meet me in the morning.
tell me this is real,
old friend.

ruins.
fallen old bricks just like people.
like the reincarnation of a dead boy
into a living boy.
zombie johnny.
bought and paid for,
brujería.

naked son &
jungle stone heads.
in the olmec valley
is the lizard and the spirit and the pupae.
particle cellular fabrication/ or retrogenesis from within
a million points of light.
skeleton witch.

& with eclipse
he is the night.
he is the city skull and steel.
an electro-flesh apparition, bloodletting the living for fun
&/or nostalgia.

some ghosts desire vengeance.
some ghosts luminate from the dark,
& emerge as a needle of near perfect retribution.

the riches and gems and towering
years later.
the families of men who buried johnny moon alive
in a box in mexico.
death to them.
like retro-teen laughs in the horror movie exploratorium.
rituals.

Surprise surprise what can I say?
My life is rolling all over again
I cannot pretend it's not déjà vu
It must be the soul I cannot sustain
It's like a curse was put in my way
Inside a gift was dipped in some pain
For mercy, I beg you to help me my Lord
Don't let me inhale my memories again

I tell you I love you
I tell you I hate you
But you always see right through me
You always know what Im feeling
I cannot hide from you
Everytime you look into my eyes all I want to do is kiss you
Your love is like a drug to me
Im trying to understand what you fell about me
But I cant seem to read your thoughts its all blank
If you wont be honest with me then I will be honest with you
When I say I love you I dont say it out of habit to make conversation
I say it to tell you that you are the best thing that ever happened to me
Please tell me that you love me back please Im begging you

Every time  I close my eyes you always come to mind
I try so hard to not think of you
I try over and over but i cant break loose from you
I m not saying that i think of you constantly, but i just cant deny the fact  that
every time my  mind wonders it always finds a way right back to you  
You are the first thing on my mind when i wake up and the last thing   when i go to sleep
I think of you every time I close my eyes I dont know what it is about you that makes me feel the way I do
Why am I stuck on you why cant i break free why

Where did  you get your clothes from, the dollar store
What do they do to their hair when it itches.
Do you know that there is a place called the beauty salon?
There is nothing worse but seeing my friend pat her weave
They stink more than ****
What's up with the hair
If you need help all you need to do is ask!!

I don't judge people by their mistakes and imperfections. I've
got my own scars.
Everyone will face something at one point
that will change them for life.
Never judge people for being depressed. Never.
Everyone faces a battle that you may know nothing about.
Never judge people for what is only skin deep.
The most broken people tend to love the most.
Don't focus on their imperfections. Don't focus on trying
to fix their mistakes. Focus on loving them.
Focus on trying to help them love themselves.
Teach them.
Demons aren't always visible from the outside.
Their demons are burrowed in their soul.
They are hidden.
Very few will completely understand how it feels.
Don't judge people for the cracks in their personality.
Their cracks show how many times they were under pressure,
and didn't completely shatter.

No matter what you say or do,
Someone out there cares for you.
No matter how you look or feel,
Someone wants to help you heal.
Someone wants to heal your scars,
Keep you warm wrapped, in their arms.
No matter what you think or say,
In their heart you'll forever stay.
Someone wants to hold you tight,
Someone loves your smile bright.
Someone wants to care for you,
And teach you words like I love you.

I have to lie.
Keep it inside.
This is my life,
I refuse to die.

The pain I feel,
It isn't real.
Learn to heal,
Skip a meal.

Hide my demon,
Fight for freedom,
My own Eden,
Refuse to weaken.

Hold it in,
Force a grin.
Raise my chin,
Fight to win.

Resist the screams.
Believe in dreams.
Rip the seam,
My own team.

I learned to fly,
With broken wings.
With a stolen voice,
I learned to sing.
I learned to live,
With a broken heart.
With a broken mind,
I learned to think.