Ryan M Hall

Ryan M Hall Jul 2017

New Hampshire has been my home away from home. I know I can rest my head in the comfort of Concord and watch the stars in Laconia. I had my first kiss in Franklin, and I experienced my first snow fall in Franconia Notch. I had my heart broken in Dover and watched my parent’s marriage die in Gilmanton.

I am not leaving any of this behind.
I won’t let the memories I’ve made here die.
I’ll shed a tear tomorrow and light a Marlboro as my trailer bounces behind my Ford Escape.

I’ll miss you when I’m gone.

But I promise I won’t be gone for too long.

I’m leaving my favorite place in The World Sunday morning. I’ll never forget this amazing place. My own slice of the north east. And I won’t be gone forever

#leaving #memories #new #hampshire

Ryan M Hall Jun 2017

6/30/17

I wake in the morning, brew coffee, go to work, and sleep.

It's not the life of dreams but I take comfort in the predictability. Though working two jobs is killing me, at least my lack of availability keeps me from manifesting any sort of lack in stability. Consider me an absentee from the social scene and remember me fondly.

I'm not sorry. I'm doing me and if that's something you can't see, then I'll kindly ask you to leave. Just remember to shut the door softly.

But don't think the death of my childhood doesn't haunt me.

There's a weird growing phase in long term friendships where people think you've changed and that you don't have time for them. In actuality you're just busy. Sometimes this prompts friends to leave your life. It's sad, but there's really nothing you can do but lament the death of a childhood. After a little time you just have to move on.

Ryan M Hall Jun 2017

My Life Became Beautiful

A cardinal landed on the hood of my pick-up today. It stood silently staring at me as the rain slid down the windshield.

It watched as I smoked my last cigarette and listened to Art Farmer puff away on the trumpet. The two of us shared each other’s company as the piano carried the tune.

Without warning my winged friend was gone with the wind. Flying off into the woods.
I was astounded that my companion had stayed for so long.

The small things in life are what make it wonderful.

As the feathered marvel flew away,
Without warning my life, like the world around me, became beautiful.

It’s very apparent that every person has had the realization that small things in life are beautiful. But today that bird sitting on my hood and staring at me reminded me that the tiniest thing can turn your day around.

#life #beauty

Ryan M Hall Nov 2016

11/17/16

I used to think a life without you wasn't worth living,
Sleep wasn't as refreshing,
Food wasn't as satisfying,
And love was elusive.

Now I reminisce, but I don't dwell.
Your coffee eyes no longer rule my thoughts at night.
I am no better or worse without you.

I remain constant.
In a world that has always been letting me down,
that is all I need.

#sad #up #fall #break #healing #reflective

Ryan M Hall Sep 2016

Autumn's Wistful Smile

The leaves have changed faster than I expected them to.
Swirls of brown and yellow twisting through the void without care.
They dance and spiral around me.

I admire the complete freedom of nature.
I ponder her nature.
I am glad she is free to twist and turn and glide through life.
To me, she will always be the wind and leaves of autumn.
Stinging my cheeks, making my eyes water, but always fondly reminding me of beauty in life.

For the first time in a month,
I smile.

Fall has always been the time of change.

#love #sad #change #healing #heartache

Ryan M Hall Aug 2016

Afro

I've been growing out my hair despite my better judgment. Maybe in spite of your hatred of long luxurious locks. Either way my Afro is here to stay.

#hair #long #afro

Ryan M Hall Aug 2016

Untitled

Some days I still feel like the scared boy I once was. The same child who mouthed

"I love you"

from the mattress on the living room floor . I have never forgotten that shy smile you made. I remember you so vividly.

I can still see your playful eyes, and visualize the corners of your mouth as they reveal your sharp cainine teeth. I'll never forget that moment.

It's disheartening to learn that sometimes progress isn't made.

I may always be that terrified boy who is hopelessly in

love.

#love #lost