You will know what heartbreak feels like
not when he's gone
but rather,
when he stays
yet you still feel like you're alone.

How am i suppose to hold on
When there is no string attached
to begin with?

If I lose my mind
For like, right now
Will I not like
The tale I got told
Yesterday and before
If it's been told one more time?

Or will I unchoose
The ink color I will use
For the letter I'm going to send
Tomorrow and after
If I was taken to the store again?

I don't think so

Cause will the bird forget how
To sing a good morning
To the sun and dew
If she lose her minds too?

I don't think so

When race
   is all require
Then moral
   is at retire

Have you ever really count
How many times the clock ticks and tocks?
I do
And three all it was

Tick! (I used it to know you)
Tick! (I used it to kiss you)
Tick! (you used it to leave me)

My clock now stop ticking.

To the sun,
we run
And sometimes,
stun.

To the sky,
we try
And sometimes,
sly.

To the self,
we theft
And sometimes,
left.

When you being the case
My lips is to hear
My eyes are to touch
And my heart is to think
I feel something's wrong with that
But I just don't know what
Or mind
For every second I know you're far
And not mine to pull
Every breath taken is feels wrong already
As cocoons turns to mice
Or a sun stands in night
Or just simply as thinking you'll be with me
It's wrong and will always be
While my heart don't get the clue
But keep bleeding and cracking
So badly even if you braid my hair
For every scream it sings
Or every blood drops it drools
I must be an epic reggae by now

But sometimes, just some seldom times
When sense being the case
My heart is to run
For it knows
That it's beats will stop
Soon
Even sooner
When she being your case

Ah, I should say you are one
That make me want to write
Tonight
All about life

Tough I only met you once
While you never met me at all
Tough I only met you once
While sure will be the last time too

I don't love you
God, not at all
It's just you
Open my eyes

You're a total imperfection, really
Fatal imperfection
But why is that
still you are awesome

I don't love you
Lord, not at all
It's just you
Make me understand the mean of perfection itself
It's just you
Help me see that perfection is a ****
When standing next to happiness

It's been a long time since I see you last
6 seconds maybe
And God, that's too long
Way **** too long
For even now I miss you already
nor own you finally

Sigh, my heart is shaking

We always are walking in a long tunnel
Don't you agree
The one with no light
The one which is slippery

Am no afraid of dark
Nor ghost from the past
It's just to fall I'm afraid of

And am no afraid of died
'Cause by the fall
It's just the blood I spilled I'm afraid of
So make the tunnel slippery much more
For others behind my back

The leader in this tunnel of tricks I am
That's why
Sigh, my heart is shaking

It was dim and was Sunday
Which on my top of fave
Even more
With mug of coffee by my bed

I fell for the white puff
The odd plain tickle on my tongue too
But that's before they wake and scream
Dear, youth is with you
that bitterness is nothing but too cruel for you

So they bring me water instead
I nod
And drink

It was hot and was summer
When I come back from the field singing
Even loud
With flowers on my hand

I adore every petals
The dizzying sweet fragrance I smell too
But that's before they walk and scream
Dear, you are not marrying today
To be maiden you shall be proud

So they bring me spinach instead
I smile
And hug

It was midnight and was only my mind
Where the only place I feel safe
Even peace
With pen and paper for a poem

I love the sound of my scratch
The depressing lines I made too
But that's before they sneak and scream
Dear, you have a future to lead
Rhythm and rhyme is out of question

So they bring me crown instead
But I ****
And jump from the cliff

God only know if I dead
But am not
Because that's only on my head

I sick of diction, right
And mad for every heaven that taken, period.
But am dust and fading too
While they are mountain and sky

So I take the crown
I rule
And cry

Once, a sailor is me
I have a boat of an oak
I have a sail of a silk
I have a heart for the sea

And once, the sea is you

Tell me not to swim in the sea
But one cannot resist
How can I, with the glittering bright blue color of it
How can I, with the calming wave calling

But once, a storm happen
Without warning it come
And I drown
And you didn't care

So I buried my boat in a sand
And in a green rocky thing called the ground
I run for the first time
And it feels nice

Now it's all clear, crystal
That my foot are meant to run, not swim
My hands are meant to dig, not row
And my heart is place for joy, not grieve

Now I'm best friend with my foot
And feel could walking forever
But hey, I know what else to do
I'll go walking over the sea

Hey
That's my mind spoke
When eyes first laid on you

It was a holy ground we met
And I thought an angel you were
Thee may do alike if in my shoes

You just sat there
With your mom next
And your charm everywhere

I thought it was dawn
But it's not
It's just that a pair of stars stay in the socket upon your nose

Then you smiled to your mom
And I nearly kiss you
If okay to break that rose petals upon your chin

So I stay and watch
Which is wise I think
That I won't break such a beauty

Maybe a lifetime have passed, maybe more
But spend another much more is fine by me
If needed to witness such a show

I blink, you go
And just like that
I was hit

Just realize that none from the race you are
And other world is where you live
Kind with the heat and indignity

You are no one to choose, obvious
Because way too pretty you are
But God is more, and is fair

To be ****** and unwanted like that
Not match with your light
To be cracked
Either mind and soul
Such a mean thing to hear
But God is not, and is fair

Fallen
A fallen angel you are
One that went wrong and too wrong

But God is never, and is fair

So a pray I send for you
That you could get back your wings
And rise.

Shrinking, my heart is disappearing
Forever isn't it, love gone from my chest
And so is the will

Then you came, pull the trigger of the oblivious
Through a simple hi in a letter
One that I ignore

But you are persistent
And I got no more resistant

My heart is now blooming
I think there's a spring inside
And you are one to blame

We were walking by the shore that day
And your hair never been so orange
I shall say it was pretty

So is the word you say
Beyond wonderful exactly,
You say you love me

Took a heartbeat to answer
To you I do feel the same
ah, I really do

So you took me to your home
An angel is your Mama
But a tyrant is your Papa

But pardon me
What does she said
She say I'm just some girl

The hundredth, I suppose
Crawl to your bed
Kissing your feet

Thy trophy my heart is
Which you won with a single breath
With a flood of tears I regret

My heart is now withering
I think there's a winter inside
And you are one to blame

But a sob woke me up
My! Good lord!
Only a dream that disaster is

A misplaced adventure I through
And a shadow of my lunatic imagination you are
My heart never been touched
Nor broke

Relieve swam in my veins
I'm blessed
Or, am I?

Which one is wiser
To love and got crushed
Or never loving at all

Which one is better
To be lied by one you love
Or to make out with loneliness

Don't you know the answer
Because I do
Taught by a mister named misplaced adventure.

I write a poem for one
Soul of the lonely in earth

For one to give
Disappointment in eyes of a Daddy

For one to make
Mommy stop trusting tough loving still

Today is raining
And the sky is grey
And the bird is mute
And the neighbor is quite
And the road is empty
And her eyes is crying

Her heart. Shouting. Trembling.

It's decided then,
One's failing

But wait!
I write a poem for one
Soul of the lonely in earth
Not of the nonbeliever

The shore is not seen yet, far far away still
And tomorrow say will be coming
So one's not decided

Smile
One shall be smiling

Because I write a poem for one
Soul of the lonely in mine

Today I met a clown
One, two, three, hundreds.

One is singing
And one is dancing
But one actually hate music
And one is totally bored

Other come to me
Then one say he loves me
But I don't care
And he doesn't mind

So what does it mean

I met a clown
Haven't I say I despise clowns?

But I do keep one in my house too
One sleep in my bed
One eat in my plate
One stare in the mirror

Why is that I don't know
Maybe because everybody done the same

Now who dare to take a knife
Is one that I desire
**** my clown is the order
And my heart in the return