The tattoo on your shoulder

I have the feeling that I should apologize but for what ?
I was looking to run away to **** all my emotions and for that I need to hurt people so it can reach me and hurt me so badly that I can reborn.
In a way I am sorry in an other I don’t know ... did I even do that for me or for you? I rarely do emotional things for me.

What if you had told me: “let’a be friends” instead of: “help me and go **** yourself”. I wish I could have do better but I did not know how to do better so I do what I always do, I run away.

Now I can just hope you are fine and tell you I will never stop thinking “this is not over”.

You told me you will haunt me and you succeed. It’s like being sure it’s not over making everything to stop thinking and **** anything that’s left in you so it kills me.

In my dreams, we meet like in the song of Chainsmokers where I bite the tattoo on your shoulder and you have aged so well and nothing has been killed even if I tried my best to destroy anything I felt everything I feel.