Wait for me
Behind the trees
Of Winter's end
In the meadows
Of Summer's wake
Find me
Beneath the water
Where maids sing
A song of desire
Luring deeper in
The mystery
Of your love
Where there is
A kingdom
Of gold
I remember
To find the door
Through the meadows
Behind the trees
There you will be

The rain fell on a sunny day
I stood amidst your way
I held out my hand
You only turned your back

Tried to utter a word
Yet the rain only poured
I just wanted to know
And then let go

My heart tried not to explode
As your hand I tried to hold
Yet every step I made
You're always a step away

The world was once ours
We had everything written in the stars
Your hand I just wanted to hold
And then let go

The wind has blown
Everything now is thrown
A last beat of the sound
And no more beats to pound

Perhaps you'll never know
How much I once loved so
My heart just wanted to show
And then let go

It's strange now to look into his eyes
Suddenly you forget all his lies
Love is back in the air
Yet you don't know if he really cares
You want to love him again
But criticism is always on them
By the time you've finally given up
And moving on is on game's top
He confesses his love
Giving up all the above
Hearing his heart's cry
You'd never expect he'd die.

A broken heart has yet again fallen
Pain that releases too much tears
Desperate to search again for that haven
And hide away from all the fears
The sight of the heart a whole for another
The broken one can only disappear
No more to call a shelter
For both no longer stays here

Shattered into pieces
It's time to say goodbye to the memories.

The wind started to play with my hair
Trying to wipe away the tears
As I sat down on the bed of rocks
My hearts slowly feeling afraid

The river that does not stop flowing
Like life that goes on without care
Whether pain swallows everything
And left with nothing to hold on

The skies could tell what I feel inside
And for the millionth time I wanted to shout
All of the feelings that was kept within
Still I always fail

The wind starts to fade
The river starts to dry
The sky starts to disappear
I remain here in the bed of rocks.

My soul finds rest in his arms
Just like how the breeze of the air calms
I knew it from the start
One day we will be apart
I want to refuse you
But my heart doesn't want to
Oh how my heart suffers
The pain no one can cover
You had to go alone
For where you're going is not my home
Will I ever again see your face?
Will I ever again feel your embrace?
Will you ever come back?
Will someone ever contain my lack?
My only wish is for you not to forget me
For one day I believe, together we'll be free.

The signs keep appearing
The lights slowly blinding
Every sight that I could get
The beginning is the end

Will I be too late
Even when I tell to wait
To change and plead
To not yet take me away

For I know what comes
When the light become
Everything I dream
But not yet ready to stream

Wait for me, I whispered
I will try not to hover
And just look forward
No more of being coward

You appear
When the first
Teardrop of heaven
Falls to the earth

Others long for warmth
Of the sun rise
Yet I find myself
Falling deeper into storms

Your form
Brought about by
Waters of the earth
Where love is created

I see you
In the midst
Of thunderstorms and hail
And I start to pray

Towards heaven I raise
To give me one more
Day of rain
Day of you

I cry for one more drop
As you fade
Into the dew
Of the morning

Let it rain
Let you stay
Let fade
Let me rain

Each day the world gets smaller
Yet our distance keeps getting farther

The pain that was planted
Has grown fruits of regret

The door that you closed
I kept opening each day

The hope that you threw away
I kept picking up each day

The beauty of the sky
Rains on me like tears

I try to deny
But tears can never lie

Pieces of you in my hands
I slowly let the wind drift them away

Regret will pay me a visit
But only for a while

To let go or to hold on
I try not to decide now

And just let the wind
Drift me away

The flick of her hair
Dust in the wind
He saw from behind
The hidden tear
Where eyes meet
In the stars
That hide
In the sunlight sky
Where is earth
That Gravity tries to hold
We stand close
A distant time in between
You and I
Only feeling
Just dust in the wind

The night is young when I first saw him.
The roaring wind blinded my sight yet I could still picture his shadow.
What can I do to avoid this feeling?
What can I do to hide my emotions?
This is wrong yet I can not heed to what is right.
His love stalks my heart like it has none of its own.
His breath so cold I could feel it down my spine.
His lips red as apple is too hard to resist.
His sparkling blue eyes hypnotize my soul. T
he warmth of his body devours my whole being.
What can I do to take away this passion?
What can I do to not love him even when each breath of his is my life?
I cannot pull myself away from him.
What is this love that I’ve never felt before?
Who is he to make me want him badly?
I am losing my sanity each time I feel his touch though I feel complete happiness.
He has become my obsession, one that I cannot live without.
This forbidden love is killing me slowly.
Could a woman want a man so much in her life?
Is she willing to give up everything for a him?
Am I willing to lose it all for a love I am not sure of the worth?
How can this love be such enigmatic?
Why do I feel this blissful pain?
The night is young when I saw him.
The roaring wind blinded my sight yet my heart knew where to find him.
A love so wrong…
This love full of pain…
Where can it lead?
When my heart shatters… will he be there to save it?

Every Day
You look through me
With eyes that sparkle
Like the evening stars

Every Day
You look to me
To another person
To another eyes

Every Day
I look through you
Hoping to see
That you saw me

Every Day
There is a body
That separates us
From what is real

Every Day
I feel love
Building a stronghold
We could not keep

Every Day
I try to remember
The way the ocean danced
While you fell in love with me

Every Day
I go back
To everyday
With you

Three hundred sixty five days has passed
Still under the tree I wait
I would no more dare to ask
To myself that is fading away

When did the sky turn gray?
Or are my eyes simply losing it
A memory of each day
Slowly weakens a heartbeat

This is a battle
And it is your final last call
As to pieces I shatter
can you make it... before I fall

There is silence in our eyes

I see you in the darkness

Of your fading light

Make me believe

That fairies tell tales

Of magic and love

That conquers the world

Yet when time fades

And the earth breaks

Beneath our feet

Remember

I once told a fairy

to tell a tale

Of your heart

Even if

It is not paired

With mine.

I trace the butterflies
Flying inside your eyes
With the tip of my fingers
I start to remember

Once upon a time
In a faraway land
There lived a girl
Who danced with the butterflies

My hand starts to trace down
With the bunnies that hop
On the bridge of your nose
Like the ***** of a meadow

Mermaids swim gracefully
In the rivers of your lips
Waving back at me
With smiles sparkling like the stars

Drops of rain starts to fall
Where the butterflies fly
There I remember
The girl looking back at me

The fear won't surpass again
It has come to haunt the already lost souls
What more could be lost?
A sea of wonder lies ahead

Was time running out too fast?
Yet in this still moment
It lasts forever
The fear that will never leave

The heart hurts what the eyes could see
No trembling but only agony
Does the sun have to hide all the time
When all of the fears come out

The everlasting blankets of the sky
Seem to be blinded by the sorrows of the night
For what pains inside
Could not never be healed from the out

The footsteps kept replaying in my ear
As my heart starts to beat rapidly
Tears form out of fear
Afraid to be left behind again

Yet what is done is done
Those footsteps would not come back
They will always be a memory of leaving
A painful and agonizing experience

But in a moment where I am lost
I try to find his face
And maybe I can see him coming back to me
Those footsteps were not leaving but coming home

Time passes by still I am in the past
Lingering to find the lost
Yet the footsteps start to fade away
And his face starts to blur

Where will I find them
I don’t want them to leave
Like the footsteps that left
Don’t let its sound leave me too

Till finally I saw your face
And heard your footsteps
Yet as I stood in front of you
Like the wind, I was only passed by

And as I look at your shadow leaving
With the same footsteps leaving once again
Amidst it all I found calmness
And felt my hand waving goodbye

The shadow, the footsteps and his face
They always leave me
But this time they finally bid farewell
And I did so too

Trees faded in the wind
Your smile like the bloomed flower
Even the sun awakens
Even the rain cries

Our lines remotely connected
But in another place
I felt your pain
Through an abandoned room

Now I stand
With words like birds
Hopeful to reach
Your heart that is poached

Tears may never be enough
To lift the nail from the wood
Yet through every rip
Feel that He is there for you

The black and blues may invade
Yet hold on to the weapon of faith
Where mercy and grace is born
Through the Love that began it all

The skies may seem gray
In every waking day
Still walk on the road
That shines to the emerald paradise

Standing at the edge of the bridge
Wondering what lies at the other end of it
Wanting to take a step ahead
Yet it still isn't time, he said.

Every minute of a day just grows longer
My heart is always beating stronger
Waiting and always hoping
Can I ever stop falling?

The sun set and rose
Still, I'm waiting in the cold
Finally closing my eyes
Into the wind, I let myself fly

I was falling
Trying my best for someone to hear my calling
Tears were my only friend
Will it be so till the end?

Just when I had given up all hopes
A hand from above was thrown
And at one blink, he caught me
Jesus had held me finally

He had heard my call
And was only waiting to give up my all
"I will never let go," he said
Up until the end.

Sitting still under a sunny day
I could not help but notice your sad face
I held your hand
But it was not mine that you want

Seeing the pain in your eyes
Heal them I wanted to try
Though I know that I could not do
Tears of pain are in my eyes too

You once said that I was the perfect friend and never want to change
Yet in my heart I always hope it was not the same
All I could do was hold my feeling down
And hide the pain in my heart as it pounds

You cried as I held your hand
Though I know it will never be mine that you want
Your tears make the beat of my heart want to end
But I could always only comfort you as a friend

Sitting still under a sunny day
Without nothing to say
I held your hand
Hoping someday it will be the one you want

Days have passed silently
The heart aches silently
Does time really heal all the pain?
When through the way bumps are all that came
What is love?
Why can't the answer be none of the above?
Every hurt, tear and lie
Was it all that ever passes by?
We had that fire once
Now cold is all that counts
When can love be free?
When can I go back to thee?
Nights have flown quickly
The heart crushes slowly
Letting go is always the escaping track
Love can only hold back.

Your hand warm under my skin
I feel you like the sun's breath
Touching me on a winter day
As we sat against each other
Staring into each other's galactic eyes
We see a future
Where stars aligned starts to drift
Away from their places in the galaxy

I placed my hand against your heart
Feeling the drum beat beneath my nerves
Hearing a song that you never sang for me
I held back tears that felt like streams of water
Rushing against a current of memories
You are here
Beneath my skin aching every breath
When your eyes started to tell me

Goodbye.

When your eyes became the heart of the sun
And your hair shined bright like its rays
I remember you amidst every battle won
And your glory shone through your heart
I see each day passing by
Reliving your hand holding mine
Your laughter the only music I hear
Your love the only feeling I hold dear
When days are dark I will remember you
How you showed bravery and courage
Even amidst evil and death
I live each day
Without you by my side
But every passing morrow
I feel your love rising between the mountains
As the wind greets me hello
Your face I see within the clouds of the heavens
Because though my heart breaks every day
I am happy to have lived a life
Only loving you

The smile on his face
Seem to light up the room
Yet tears are all falling
That smile beneath the framed glass

Every drop
Of tear
Of pain
Is saying 'I miss you'

Gone too soon
Is there ever really a time
Only when that hand stretched out
You hold it and know it's time

Home
Is where he is
Right now
And forever

I am the other
Under the painted sky
Where I am invisible
Even in the rays of the sun

I am the other
That waits in the riverbanks
Scooping memories with my hands
And draw your feet walking behind me

I am the other
Dipping into your waters
And in the ripples of your memory
I begin to fade

I am the other
Who wishes upon the stars
To fly me to another world
Where you and I

Can no longer be the other.

The old lamp has yet not fade
Trying to reminisce that day
Sadness that cannot be measured
The sight of him only is just no pleasure
I want to go back and turn back time
Go back to the starting line
Wanting to not let you go
Craving to let you hold me close
Just being selfish a bit
Just wanting my heart to be fit
If only dreams could happen
If only memories would not end
I wanted to take your hand
But somewhere in me told me I never can
If only I followed my heart
If only I wasn't afraid to let anyone hurt
There would have been a me and you
Now there's nothing I can do.

Two strings of souls intertwined
Without being permitted by the mind
Destiny works its way
Making no chance to sway

Star crossed lives
Glancing in each other’s eyes
Knowing without knowing
Both hearts were aching

Her smile
Her laugh
Both seem of truth
Yet hide so many lies

For that one smile
Two strings of souls intertwined
Pain has shared its way
Without even giving a welcome

A light that sparked
A light that never started
Both held on to the same line
Without knowing how to let go

When the tide had already washed away
The light that long was faded

In the glimpse
Of our memory
You were there
With bright eyes
Like the moon
That revolved us
Into a world
Of fantasy dreams
Where you are
And I am
Like two lovers
With hands reaching
As worlds part
I remember you
Like the sun
Trying to rise
Amidst golden sky
Where you are
And I am
Will always be
In the glimpse
Of our memory

The light shadowed the fear in my eyes
A hope that within my heart lies
Still I stand before you
Wishing you could see me too
Yet every time I do
You never take the bother to look
Tears that begged to be evaded
The spark just ended
Realizing that you'll never look my way
Still I hope for a someday
That two eyes will meet
And make the impossible be.

The clouds turned grey today
Was it going to rain?
The cool wind started to blow against me
As I sat on the soft sand looking out to the sea
The waves gave me a memory
Back in the time where my heart fluttered for him
Where every color seems so bright
And his face was the one that gave light
Yet the cool wind started to grew colder
Giving a warning that everything is to be over
Is it already raining?
Or are my tears falling?
It hurts
To hear him say those words
My world fell apart
And felt like a knife stab my heart
The sea seems so far away from where I sat
Like taking away all I had
I could only sit still and watch everything leave
Though I wanted to scream
My mouth felt like it had sewn itself up
And could only wish for the last teardrop
I wanted the tears to dry away
Because maybe it might lessen the pain
I wanted to closed my eyes
And imagine everything is a lie
That everything is only in my dreams
And when I wake up everything would change the way I feel
But my eyes would not close
It held on to that sorrowful sight
He walked away
Again and again it replayed
I could not move
As the wind tried to
My heart started to feel hard
As it slowly broke apart
Still I sat still like nothing happened
As all the pain I swallowed
Til nothing could hurt anymore than what I already feel inside
And no one to confide
This is the fact of life
That with every pain we wish for lies
The clouds turned grey today
It is going to rain.

From afar
I recognize
That familiar face

The blurry contacts
that hindered my sight
Let me think it was you

I got nervous in an instant
Not knowing what to do
My heart started beating fast

Yet with only footsteps away
I froze in silence
Like time had stopped

My heart fell
It was relieved
Yet also broken

It wasn't you
Til this time
It was never you

Raindrops glide gently on the window
My heart starts to beat slow
Staring at the unknown
I wish to be home

The skies cry bitterly
Land takes the tears painfully
The trees try to hold on
Yet nothing seems enough to be strong

Tracing the falling raindrop
Why has life been a trap?
When closing your eyes to ease the pain
Can never bring back the slain

The skies remain gray
Filled with all the pain
In bed I lay
Wishing for someone to stay.

Let me go
Our beats pressed
Into a single tune
Help me
Dance in the light
Find me
Within the shadows
Of your memory
I see your love
Hanging on
A single line
Letting me go

The ripples in the water
Your hand dips into it
I look beside me
You're not there

I welcome nightmares
Like the sunlight in day
There I see your face
Losing light in your eyes

Tomorrow is a dreadful friend
Each time he takes away
Something of you
Something of memory

Your smell
Your smile
Your touch
Your love

I don't want to forget
Let the rain fall
Let the skies darken
Just don't make me forget

Let the water ripple in my heart
Let your hand dip into its depths again
Just don't make me forget
Just don't make me forget

He passed by
Like the blow
Of the wind
That only ever
Passed by

Promises broken
Hearts shattered
Could there be more?
I kept silent
And dare not wonder

The music
Slowly fades
Away with the wind
Where no one can hear
Not even your heart

Would you stay
If I begged
With tears
That only
Fall for you

Turned away
My heart broke
Like a thousand
Bubbles that popped
I have gone

The strings of your music
Entangled with the vines of my heart
As the moon shines bright tonight
I wished for rain to make tears in my eyes

The waves sing a song
The wind whispers a secret
Even the birds could cry
Why cannot I?

Droplets of salty water
Are they not the same
As the sea water that sheds in my face
A million more tears for you

Your footsteps dance on the strings of music
Entangling with the vines of my heart
Upon the bright moon tonight
I wished for real tears to cry

The sun sets in the horizon of his eyes
We met at a time of war and love
Though these empty hearts were filled with lies
He and I rose above
Where our hearts alike
Free beings flee like doves
Our souls forever intertwined
In another world
He is always mine

The city that lies beyond the sunrise
For a split second
Like love it was beautiful
Only to have it gone the next

A place of dreams
Treasured forever
In a box of memories
Only to be faded away by pain

A drop of tear
Into the waters of eternity
Forever painful
Forever gone

The city that lies beyond the sunrise
Even for a split second
Take the pain
And leave love behind

The trees danced gracefully with the wind
I could feel the emotion it gives
The sweet kiss of the morning's dew
Reminds me of my memories with you
The picturesque of the skies gives everyone a smile
Yet for me it is sorrow making worthwhile
The songs of the mid-day birds ring a bell
It was the pain I never wanted to tell
The mingling bodies of flowers in the garden tells a tale
It was you and I under lover's cave
Yet the fairytale of our love ended too soon
Falling too deep made me like a fool
The breaking of the dawn revealed it all
Our love was a lie when you made the call
The sunset has yet again ended the day
But the pain I feel still remain
Though now I know what our love is like
It is when darkness collides with light.

Each day I hear the bounce of the ball
For a long time, only know do I realize it was the call
The silhouette of your form within the trees
Never knew how my heart feels at ease

The beating gets faster
As the ball bounces higher
My heart raced so fast
That I wanted it to last

Maybe one day our glances will meet
But for now from afar your face I will keep
Your every cry, smile and depression
I will keep until the confession

This mysterious feeling of the heart
From you will never depart
Till the day it lets go
Even when this heart of mine you may never know.

He held my face and lingered
Eyes like the stormy seas
As if I could see into the world
Where he and I are free
And the sky lit up with clouds
Where love overcomes death
His face unfaded like the sun
For what is lost are only feelings
Moved by the wind unsung

Being numb.
It is possible after all.
To feel numb.

After all those years, tears dry up and though fear still remains.
Not all of it anymore.
There's just stillness. Numbness.

You try to care. Meaningless.
Whatever happened?
I wanted to know too.

Maybe.
It has already reached an end.
Years ago.

We're just trying too hard.
To hold on.
To pretend.

When nothing's there.
Anymore.
To hold.

Outside
There is the wind
Flowing
Like droplets
Of water
I see you
In the midst
Of the forest
I never knew
Amidst the jungle
Of forever
You hold me
Close enough
To break
Every pain
To erase
Every scar
To love
Eternally

There are memories that are wrapped in tears
With fear, I fall in love again
There's nothing I hear or speak
Looking into your eyes
The love begins again

You are a light
That touches my heart
There is no other that can make such wonder in me
You are a star that I cannot reach
But with love I will cross that border
Nobody looks at me the way you do
Only you
There is only you

Your kiss withholds the truth
There are moments that are kept inside
And even though you push them away they never go
There are instances like ours
That becomes magic
Looking into your eyes
The love begins again


Nobody loves me the way you do
Only you
There is only you.

When rebels and hearts collide
You and I stand between
Holding on to a world
Where it was meant to be letting go

Swords rain down on us
Driving us apart
Hearts tearing up to pieces
We always ask to survive

Was love not enough?
Like the stars that appear
In the darkness of a sky
Would we be enough?

Let the rain fall
As hard as rocks on the road
Let it pour on us
We wont back down today

Love is enough
When you fist your heart
To fight back hard
With every single thing

Let's hold on
To world that wants us to let go
Let's stand between them
And together form our own world

The footsteps of the rain
Come in silence
With wind like feathers
The only comfort

The coldness of the crowd
Where tears are forbidden
Kept locked in another door
I can only smile in aching

Outside
The wind blows
To my companion
It is the only one

Those points of light
Sinking through our souls
When one night
Is not enough

Maybe it was a word
Unspoken by chance
Hidden among trees
That grow like the giants

Where you and I meet
There are stars born
In the sky
That burn even in daylight

Where points of light
Become entwined with our souls
That even if time separates
Our memory will linger

Apart from falling can there be anything worse
The day has begun to seem night
Every sight the evil pleasure
Where has the light gone

A stampede of thoughts
Confused, helpless and scared
The time is ticking too fast
Yet the will does not seem to move past

Why have you come, old
This feeling oh so good yet surely so wrong
What pill, drug or cure can be attained
Tell or forever be ******

The evil that is fought
Seems to never be weakened
Unless something comes in between
Yet what may arrive

Hate and love that marries each other
Bore an offspring that is prepared to destroy
Yet also feels compassion to healing
Where shall the good be placed

A thousand pleas
Destroy the evil within
A million prayers
Heal the wounds forever

Sun dust
Come for me
In the between
You rise amidst
The darkness befell
Remember me
Anyway.