I am older
No longer strangled by
blinded naivete
with a smudge
of silly
embracing the white
invasion
in every crevice
of my body
I am a glacier
receding into
the extinction of Me
Now that I am closer
to the fervent void
I will savor
this child free air
a crone and a mystery
to thee

I'd rather be me
than you
in this skin
there are no apologies
just small anxieties
that come with
a purpose
to move me into
the center of my being
unafraid
to be happy in these bones
and free to be me

Then at noon
where I am one
equinoxed
my sun found me
a Icarus.

I want to grow
As fast as my cat
I wanna be big already
How can I do that?

It’s ok to be young
Don’t worry it will come
You will grow fast enough
My child my little one

But I’m too small
Kids make fun
The tree over my shadows
Covering me from the sun

You will grow soon my dear
You will sprout quickly
In another year
No need to fear

Sigh. I guess you are right
You were young once too
Seeing pictures with grandma
I wish I knew the small you

You know me now
I’m telling you child
I’m still that little person
Deep down inside

You know how I feel?
Yes my child, I do
How do you know for sure?
Because I was once you, then I grew