I could have kissed you in the car on the way to her house.
With the wind in my hair and the laugher in your eyes and It would have been so mind blowing and absolutely destructive

I could have kissed you in the park
While you were on the bench deciding what to do with me and I was pacing through the mud
Weighing my options like lead in my chest

I could have kissed you standing in your garage
Face to face in a competition
To see who would look away first. In front of all those people; in front of her and It would have been so terribly reckless and wonderfully stupid

But I often kiss you at your desk in biology two where we share a row separated by seas and planets and constellations that no one has seen before; four feet of endless distance.

It's the only place thats safe to lay my lips on yours because outside of my mind you have her. So I can't kiss you now.

I can't kiss you now.

It cuts me deep and to the quick
To think that you had fun with it
When all the while it was my own
My heart you played with, not a stone.

Cross my heart, I hope I'll die
I try to look you in the eye
I do not love you anymore
And I may break the oath I swore.

You said that you'd do
whatever it takes,
But all that it took
just made my heart break.

I was everything
To you, I'm sorry I'm not
Anymore. Truly.

I jumped real ******* concrete
I guess that wasn't the best
Now all my insides feel jammed together
I just want to go home and rest.