I try to count my breaths again
as my throat begins to close-
my eyes become a shade of haze
that is now so familiar to me.
I try not to break again
keep my feet firmly planted
in a place where I can stand up straight
but these knees are weak
and I keep falling over myself.
The breaths I take become shorter
the senses around me wither in number
and the only thing I hold focus on
is the fact I can't breath anymore.
I want to make it stop
the tightening of my esophagus
and the revenge my stomach
has been plotting against me
for what seems like a while now.
The bile hits my lips
a victim to the toilet-
to the images in my mind
that begin to mimic my every fear.
My head is prison get me out of here-
but all I keep feeling is the lack of oxygen
and all that I see is this morning's breakfast.
Repetition isn't always such a good thing
you can find it in more than just my poetry-
you can find it in my memory.
Hollow me out and put someone else inside
this body holds too much destruction
that I no longer want to be the cause of.
Blueprints have become of me-
etched inside this skin
I seek refuge in.
I have mapped out ways
to make myself feel better
but they're only just an outline.
Just an idea I get before everything
becomes too wrecking ball
and not enough rebuild.
These walls are tainted now
you couldn't keep the spray paint away
and this building is nothing like the blueprints.
I am just the wreckage-
not anything like what comes after.
My structure is flawed
and the only way to fix me
is to destroy and rebuild-
and I've already done most of the destroying.
I take another breath
it feels like my lungs are in need of more
in need of something I can't give to them.
They give me life and I cannot return the favor
so I choke on the guilt of the games my mind plays.
It seems I'm not the only one suffering-
so silence has become my only savior.
Everything is fine on the outside
but the structure is flawed
and it's about to crumble soon.
If I were built right in the first place-
I wouldn't be so easy to break.

In the highs and lows of life
In the ups and downs of life
In the joys and sorrows of life
In the happiness and sadness of life
In all the different moods, moments and spheres of life
Always make it a point to live life in the present with present moment of time.

Never has it happened in the present,
nor will be happen in the future.
Every moment in life that comes upon has got it's own life for quite sometime till the point in time comes when it passes away.
A moment in time that has gone, is gone,
it won't come back again.
Never has it happened in the present,
nor will be happen again in the future.

Thus every moment in life comes with a purpose.

Each moment in life has got it’s own importance,
it’s own value,
it’s own significance.

Always it’s important to understand, realize and accept the importance of every moment in life.

As easy as it may seem to be,
the easiest thing in life is to do something in haste,
in a rush of blood.

By doing so,
if it solves a problem,
then it’s well and good,
if not,
then the struggle continues.

Still even if it brings a solution to a problem,
it still remains good proposition.

The only thing that remains of concern when doing something in a rush of blood is that it can also mark the arrival of a disaster,
even if you know neither it can be averted,
nor can it be reversed.

So better keep moving at the right pace with the present moment in time
Keep a track of how things shape
Better to be more concerned about the present than that of future
Things change,
sometimes something good might happen.

Things change,
sometimes something unexpected might happen,
but then that’s life.

Hence it’s always important to keep in mind, to remember
Always take one step at a time.

Do things which you like,
rather than doing something just for the sake of doing it.

Never run away from the obstacles of life
They are a part of your life and part of the game
So face them,
learn something new in the process of solving them.

A day will come when a sense of satisfaction will occupy a place in your mind and also in your life.

Till then, it always give it a try,
try again.
Try, try and you will win.

Till the perfect moment in life comes when there is a sense of satisfaction that comes to mind till then,
it’s life and life continues.

In the highs and lows of life
In the ups and downs of life
In the joys and sorrows of life
In the happiness and sadness of life
In all the different moods, moments and spheres of life
Live life in the present with present moment of time.

Let the things in the present remain as they are
Let everything remain as it is
Live life in the present with the present moment in time
Let it be as it is.

The day starts
The day passes by
The next day comes
Very soon even it will become a thing of past
Life continues
Time does not stop.

Let it be as it is
Let the things in the present remain as they are.

Think about the past, present and also about future only when needed,
otherwise no need to ascertain the future.
Time spent in discussing the worries about future is not going to come back, neither will discussion solve any problems of the present.
Definitely an act towards getting something definite done will sort out the things.

Let it be as it is
Let the things in the present remain as they are.

Never wait for the moment in time when something in particular will happen so as for the things to take shape.
Never depend entirely on any one particular aspect, element, factor or thing.
Time moves, time runs, time flies
Time and tide waits for none.
Still efforts are always made to save time so as to get and gain more time in the future.  
It's always a race against time.

Let it be
Let the thing of past remain in the past.
Continue with what you have got in the present.

Mistakes from the past and worries about future knock upon the door as and when a peaceful moment in life is found to live upon.
Never did it mean to live life in the past,
nor did it mean to live a life with regards to worries about the future.

Since life continues with the present moment in time,
it's always better to live life in the present.
Participate in what you know you are the best,
later improve and improvise in where you are lacking.

Never was it possible for anyone to climb the ladder of success without making any effort.
Remember efforts never go wasted,
focus needs to be maintained and the same must be kept intact.

Obstacles and failures are part of life,
so never compromise,
nor negotiate with neither obstacles and nor failures.
Learn lessons while tackling them.

Once the right moment in time comes in sight,
strike upon the same.
Definitely you will strike gold when you strike upon the right moment in time.

Let it be
Live life in the present with the present moment in time.
Make the best use of the present moment in time by giving your best in the present.