Because I'm not
Honestly, I'm sort of glad.
I'm just saying
We all make mistakes
And you made a huge one
And maybe I shouldn't have been so blunt
Maybe I should have been nicer about it
But you should've been too
I just wanted to say
I don't hate you
I'm just not your friend
And that was inevitable
So I wrote this
Just to tell you
I'm not saying I'm sorry,
That would be a lie
I just wish it didn't have to be so harsh

The stars lean down to kiss you and I lie awake and miss you. Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere. The silence isn't so bad until I look at my hands and feel sad. 'Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.

~I am She
She is dreaming. She is cold.
Her heart is that for no one to hold.
She doesn't want love. She doesn't want marriage.
Maybe she wants to stop her lifelong heritage.
Maybe she does not want you to come back.
Maybe that's true. Possibly, it's not.
And the more love she gave, the more she got.
The more love she wanted, the more love she invested,
She found you, in which her love, you tested.
A good friend told me,
The careless,
Once cared too much.
Maybe that's her. Careless because of caring.
The heartless,
Had their heart destroyed.
The painless,
Went numb.
The blind,
Once saw too much good.
She,
You left her. She cried.
Where did her heart go?
Where does it hide?
Oh, silly me,
It recently died.
She does not want love,
You spent,
Good words,
On her heart.
Then you,
Yourself,
Depart.
If love makes a heart grow,
Hate makes it slow,
So always remember,
Before you leave, let your lover know,
That it is time for you to go.
'Cause I don't want love or marriage.
I want adventure.
I want the run.
I want to dance,
Along.
I want to kiss,
My heart goodbye.
And I want you to know why,
The heartless,
Once had their heart destroyed.
And the lovers,
Still don't know.
When it is time,
For me to go.
As I said before,
I am dying,
But hey, what's good is,
I'm not trying,
To find love.
Before flying.~

On blood pressure. I think people underestimate it. It's most likely going to be the end of me. ~

~Rose, don't go Rose! You promised not to let go! You promised!~

I passed out,
While running.
I blacked out,
While trying.
I fell to the ground,
While dying.
I was sent to the nurse,
While sighing,
I was given a serious look,
While taking my blood pressure.

"It's so low I'm not picking up anything."
While suffering,
My heart struggling,
My legs weak,
My heart burning,
My head ached,
My face was burning,
My fate was turning,
Low blood pressure happened to me?
While dying.

~Shape shifting into a new me,
Perfectionalist is all for you.
Valentine, never depart.
The song we sing holds our memories.

Cancer crisis, different view,
The world forgot who I am to you.
Moment to moment, unexplanatory feelings.
Choose our destiny, and choose it carefully.

The beauty of undying faith,
Corageous in colors new.
The world forgot who I am with you.
Loving pain, destroying life,
The days of sorrowful strife.

Mend the pains, wash away,
Sickness and crisis in every way.
Hold time back, make it longer,
The days he has when he is stronger.

Undying faith, do not fail me,
Future, present and all of history.
Undying faith, do not let me down,
My royalty lies with his crown.

Help me, faith, not to love anyone else,
Close my mind, shut me down, abandon all.
Don't you dare let me fall if he goes.
Make me strong, as strong as him.

Red bands, hospitals, emergency rooms.
Sending my future in flames to fumes.
Undying faith, where do I cry?
Maybe never, so tell my why.

Why do you do this to me?
Why oh why?
I am not mad, just a little confused,
From the days I've been beaten and abused.

Undying faith, do not fail me,
Future, present and all of history.
Undying faith, do not let me down,
My royalty lies with his crown.

Help me, hold me, keep me strong.
Remind me it is with him I belong.
Oh, hold me, keep me strong.
Does anyone understand my song?

Death is his worst enemy,
For me, my worst is not dying with him.
Undying faith, if he goes, don't let me!
I am on knees to all of your mercy.

Undying faith lives in my heart.
It is where it goes that tears me apart.
Carry on, my world, forgetting Magicath,
Don't just assume we will ever cross paths.

Undying faith, do not fail me,
Future, present and all of history.
Undying faith, do not let me down,
My royalty lies with his crown.

Lead me, guide me, close my heart,
Like a door that's locked, never to open.
Locked forever, kept away, secretly hidden
In my soul for him.

Please help me, please hold me, please keep me strong,
If in this sick world it all goes wrong.
Even if he doesn't leave Earth, which he won't,
Don't let me fall for another, please, just DON'T.

Help my heart stay all for him,
God, that'll be hard, as I was made to love.
Or rather, was I made to love?
Or made for him?
I don't think the world will ever know,
My heart is telling me yes, you are telling me no.

Undying, undying, undying faith,
Is the reader asking, Who Are You?
Undying faith is all I have left,
If something goes wrong and I have to stay strong.
The day has come, no, it must be a mistake,
You drag me as I hear the morbid news.
Shrinking, hulking, beast is me,
For who I am for all of eternity.

My heart sinks, drowns and shatters.
Almost as if nothing else matters.
Or maybe it doesn't.
Just whatever happens, help me keep my vow,
To love him absolutely forever, especially now.

He's slipping away from me,
Time passes too slowly,
And quickly at the same time.
I'm melting, sobbing,
Looking for someone to mend my heart.
And by then it's too late,
I will have wanted someone else.

Dying, dying faith, you have failed me
In the Future, present and history.
Dying faith, you let me down.
As I fell in love with a faulty crown.

It hasn't happened yet, so don't let it.
Undying faith, don't put me in a dark pit.
Save the love so it shall never fall,
And be there to resue me when I call.

Oh, dear Magicath, don't let me forget,
Don't let me forget who we are together.~

Ice cold grips
locked in a stand still
and I can't see you

Angry tears is all you think of
and that is all you have noticed
but that is not what I've known,
for pain cannot be masked that way.

I have seen you, running,
and you are blinded by the
unknown
and that is the scariest thing.

Not for you, or me,
but rather,
us.

Hot touches,
flames consuming quickly,
too quickly to be quenched by
all that you are.

Hidden beauty
and your warm eyes burn silver
and
it is too easy to melt into your mercury.

What have you found since then?

Just a burning grasp of what could be,
carbon dioxide turned to gold,
but I'm still near.

Never far behind, they say,
but that is the truth,
for you are simply what I have imagined,

one of the best,
unrecognized by your own.