As scattered ideas come together
As emotions flood my soul
Mountains of papers on the floor
Mountains of words come to mind
But in the end, these mountains form a mountain chain
called a poem

Grief
wakes you up at 4:30 in the morning
because you were dreaming about him
and that dream was too painful
Now, not even sleep is an escape

Grief
it makes you cry for a little bit during the day
but it never lets you cry for long
because others are watching
so you have no choice but to put on that mask and wait for the night

but then night comes
and grief chains those tears
ties your feelings into a box
and you drown in those waves of emotions
of longing, loneliness, and sadness
you want to cry and let it all out
maybe the pain will go away...
but this grief will not let you

Grief
Replays all the moments in your head
puts your last moments together on rewind
making you miss them more

Logic comes in and says
"He will be happier somewhere else in someone else's arms"
But grief says
"You will never see him again and he will always be in a faraway place"
A place...
where his name is known
but your's isn't
A place that he will forget you

Grief
Is listening to a song you used to dance to
and remembering it all
waves of emotions bashing you against the rocks
with your soul barely clinging to life

Grief
is constantly drowning you
and ******* all the hope you have...
but at the same time creating a hopeless hope
that this person will come back
a hopeless hope that you will be in his arms again

Though this person is still on this earth
You know that you will never see him again
Though this person is still breathing
You will never feel his breath against your cheek or hear him breathe
Though he can still hug people
You won't feel his embrace any longer
Though this person can still laugh and smile
You won't see his smile and you won't hear his laugh
You won't even be able to make him laugh or smile
because he is no longer with you
Though his eyes still shine like stars and are full of life
You will never see that same light again
that light of life
Though this person's soul is alive
You won't hurt any less
Than if he was dead

I seek pleasure in Allah's blessings,
I reverently engage myself in worshipping Him,
Praying with a remorseful heart-
And scarred soul,

My eyes shed tears of sorrow,
For my sins to be forgiven,
I take the road to faith and hope-
Because I am currently lost in the midst of this world.

Child of mine please know

All things have a season

All things have a time

If stars can fall, then crash and burn

Humans fight and fail to learn

Then time has nought to teach

The blind will never learn to see

And the deaf will fail to hear

Even mighty rivers run dry

And seas can also die

Today

my heart stopped beating

But time has taught me this...

Love is where you find it

Follow joy wherever you can

Hope can spring eternal

Fellowship remains in man

A tree's shadow moves with the sun
As i melt into your velvet arms ,

Dance with me
When the moon shines bright
Dance with me throughout the night
Under the stars that are as far apart
As my dreams and a broken heart
Dance with me my angel, my prince, my knight
Dance with me, he who brings light to my life

O little vampire
Don't **** our blood
Go back to heaven
We are stuck in flood

Blood is not flood
Don't make flood blood

Capacity of tears
Our bad foundation
Contribution to
Our daily sadness
That led to
Abundance of bruises

Sleepless nights
Are now considered
As normal nights
A wink addressed
As lucky day
For the thoughts
Are too many to
Give me rest

Yet, It's all done
And can't be reversed
I agreed at first
For I knew not
About the future
And the pain in all

Love is our root
That we planted
Joyfully with smiles
That we happily grew
Not knowing it
Was our red rose
Until it grew thorns
Which hurt our souls

Maybe the distance
Distanced everything
As I now know less
And less is spoken
Like silence ever
Breath a word

It's hard to live
With the guilt
It's hard to live
With ignorance