I wish Ebola  number seven before six
and erase you from this  life box
Because AIDs tried but you are still smiling
I wish you to test an airplane crash
and transform you into ash
Because car accidents  tried but you are still walking

I wish you to face millions academic ills
and makes you to dodge new skills    
Because poverty tried but you are still excelling
I wish you to be  completely barren
And all men  to abandon your nation  
Because miscarry tried but you are still
Trading

I wish devil to come direct to you dear
And destroy your life beyond repair
Because I tried all dark ways but you are still dancing
I wish your friends and relative to turn
there backs on you
And pay no attention to you
Because  I wish you nothing but
dark-siding

you have always been half a world away
but now my heart is only breaking more
i don't know if you're really gone
but your silence only lengthens this war

even though you never knew it
you helped fight the demons in my mind
just the thought of you leaving me
erases all hope i could ever think to find

i honestly can't say that i'm surprised
i always knew that one day you'd leave me
but i still don't want to believe it's true
because my heart still says that it can't be

i didn't even know that i could break more
but i guess that's what you do
you poison and destroy
then leave when it's convenient for you

even though you've ruined me forever
to me, love was never a lie
and there is no way that i could ever say
goodbye

I should have known.
I thought I was maybe.. special?
What gives me the right to be special?
I am no better than anyone I ever thought
I was.