Well I don't really know what to think at this moment. You say you guys have problems and then all of a sudden you guys are deep in love.... You told me you had a ******* about me so randomly just so you can get it off your chest and that you don't know what it meant but that it was just random.... then you ask me to go to formal with you when your girlfriend denied you and got into an argument with you. Am I just always gonna be the second choice? Am I just gonna be the one you go to when you feel upset because of her?
If she makes you feel that bad why not be over but soon after you guys are just ..fine. Don't you think that's a little toxic. My friends say you like me but I don't want you too which is strange since you are my crush.. I don't know how to feel anymore. You make it seem like I shouldn't like you because of the way you are with me but with her...it should be concerning if you do that to me if we do become a couple and you get depressed. Then we are going to dance together as if we should ignore the way we are together so you can be with her and me and you can be friends...But I want to know how you feel about the whole situation..Do you like me? Do you love her? You're with her yet you do this and say that with me! I just don't get you anymore..

Choose me, when you’re drunk
when you’re confused
Choose me, when she’s not around
when she’s not kissing you
Choose me, i’m your always
an always second option
an always second best
Choose me, i’ll be happy
i guess second choice is not that bad

Behind Closed Doors

You,me a room; closed doors.
Sweat and heavy breaths.
Clothes on the floor.

Text messages daily.
***** pictures.
But don't you dare show me any affection in a public setting;
Treat me like your mistress.

What was the excuse? A racial barrier.
I would never give you an ultimatum. I know I'd loose.
I keep forgetting that I'm just second option to you.

I'm your stress release.
Your experimentation.
We both know that unlike me she has limitations.

I ask now how I could move up and switch ranks.
Should I request an interview, or do I not stand a chance.
I'm just so sick of being your second option.

Had I known
That I would miss him this much
I wouldn't have left

Had I known
That it would hurt this much
I wouldn't have let him go

Had I known
That I would fall for him this much
I wouldn't have started loving him


But the truth is I have known

I have known all along
I knew so well

I knew I would miss him so much
But I needed to leave
'Coz I knew that it was wrong for me to be with him
I knew it would hurt me so much

But I needed to let him go
'Coz I knew that he was not mine to begin with

I knew that if I would fall, I'll fall so deep
But still I let myself fall
Hoping that he would catch me

But he didn't

He was already at someone else's embrace when I started falling

The fall hurt
It hurts so much
It left my heart shattered into pieces

But what hurts more is
Knowing that I am still clinging to those shattered pieces
Hoping you'd want it.