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Mar 2016 m i a

Smoke

Mar 2016 m i a

L Marie

Smoke

I never thought
I'd fall for a man
Who smoked cigars,
Tobacco an instant turn-off,
But as you confessed
To them, so casually
I was led to accept
The fact, so easily,
Like I got lost in
The haze of this thing
Called feelings.

I guess you're worth the exception.

#love #feelings #infatuation #smoke #blind #tobacco #quirks #exceptions #cigars

Mar 2016 m i a

9:47 p.m.

Mar 2016 m i a

Skaidrum

9:47 p.m.

Mirrors are jealous creatures of candor;
beauty is reflected on a pane of self-hatred.

We are forever at war with ourselves.
Don't tell me this isn't denial.

Mar 2016 m i a

No One Knew

Mar 2016 m i a

Jackie

No One Knew

Her parents did not know that once the door was shut, our love came forward
They thought we were just close friends
Just two girls trying to make it through the troubles of high school together
My parents did not know that when I said I had a "project" to work on
It really meant that I was working on loving myself fully with a girl who already loved all of my unfinished parts
Society did not know that we tried to live in the shadows
That we worked on changing so others felt more secure
That we attempted to mold and shape ourselves into this idea of normal but it never seemed right
She did not know that she was not just my moon and sun
But my entire galaxy
The gravitational pull that I orbited around
My chain of stars and planets
She did not know because I never really told her
Feeling that way scared me to my core
I always just told her I loved her but nothing more
I tried not to write about her
She did not know that I stayed awake at night
That all my feelings bounced around in my head and screamed to be let out
That I ached to express myself to a world that wanted to keep me quiet
She did not know that I wanted to die too
That my skin felt the shiver of a blade more often than it felt the warmth of her touch
That I forced myself to stay alive for her
Pushed myself to live each day
I did not know that I would lose her
That she would drift up to the sky and take her place among the stars
That I would lose part of myself
No one knew of our love
They did not know of our struggles to stay grounded
Or our fight to love each other without the fear of losing
But we lost
We lost it all

Mar 2016 m i a

Didn’t I Tell You?

Mar 2016 m i a

Bailey

Didn’t I Tell You?

Didn't I tell you I was going to break free from this system of society? Didn't I tell you I would let the syllables escape from my lips that you just can’t bear? Didn't I tell you that you would struggle beneath the truth that I can’t cover? Didn't I tell you we were all doomed because we simply aren't a part of reality anymore? The world is swirling around us in brilliant colors of life and love and acceptance yet we CHOOSE to sit in our places we claim ours and we CHOOSE to try and escape from the gift of life by replacing it with artificial beauty and intelligence. It is not the world crashing around us that is the problem, it is us, stuck inside our own worlds. We somehow can’t escape ourselves yet we still destroy everything around us. Natural? No. This is humanity's CHOICE. Didn't I tell you? We're all wasting away in the garbage we've created.

When I remember that i wrote this in fifth grade I wonder about my head.

#deep #random #crap #adolescent

Mar 2016 m i a

Athena

Mar 2016 m i a

Eriko

Athena

soft, kissing rain and grey clouds*
trail a finger down the cold
*marble statue of Athena

wisdom

#rain #statue #athena

Mar 2016 m i a

Smother

Mar 2016 m i a

Darcy

Smother

I suffocated myself with the words I didn't say.

#depression #pain #depressed #dark #darkness #painful

Mar 2016 m i a

Human

Mar 2016 m i a

Ath3na

Human

I'm still learning how to be human. Some days I fail horribly. Some days I feel nothing. There is a terrible emptiness that threatens to swallow me whole. The darkness is like a cancer that grows inside of me; consuming my Humanity. I see hatred, ugliness, and ignorance everywhere and I just want to watch the world burn down around me. We can start all over and build our future with the working parts of our broken existence.