I thought I was the only
Heartbroken

Then I found so many
here on hello poetry

I am mean when
I say I am happy
I am not the only one
In pain

And when I read the poems here
The pain resurfaces
Submerges
Dissolves
Disappears
Reappears

Some words
Some hurting
Some disturbing
Some comforting..

Everyone trying
To get rid of the pain..
The unbearable stupid pain..

I love you

I love you with all my heart and soul

But do I love you enough to let you go?

Today I tried.
I woke up,
Rolled out of bed,
And I tried not to feel like all of gravity was resting in my heart.
I tried not to think of you,
Tried not to cry,
Tried not to cringe everytime someone mentioned you.

But I did think of you,
And I cried,
And I felt every wound you ever left behind.
I...
Can't explain.
How does one describe what It feels like to be ripped apart,
And put back together,
With almost every piece in the wrong place,
And some missing.

How do I describe,
How it feels to live without you?
Or with you.

i wish i was a dolphin if only for a day
with his spirit free as he begins to play
swimming in the ocean having lots of fun
in the sea so blue underneath the sun.

making people happy with my cheeky smile
i wish i was a dolphin if only for a while

I heard your name in her voice today
I saw your hair sweep corners of my face as you moved your way down my neck inching closer to every insecurity I could possibly lay out for you at once
I see your freckles dance on every other porcelain face I've ever had the pleasure to meet a little piece of you in
I drown in every ocean I go near just to spit your name out and cough up every I love you I've ever heard like its poison on the tip of my tongue
I heard your name in her voice today and I kissed every reminder of you off of her and on to me as if that could bring you back

Lia.
My sweet Lia,
Like a flower that blooms in springs;
Loving you at first sight is not my intention,
But the way you calm my soul soothes my broken heart,
I don't know how and when but falling for you is the greatest thing I've ever done in my life as of now and I don't regret it ever;
Lia, my love, my friend, my lover.
You are the first person who actually made me feel this way.
You never judge my emotions,
You never complain whenever I play my games, even tho I'm still playing I still want to talk and hear your voice,

I love you
because I never smile with someone like this before
I'm not a happy person but since I've met you I'm always excited,
Another reason why I love you
You accept me for who I am instead of trying to mold me to someone I'm not.
And I've probably told you this,
But I love how I can tell you anything and you won't judge me or think differently of me
You are the girl I want in my life .
Lia, My sweet Lia