They told me to stop smoking
Because I'm just killing myself
but they don't know that it's the only
thing that prevents me from taking my life
since you've left me.

-S.S

We didn't get along the first time we met , I was intimidated that there was an electric shock with in us.

I don't remember how but we got close to each other that we slept together that night .

We exchanged numbers and we had late night calls, non - sense / stupid conversation that our mums wouldn't like.

Things got serious between us , see we ain't a thing but we held each others hand like you were mine and I was yours.

Your hugs would stop the world around us and it would feel like its just the two of us .

Months passed

I confessed to you what I felt and you accepted it, but  you didn't tell me that you liked me back.

I was hurt.

Years  and Months passed

I still remember our conversations and the late night calls . I can't help myself smiling like an idiot just when I try to reminisce all those happy memories we made.

My heart aches because I am yours and you are not mine.

we got tricked by time and fate.

As I smoke my last cigarette I'm thinking of you
I always thought that everytime I exhale the smoke of the cig.
I would erase you from my mind
and as I inhale it I try to forget you
but sadly I can't
Because the truth is you still hold a part in my heart and I'm still hung up on you.

-S.S