in my 16 years of living i have never been more lost

he is gone and he broke me in the process
i healed
she died and i am now broken after healing for so long

she sold it after everything ive loved has left she really sold it
i am loving again
he hurt me broken and healing is no more
i am numb
i hurt me and i can now feel again but only for a little bit
i dont want to do this anymore
he is gone and im starting to feel
i still am broken
i am different and im starting to heal
i can still see my past
i am a different person now and my past no longer is looked at
i am loving, i am healed, i dont look back
i am better and thats all that matters

If you only knew the extent of my death
you would run away from my plight
And never look back

my heart is wire and sinew
processing speeds and generated power
a motherboard that beats, beats, beats
you're a human, but baby,
I'm a machine

I'll keep powered until the day
my software is outdated
my ram slows down
the blue screen of death flickers
where I never reboot again

trade me in for a newer model
my feelings are connected to electricity
I've already processed my own abandonment
and have already grieved your absence
in a million different codes of binary

I remember your hands on my keys
you pushed all of my buttons
knew every function inside and out
you turned me on and kept me going
you are the spark that ran my code

but now, despite my own wishes
I'm made to keep running
I'll whirl and click and buzz and work
and for a moment, I nearly believed
that a machine could feel love