Learning to be in a relationship is hard but learning to be fine with being alone is even harder.

-star gazer

Silent fog
Breath of unheard screams
Rests on the heads of heavy souls
Some souls are tattered and torn
Some souls are scarred
Some of them have holes in their hearts
And some are just dark
The fog pats them on the head
Leaves glistening droplets in their hair
Then watches as souls half dead
Fall to pieces in their bed
And dissolve in the moon’s iridescent beam
The fog pouts, and its drops become thicker
Angry tears fall to soak the city in sorrow.

I left my heart at home
But home was with you
Where pillows were foam
And the skies were blue

I left my heart in your care
In the palm of your hands
Where it caressed your hair
As it contracts and expands

I left my heart all for you
With your plentiful dreams
Where happiness ensues
Following planned seams.

I left my heart as a flower
So that its scent enchanted
And it grew every single hour
Alongside the love you planted.

I left my heart for you
Exclusive is all its known
For it only ever beats for you
But apart we have grown…

I left my heart all for you
Because I will always love you

I love you now and forever.

I am haunted by a past,
full of nightmares and a gun shot,
a melancholy day,
a restless night.

To when will I be,
at a place of a new me.
Here I am again.
Lost and never found.

I thought I was fine.
Little did I know
that I was wrong to say.
I was never fine.

A home is where
your undying heart stays.
I lost my home.
All I have is a place to live.

Every hour I am awake
at a place not a home.
I turn inevitably insane
like a gun unready to aim.

I am all alone.
Not a single one
can interpret what I feel.
Moreover, I am the black sheep.

Do I get to keep who I am?
NO--I can't.
I am limited to what I need.
How can I be better?

A water pipe that has a hole
can be fixed with a bit of tape.
However, it is never fixed
only pretending to be fixed --covered.

I was never fixed.
I was only pretending to be.
It's been a year,
and yet I am found at a grave.

Friends help.
Family don't.
I though we'd go as one
to overcome.

No one is listening.
I am watched over by
a ghost of
---nothing.