Tonight I lie awake,
My brain is feeding my latest mistakes.
I can't help but wonder why I wasn't enough,
I gave every ounce of myself and I tried to be tough.
I thought if I could just make you see the things I loved about myself that you would love them too.
You said you would,
that you did but you painted my most beautiful pieces blue.
You painted them an ugly shade,
You made them dark but still started to complain when they began to fade.
If you didn't want me I would've preferred that you didn't play pretend with me.
I'm not a young child and I was never very good at the game either, see.
Its incomprehensible as to why you felt the need to destroy me, to take me down along with everything in your path.
I stood there with open arms, with warm inviting touches, with passion for your mind and you met such things with wrath.
Any time, you could have walked away.
You could've spared me however you chose to stay.
So as dearly as you were held in my heart I'm rebuilding my self now that you've burned me to ashes.
So as dearly as you were held in my heart its just a matter of time before the salt dries to my lashes.
I was enough,
I was enough even you were not.
I was tough,
This is where a toxic love like ours should rot.

In the back of my brain,
maybe one day in the back of yours.
I hope one day you realize when you've become tame,
that it is impolite to cut someone's heart and leave open sores.