in the desert
There are cities full of ilife
And stop signs and green lights
I don't know how
Still amidst the sand storms
I'm trying to tell you something

I'm trying to show you something
I don't know how
Because words are only sound
Even if they come as music
A symphony of movement
And every action is
I don't know how
Who I really am
I'm trying to show you something

Well it's a history of changes
Still it's our history of changes
So maybe tomorrow
We will Change for the better

Haha
I have to laugh
Because I must not cry
Or rather
I must be strong
Still
I am worried
That the most profound thoughts I have
Expressed with my strongest words
Go not unnoticed
Or rather
Unappreciated
Probably because
Simplicity is the key
And if you find and ocean
Then I can swim
Only in the deepest parts of space
Do I suffocate

But most people are drowned
Wading through the mainstream

I worried about a heart
I see a flower blooming
Finally reaching light
The most beautiful light
I'm worried about a mind
Something I never thought I'd find
Gentle and kind
And consumed by passion
I'm worried about a soul
As a flower slow unfolding
The most beautiful sight
I hope she'll be alright

Please don't lose hope.

Have faith in yourself
As I have faith I'm you

Have faith in me

We manifest our dreams,
And I know we can both be happy!
You'll find someone

To be the one

And I know
The spirits speak
You're the one for me

I was building walls through the middle of the sahara using only cardboard, scotch tape, and bulldozers, when I got bored and decided my time was better spent looking up flowers on the internet that I would never see firsthand

I realized then how I wanted to be someone to follow so I bought an ant farm at Miller's Corner Store, and set them free but not without first covering my whole body in honey and letting it seep through my skin to sweeten my heart

I put the queen in my left shirt pocket

I'm straddling the borderline
Sitting on a fence of razor wire
A continental divide
A fault before an earthquake
One side is a steep climb
The other a cliff
Should I fall?

The mountain is too high
And I can't stand still anymore

The sage will win hearts with wisdom,
The king will win hearts with justice,
Youth wins a lover's heart with persistence
Keeping still binds joy to the earth
So it doesn't get lost in excess
For it is the bound joy,
Not the untethered ecstasy,
Which works the magic of influence and attraction.

The sage will win hearts with wisdom,
The king will win hearts with justice,
Youth wins a lover's heart with persistence
Keeping still binds joy to the earth
So it doesn't get lost in excess
For it is the bound joy,
Not the untethered ecstasy,
Which works the magic of influence and attraction.

I don't want fame
Only love
Everything in its right place

We want to love
A simple perfect world
Some masterful design
An unknown
We have heart
Still our blood moves now in vain
And if you cut me how it spills
Always the scars

As long as there's injustice in the world
There is room for jealousy
As long as jealousy still lives
There will be hate

We want to live
Denying the natural order of things
For every up there is a down
And only light when no more darkness
We have faith
Only because these gloomy days
Have taught us how to lose
And lose all hope

In my own eyes
There is a star that shines
And nobody can say anything
To convince me otherwise
In my own eyes
There is nothing more beautiful
Nothing I have seen
Nothing from my dreams

An ancient statue
Of Aphrodite
Goddess of love
Make me believe

In my own words
I can describe
How beautiful
I really know you are
A rising sun
A full moon
A shining star
In my own eyes

:                                                  leave
                                      the                          cycles
                           of                                                weeping
                    
                       and              seek inner truth             singing
        
                           to                                                        those
                                      who                          are
                                                       still
                                                  enamored
                                                        of
                                                      them

You can have what you want
And not lose who you are

Lord Byron
Jack Kerouac
Ezra Pound
Emily Dickinson

Maya Angelou
Bukowski
Dubs B Yeats
John Updike

Pablo Neruda
My favorite
The greatest of all time

Still I hope a poem I write
Becomes your favorite

Because I'm so inspired
Inspired as such
I retired before I made a dime
And joined a lazy river
A river like me
With no sort of aspirations
To ever reach the sea

I only want to look and never see

And to me its so inspiring
That time expiring
And we as ants march inexorably
Towards our greatest truth
The ultimate horror
With smiles on our faces

In our perfectly tailored military suits

And yet I'm so inspired
A comic strip without a caption
Just a fraction of the faction
And limiting my rations
Because I offend the captain
With my unruly actions
I'm double timing backwards

I channel Michael Jackson as I moonwalk into battle

Set your armies in order
Before you march
Its all planning
And with no good start there is no good end

I have a friend
I haven't seen in far too long
And yesterday I finally realized
My friend was really gone

So I'll write about what interest me
And hope you'll find it interesting
I'll pollute in the middle of the ocean
Where nobody goes to swim

Maybe everything around me is a metaphor
As the old me is dying
Shots ring out ten thousand miles away
Chaos and confusion in my own heart
And in the capital

And the really scary thing
Is not how big it is
But how little it takes
To turn a world upside down

Maybe it is something I can't understand
How my pain can feel so large
While there are woman and children weeping
Pain and suffering in my own heart
And in the capital

Still the strangest thing to me
Is how I can be so selfish
When my own heart still is beating
But there are one hundred people dead
In the capital

And the really scary thing
Is not how great the pain is
But how little it takes
To cause it

Maybe everything around me is a metaphor
As the old me is dying
Shots ring out ten thousand miles away
Chaos and confusion in my own heart
And in the capital

And the really scary thing
Is not how big it is
But how little it takes
To turn a world upside down

Maybe it is something I can't understand
How my pain can feel so large
While there are woman and children weeping
Pain and suffering in my own heart
And in the capital

Still the strangest thing to me
Is how I can be so selfish
When my own heart still is beating
But there are one hundred people dead
In the capital

And the really scary thing
Is not how great the pain is
But how little it takes
To cause it

On a mountain
We can feel the clouds
Or we can fall

In the ocean
We can swim in waves
Or we can drown

With the fire
We can warm our bones
Or we can burn

In the sky

You love every beautiful part of me
But there is also

My stars are okay,
It's my mind that is the problem
Restless mind, repeated questions
And the inability to slow down and listen

Perhaps to stay still for the moment would be the best idea

Am I in tune with my intuition
And I follow wherever it goes
Forget my worried mind
Forget my worried mind
Am I listening to the spirits
To the angels and the ghost
They're speaking in feeling
They speak through my feelings

Its only what you take from it
Its only what you make of it
And is my future
And is my past

Is it intoned in my intuition
A song that I've heard before
I know the words
I know the words
I meditate on losing meaning
So I'll see what my eyes can't
Lose my worried mind
Lose the worry in my mind

Its only what you take from it
Its only what you make of it
And is my future
I'll make it be

And when it happens
The weight of the world is a burden for my shoulders
And the train wreck are the thoughts in my mind
And the stress feels like I can't escape
I like to pick up an old guitar
And tune it