my heart is tucked away
under the floorboards
in the back of your brain.

out of sight,
out of mind.

because you couldn't look me in the eye.

but i still haunt you,
don't i?

do you hear me?
does the sound of me
remind you?
does the guilt follow you?

am I driving you insane?
do i make you want to scream?

are you going to confess your sin?

will you tell anyone of the crime
you know you committed?

is my heart beating loud enough
for you to peel back the floorboards once more,
and find the pieces of me,
torn apart by you?

my ol' hobby
smoking you in
harming my kin
takin the pill
going in all out for the ****

you're white and yellow
sore and mellow
you give out gray
you're my demise they say
make me gay

you make my lungs hurt
but smoking you in makes me feel like kurt
holding the guitar
smoking a cigarette

I am the Light,

creation’s full breadth,
a spring breeze,
a blooming flower,
a selfless giver,
full of dreams
and a naive hope.

I am the Dark,

stagnation’s great champion,
a dying star,
a shambling corpse,
a perpetual sleeper,
full of dreams
and a ragged guilt.

i am these Two–
and I am one more.

oh please,
let me shine,
please let me–
it's cold,
i’m drowning,
please remember,
please don’t forget,
please don’t–
please–

oh please,
make it stop,
please stop it–
it’s bright,
i’m burning,
I need peace,
please be quiet,
please leave–
please–

please save me.

i am Tormented.

We all live surrounded by sound,
But there are exceptions to be found,
Some folks are lucky, some are not,
Fate truly is a one big knot,

I can't believe the luck I've had,
Now searching on the internet,
I'm searching for a single clue,
How I can turn your world from blue,

Still searching deeply on my screen,
I want to turn your world all green,
Now finally an answer found,
There is no need for any sound,

I know a way to make you smile,
But it may really take a while,
How I should learn, how I should tell,
Got to say I really fell,

I fell for you, there is no lie,
It's not a lie, so tell me why,
I still can't tell you how I feel,
When all my feelings they are real,

I'd really love to learn to sign,
Truly I wish that you'd be mine,
Once I can sign, then I can speak,
All about what makes me weak,

Finally my feelings heard,
Oh, it's all just a bit absurd,
I'd sign you all the things I meant,
I wish I'd know just where you went,

Now I know sign, but I am lost,
I lost what I have loved the most,
So tell me if, oh tell me how,
Should I still live or die right now,

I wish to know just where you've gone,
I've searched for you from dusk till dawn,
And yet your body was not found,
If only then I was around,

If I were there that fateful day,
Was that truly the only way,
You could be saved, you would have lived,
I'm filled with guilt, an endless rift,

Please forgive, what others can't,
I pray for you, I send a chant,
I'm so sorry for your pain,
Forever guilty bind in chain

He gave her everything, or so it seemed,
Love poured out like rivers in the quiet stream.
But now she only recalls the storms, the rain,
As if all he ever brought was pain.

He wonders if she sees the man he became,
Or if she’s blinded by the ghosts of blame.
Mistakes, he admits, he made his share,
Yet he changed, but she acts like he’s still there.

She tells the world of her heart’s disdain,
Of memories that still cause her pain.
But what of the moments he held her close,
Of the love that endured when she needed it most?

She paints him in shades of darkness and strife,
As if he never added light to her life.
All the wrongs she remembers, clear and stark,
But what of the times he mended her heart?

He forgave the wounds she left behind,
The scars she carved, the battles unkind.
But now she turns, with anger so deep,
And casts him away, into shadows she keeps.

Perhaps it’s easier for her to forget,
The love, the kindness, the times they met.
For all that remains in her mind’s twisted maze,
Is the version of him that she couldn’t erase.