I want my Grandmother,
to be at my college graduation.
I want my Grandmother,
to write me letters while I'm away.
And if you won't let her,
Take me back to when I was a child.
Sitting in the sun on Grandmas lap.
Catching fire flies while she sat,
around a campfire with my Grandfather.
Telling stories of how they first met.
I want my grandmother.
Dear Cancer,
I want my grandmother.

(I) promised you I'd stop chasing thi(n)gs -
chasing ***** with ***
and chasing boys who'd n(e)ver satisfy.
I guess I kept chasing to see if you'd care,
how far you'd stretch, to se(e)
if you'd come back after you'd left.

It's my sixth shot tonight
and I can't be your friend.
I'm not sure how to (d)eal with missing you so much
that my brain's too foggy to make my morning tea.
Sometimes I stand in the kitchen and I cook breakfast for two
but I throw it all away because I don't know
what the hell I'm supposed to do in this God-forsaken house
without (y)ou.
  
So I keep kissing boys and
I keep writing with *** in my veins
instead of blood.
It's my eight sh(o)t tonight,
and I don't know how many boys I'll kiss before I forget the way
you said my name.
I don't want yo(u) anymore.

i will let myself
[my soul]
sink into your ocean.

Oh,
do stay a little while longer.

At least
wait until our coffee has gone cold,
and our tongues weak.

I have no more reason
To commit self treason

No more need for suicide
No need to split my skin so Very wide

I am broken
My insides breaking
My heart is tearing

You said you needed me
But I guess I wasn't who I ought to be.

You turned your back
Severed our friendship in one single hack

I loved you
You were my sister

You were my friend
But I forgot that I don't mean jack in the very end

I hope you are happy
And I'll wish you along
Because we both know I am too far gone

I'll stay here and wait
I'll wait till I fall
And all that is left is a memory
A memory on which you may never call

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
I don't even want to know why.

Just leave so I can burn myself
So I can destroy myself
So I can recreate myself

Then I'll wear a fake smile
Around you awhile
Your new friends I'll beguile
Thinking through the ****** trial