your soul
is like a vine    
that has                  
twisted                        
itself            
  around
                my heart
                               so many times            
that I can't even
        say how I feel                                    
   anymore                                
and even if            
        I could express
                   my feelings    
       in one
cogent
form      
I have to      
     ask myself
                     what kind of fruit      
                            this union would bring forth

The moment someone knows me
The moment someone sees
I exist
I am present
I am back to being me

And so I go where noone knows me
To where I'm openly not seen
To not exist for a few hours
Is such a blessing
Not to be

beach at sunset
sands i've only seen
through pictures
you gave her my dream

it hurts
but there's no benefit to being bitter
part of me is happy
that you're happy with her

just can't get over the fact
you had to give her the exact thing
you could never
promise to me